mebbe not..

not my last post before exams that is...

can't agree more with xq... it's hard not to type anything when there's loads of stuff on the mind...

so here i go again.. on my senseless grumblings *tries to shoo the fly off the screen as the screen is the only light source ard my living room now*

hate the weather recently.. a moment hot a moment cold.. i rather it keep staying cold.. hmm weird rite? i'm so afraid of coldness yet i wan it to be cold.. ya.. but that's the way i am...

lessons are finally over... i'm quite glad... cuz tis sem's been busy and i can't wait to get a break... n of cuz, being the last week of school sure got quite abit of stuff happened...

not gonna name them tho.. too bad Xp

the thought of exams no longer stir anything in me.. not that i'm prepared.. hell i'm totally not.. ya but.. i'm juz so numb to it... or mebbe i'm juz stressed till saturation point that my brain goes into denial mode... tink i'll be those 1st few to die once i step into society... cuz i've totally lost my fighting spirit... probably i'll be better off as a hermit somewhere...

crapz... k.. continue wif my usual 'stare at the notes n stone' routine...

oh ya, Seed destiny got new opening n ending songs... i dunno what they're tryin to hint viewers.. but i find it quite disturbin.. (mainly becuz it seems like my fav pairing, AsuCaga.. seems abit.. ok not abit... but rather shaky) and i reallie hope they dun go off killing those ppl who survived Seed (1st series) enuff has died...

and i can't wait for the 2nd seed destiny OST to be out!

possibly the last entry until exams

ya... possibly the last entry til my exams start.... the countdown is making me all stressed up n helpless <<---- i.e. i'm feeling so helpless i can't do anything.. ><

hmmm..

yesterday helped Jsim celebrated his burfday.. the celebration is belated tho... and it kinda struck me that we barely celebrated it for him on the actual day in these years... er.. rite? that's what's registered in my memory.. but my memory's kinda faulty these days.. shucks

when i was abt to write in his card... it juz struck me that i've stopped crappin for so long that i dunno what to write.. reallie clueless... ya.. so guess the whole chunk of stuff i wrote may be quite incoherent (esp at the front) cuz i'm juz writin watever that hits my mind.... (while some actuallie hit n slipped my mind immediately before i even pen it down.. :\)

as for the rest of the stuff tt happen at ding tai fung.. juz go see my fotoblog lar.. lazy to repeat :X

end up we went js's house to rot... ok lar.. i din rot.. the rest did.. haa.. well, i guess that could be the very last time i visit that house of his (cuz he'll be moving)... and i can't imagine that his new room is gonna be smaller (it's small as it is.. for 2 ppl)

hmm.. then as js is tryin to connect to dota for erik.. i was listen to auntie n lj tokin abt marriage stuff as they flip the bride magazine (smthin lydat)... tk chipped in his tot's too.. quite interestin too... but i reallie wonder, will ppl in future change their wedding style?

erm.. ok.. out of the topic.. but anyway.. reallie luv lazin ard wif frens even if there's nuttin to do...

i'm lookin forward for a fun filled holz! (but my exam's not near over at all -_-)

i wan more fotos pls! :X

hmmm, was looking at the fotos i took and realised that the no. of pics i took are declining...

i.e. i'm beginning to underuse my cam! cannoT! muz take more pictures!!

I always felt that since I have a digicam, I should bring it along with me so I can take whatever I wan whenever I can or feel like it. But, one more digicam means one more gadget to look after... -_- and i dun feel like doing that cuz now i already got one xtra stuff to take care off.. the tungstun T... k.. i noe it's old(probably no one wans it anyway)... still i dun like the idea of losing it.

still... will try to take as much fotos as i can now.. and videos too! they're fun to watch :D

actually wanted to type something else.. but when i reach here i found out that i could no longer type it out into words... haiz.. so end up i crapped abt other stuff... paiseh

food for tot: does being polite creates a barrier??? Chinese always say li3 duo1 ren2 bu4 guai4.. which is true.. but they never mention the side effects? what u guys think?

alternate dimensions

if there are alternate dimensions to our world... what do you think you'll be like in other dimensions?

Sometimes, can't help feeling that dreams seems to show you what you may be in another dimension... the world seems the same but yet it's not... the people around you are the same yet, do not behave like themselves in reality... even you is different...

how true...

a senior of mine fwded this... found it very true.. for me at least.

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"Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realising that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realising that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

What you don't recognise is that they are realising that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job, and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realising that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realise that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realise that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself, and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realise is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

april fools'! "erm... ur _____ got a hole..."

april fool day trick courtesy of my mom. :X
Well, the tricked worked well on my friends though it didn't seem to work on me.. haa.. think my mom's just bad at lying.

Victims this year(in order w.r.t time the joke is cracked):
- omy
- ndru
- sally
- audrey??? (erm, not sure if she caught the joke actually)
- yvonne (is sally who cracked the joke... but it's my.. i mean my mom's joke.. haha)

arhz lame.

oh well... forgot to mention some funny stuff that happened these few days...
yesterday: ndru's hotdog bounced out of the bun when ndru opened the box... :X ya.. wasted... the whole hotdog...
and since then... SY's saying that he's clumsy... haa (and even more so after he tried opening a bottle of badly shaked coke)

and well, I tink i can understand why KF says SY's a cok'ster (he really can crap.. and is damn funny... XD )

woW, the world is spinning

yup.. of cuz it's spinning XD

aiyah, was having a super duper bad runny nose today... wasn't as bad, but the coldness in LT6 made it much worse. Sneezed non stop too... hope I never pass any germs to anyone... X|

cold means block nose, block ears and headache...
so the rest of the day for me is really bad.. especially during Jap tutorial... can't even think straight.

Hmmmm... a fren (decide nt to mention who... dunno why.. dun feel like saying names... tink my brain's still not thinkin well) mentioned about possibly mite change course as that course is much more pragmatic. Of cuz, this kinda news is or often received wif a loud "huh"... esp when u're alreadi like halfway thru the current one... will definately use up even more time and so on....

as a fren i'll still support the idea... though i always still think it's better to follow one's interests... budden again, perhaps in this world.. interests dun worth a cent...

follow what you believe in, spread your wing and fly~

more organised, no?

hmmmm, my sis passed me her super duper underused Tungstun T (that I think is about to be obsolete) and I feel like i've became a whole lot more organised...

well, but still... I can't really keep to the schedule i set T_T

saddening.. it's only like 24-23 days away, and i'm still not serious enough. how?

worse still, i have tests all the way til school close... and a presentation for the project to be due...

got a bad feeling i won't get to study until the study week starts.. CHOY!

k... shld not waste time here n go study~

casualty prone..

been kinda casualty prone lately...

keep ramming my arm or elbow into hard objects as i walk... losin balance on the bus n hit the wall :S (well, in this case is the bus uncle's fault.. lousy driver.. :\)
hurting my toe... (cuz i accidentally kicked sf's sandles... veri hard wor.. issit made of diamond? o.O) and many other other stuff lar...

is it because i'm mentally exhausteD? *shrugs*

anyway, finally cannot wait for chuang yi's version of fruit basket 16 to come out.. so went to buy the taiwan one which cost abt a dollar more...

cried as i read... tears juz keep flowing like the tap never close lidat... it's definately something rare for me...
a good thing i decided to go home n read the rest of it after finishing my ice kacang (weather too hot.. so juz went to the kopitiam to eat b4 going home..)
else it wld be terrible to cry in public bah =_=

as for what happen in the chapter... eh... it's juz about the main character's parents... how her mom who used to be a gang member, met a teacher(erm.. temp teacher), how he changed her n they got married... got child... en he died.. blah blah... nothing thaT fresh to the plot... but somehow.. dunno why... :S

anyway, i definately felt much better after reading.. heh

looked back, looked front...

finally the report for EG1415 is over. Well, this doesn't mean the end of EG1415... but at least for now... it's no longer at the top priority...

think my eyes are really sick of looking at computer screen... it's threatening to close while i was feeling quite fine awhile ago... :(

everyone's working very hard.... losing their sleep and all these...

though it may be amusing to see frens falling asleep during lecture... deep down i felt pretty sad... to have to fight to keep awake during lectures is a dreadful thing... yet you can't sleep well, then you still have to find extra time to catch up... both on schoolwork n slptime

life isn't easy... even though studying can be fun... it's still quite torturing...
why muz we study till like this? study until we can't sleep peacefully, can't have proper meals... slog so hard in the end... we (at least for me...) dun gain thaT much afterall....

i can't see the worth of puttin in that kind of effort.. probably why i'm lacking motivation...

so busy... time so little.. i always find semesters in NUS short... perhaps aside from the very first sem... the rest has been very short.. n gettin shorter still... terrible reallie... though i hate slow paced life... it's kinda getting too fast for me... sooo fast until i can't even see what i'm doing... holidays is a relief perhaps... but it's different from going to school.. i like going to school, see all your frens.. but.. i guess that's all to it le..

oh ya.. another thing i wanna add... i never knew, having to eat lunch on your own is such a lonely thing to do... esp in the canteen... therefore.. i rather not eat (a proper meal that is)

haiz... everyone jiayou! it's like 29 days to exams...

big bad writers block

had to be today.. damn dreadful, to hafta write a report wif writers block... everything becomes incoherent... and i juz can't think of a full sentence ><~

got so many things to type here.. but i juz can't type anymore.. ARGH
reallie a torture.. plus i'm so sleepy now..

hope i wun get back last nite's dream... it's not a nightmare.. but stil kinda a nightmare to me... budden.... again, that's closer to the reality (minus the amt of ppl queueing for train... and even sightings of floating objects)

finally, i can breathe abit!

it's amazing how much a test with 10% weightage can stress ppl so much.. ok, 10% isn't that little.. but.. it's less than the usual 20%... :X

guess it's the cereal i had tis morning.. darn sweet... wif darn sweet soyabean milk... ya.. so even though i only sleep around 4-5 hrs last nite.. and previous nights too... i felt rather hyper. :X

well, that's good... :P i'm currently in NUS still.. waitin for mi frens to finish their lab. It was Sally's 21st burfday ydae... so she holdin bbq to celebrate today. quite alot of ppl going wor.. so i hope it'll be fun! it's been a long while since the previous bbq... but well, some peeps not going :(

oh ya.. it's at west coast... sheesh.. dunno how i'm gonna get home later ><~

hmmm.. bot her a "burberry" wallet (sorry, but i'm no rich person) wif a customised acrylic keychain.. quite nice i tink.. on top of it got a card (end up let everyone sign cuz it's kinda big... well, &dru's 'fault'.. i ask him buy one.. sharin the cost of the prez wif him...) ah, but i always think, the most cruicial thing is to get a card... i'm happier reading cards then juz gettin the prez alone... buT! that doesn't mean no prezzie will do hoR :X effort efforT!

oops.. erm... geez... *rots*

next week, project due! DUE!!! so this whole weekend no doubt is eg1415.. and ee2009 since i got the test comin up! siao le.. another mad week to come.. lucky presentation not yet..... @.@

talkin abt eg1415... dunno why... one of my teammates-junjie.. nowadays look more cheerful.. that time 1st time he join our grp.. he like veri glum n gloomy... like wanna scold ppl :X
well, guess he's juz tired from his other proj

haiz.... sat muz catch back loads of sleep... en muz do all the catchin up for hmwk n so on.... it'll be lidat all the way till end of april (exAmS! ><~)

die.

anyway, congrats to jsim, ORDin tml rite? :P

*needs to be cut off from the computer*

i just can't concentrate on whatever i'm doing with a computer infront of me *sobz*

the bad thing is, there's so many things to be done thru the comp..
shucks

:S

oh ya, wanted to tok abt the dream i had last nite... it's another hantu related dream o.O
and i'm stuck there wif loads of ppl... some are my frens.. then abt half of the ppl there are actuallie hantus but disguised as humans, but still got alot of ppl lar.. haa +_+
er... it's @ tis super big mansion i guess... @ first i tot it's a school... cuz i remember got library.. but... towards the end of the dream, none of it looks like a school anyway... :S but it's kinda ole.. u noe.. like hogwarts? but it's definately not like a school.. 'cept the library.. :x oh ya.. the lib kinda reminds me of aj's lib... ><

erm anyway.. i can't exactly remember what happened at the front part.. but i definately didn't knew abt existence of hantus then... saw one kid juggling veri well in the lib.... ya.. juggling... i guess andrew's juggling club matters kinda rubbed into my brain.. :X and the thought of me going to jio that kid to join juggling crossed my mind.. diaoz... yeah.. en i remember i saw yvonne in the dream... tink juz chat awhile then left liao.. dunno what i was doing also, waitin here waitin there... waiting for someone?

ya.. then dunno when then become nite time? then what i remember is i wanna make my way to the canteen or dining hall... budden the main pathways are not lighted up... then someone who tried going say the way is blocked?! things started getting weird... and the crowd of us who wanted to go there started takin weird paths.. sneak thru giant holes along the wall.. along the ceiling.. (tink even the lift isn't working...) but there's lights coming out from some room? (supposely even haunted) @@

dunno lar... then suddenli while making our way thru the corridoor of smwhere... then everyone started running.. away from what u noe.. actuallie.. those hantus mingled within us... n we hafta keep siaming them... dunno why i was holding something that seems to show their true identity when i hold it close to their faces.. haa.. so i started testin it on everyone near me.. cuz i dunno all the ppl ard me.. can't trust anyone :S erm... ya.. scrambled our way out.. wif many screams along the way... then came to one room at the end.. erm.. like no where else to run.. n somehow, cannot get out of that place also bah..

then got this old man... er, dunno who... told us to go look for the "wand" like stuff to keep the hantus in ctrl, supposely these hantus r released due to a broken seal.. so muz go destroy them or smthin lidat...

so end up i become ghost buster liao... -_-
there's some crap logic behind gettin the wands but i shant explain further.. cuz it's reallie silly.. :s

juz wanna whine n complain abit

can ignore tis post if u wan...

i'm soooooooooooooooooo tired.......
juz let me sleep forever!

damn busy... but i stil feel like writing :X

i muz be courting death lar... coming to write here at tis kinda time...
but, juz feel like writing.

hmmmm... dunno how to reallie put things.. but i did learn that weird news spreads -_- esp, after yvonne asked me that farnie question.... well... to me it's pretty an insignificant event... mebbe juz my bluntness @ work.. i'm supposed to be someone who talk w/o using my brains anyway (and i still do... not use my brains.. :X)
come to think of it, glad nuttin went wrong.. teehee

erm... ya... so much for shooting off my mouth... guess i gave a tad too much comment today... invited lotsa unwelcomed reaction towards me.. well, it's nuttin that bad.. but juz smthin i dun reallie like... hope they'll get tired n leave me in peace... not as if anything will happen.. dotx

~owari~

my mind probably works this way...

"like a mouse running in a wheel... quickly starts running over things in the mind over and over like a mouse running endlessly in the wheel"

mind over heart

hmmm... hidden entry... :P

i'm findin my actions damn contradicting... i've become rather conscious... n like hafta act here n there every now and then.... erm... not acting in the sense of being a hypocrite la.... it's not something bad.. doesn't affect any ppl except myself...

my problem: my mind wans me to act that way... but i actualli dislike it... i hate it infact... but my mind will reason somehow.. n ofcuz mind is stronger than the heart (scientifically, that's where it commands ur body!) ya.. shucks... haiz... reallie at a loss... dunno wat to do....

every action u do, will result in sorta a ripple effect back... or reflection or feedback watever way u wanna put it...
I dunno if what i'm receiving now is a feedback due to my current action or has totally no link... not that happi wif it... erm... it's not the worse... tho i think my mind has prepared for the worse but i reallie dun wan it! AHHHHHH~!
well, i juz hope if in any case, if what i'm receiving now is a feedback due to my "acting"... i hope it's juz a "pei4 he2" show... erM.... i.e. it's a understood action... aiyah.. sian

wat to do..? wat to dO???? ><

argh, all the mid term tests coming... n i'm lagging for all my mods... even jap... and veri veri lag for 2012...

reallie contemplating abt s/uing jap.. not that i tink i wun score for that.. but i'm worried that my other core modules will die... *touchwood*

how? tho i reallie dun wanna s/u.. now so many things falling on me.. projects, tests n tons of undone tutorial = lotsa catch up.. n smmore in lecture i alreadi lost the lecturers (be it they're good lecturers or not..)

the whole sem still like veri hazy now.. dunno wat to do.. shld i s/u?? shld i shld i?

*faintx*

dream dream dream

was reading my notes on the bed (bad idea!) and i fell asleep (expected.. :\)

it's a weird dream, a dream where i'm the only one talking. the person beside me (shan't name.. n i hope i din get the wrong person :S) didn't even say one word... juz keep standing beside me.. accompany me all the way.. but never muttered a word...
come to think of it now, it's kinda creepy huh....

i got a weird feeling abt that too in the dream.. but tok more or less the person doesn't seem to speak (after all my futile efforts at throwing questions..)

oh ya, then i keep spotting this particular pattern of clock.. it's counted as a new design i supposed.. quite trendy..
erm.. and that design's used on telephone (wif clocks) also -_-

well, at least i never dream of things like the whole world turning into vampires or so on :X

the BaT experimenT :X

hmmm... went back to NUS today for Eg1415 project.
progress wise still alright i guess.. though the project's reallie gonna challenge my crapping skills n english TT__TT

well, i guess the funniest thing of the day is that Sy actuallie brought up about one of the design experiments for physics for A-lvls... which i did before as a mock paper if my memory serves me well enough...
it's to do wif testing the sound of the bat or measuring the soundwave that the bat emits... smthing lidat lar.. :X

the funniest thing is the ways people would go about designing the procedure to do this experiment... all sorts of things like whacking the poor bat.. or even electrocuting it.. then whack it harder or increase the voltage across?? hee.. reallie, it's a good laff. i remember my teacher told me about the funny ways people go about this expt too.. it's reallie hilarious! XD

alrite.. now the more i think of it the more i feel like laffing... *runs off to laff*

How to "kill" blog readers [crap entry, dun read if you dun wanna get "killed"]

it is very easy to kill readers off when they read your blog as you can subject them to torture by putting in important information that will arouse their curiosity yet force them to read it in the most unreadable manner so as you're reading this i'm letting you experience how bad it can get by subjecting you through hell itself for a short while tho the first way is ofcuz not to put any punctuation as you will just send readers into a sea of agony having to figure out your sentence structure next you cannot use any paragraphing which will force your readers to digest the whole large chunk of words in one shot and ofcuz no punctuation definately makes it ten times worse three you can use an incredibly illegible font that might be so cursive beyond recognition or a font so small that requires ten times zoom to even make out a word and lastly use a super duper bright colour that blinds readers or simply blend into the background there is no need to resort to violence if you want to stop people from reading your blog

:)

happiE v-day/friendship-day/lecturer's day?!

if u're wondering why i add the lecturer's day.. cuz something interesting happened during my EE2010 lecture..
someone actualli gave flowers to my lecturer.. haa.. and the row of guys behind me started wolf whistling.. hee.. it's reallie interesting, cuz it's the 1st time i see ppl give flowers to lecturers.

the whole lecture grp was generally amused

hmmm... i almost reach the LT late today.. cuz was dloadin songs (gundam seed one.. wat else :P) and was reluctant to stop.. :X
well, to my surprise, sf n ndru was alreadi there n ndru's busy making balloon flowers. end up he cldn't conc on the lecture so that he cld finish making a flower for all the girls (he knew) in the LT. haa.. so poor thing... :X

and audrey gave me a slice of the brownie she baked! hee.. she's so good at cookies n brownies.. :P someone sure got a jing4 de2 liao3 kitchen de4 gf :X

omy also gav me 2 chocolate kisses after tat! nice :9~

other than that, as sf described, u suddenli see alot more chiobus ard in engin... i commented that probably come find bf one.. and she gav that kind of look.. haa! oops.. hope no engin guys readin this.. dun come find me :X

ya.. then i tink when we're going for our lab.. the school's like empty again... juz like cNY eve!! believe it or not man.. haa... reallie exaggeratin

yup... spent the rest of the days in the lab.. wif chinmay n shenghwee poppin over now and then... i donated some of my wires to shenghwee.. :P hope i got enuff left.. cuz some of my frens say cannot ask for more :(
then i borrowed his wire cutter.. cuz i din bring... :
my breadboard looks disgusting.. guess nxt time muz plan better before wiring... but tis time i tink can heck it lar.. haha

HapPie CNY!

hmmm.. tink my CNY celebration finally came to an end? (seems so for now...)
was darn busy going all o'ver the place since chu1 er2...

1st day of CNY again, my relatives came.. nothing new. Everyone aside from the kids growin up reel quick n the boys all overshootin my height.. nuttin that new either :p

2nd day, went to m'sia and i finally can offer incense to my grandma after sooo long... my mom stil haven't gotten over it.. well, it's hard i guess when u go there n u dun see the person u see always...n yup... again, sat there n watch tv.. nuttin new.. juz less my grandma.. haiz.. missed her too

3rd day, went to school in the morninG (got lecture leh.. n tutorial too) and i'm soooo shocked to see jeff.. cuz even andrew din come... :X:X and jinghow too! ahaha.. wat's the world comin to? then at evenin.. went to zhuofeng's hse wif merina, chui har, chris n sally... erm, christina got lect til 6.. so sally pei her n both of them were late.. :\ so the 3 of us sat at the couch watching kung fu hustle.. which jsim called (askin me when i'll go over to Erik's hse for stayover) and sayz i'm mad... -_- well, at least i caught back wat i missed at the theatres :P
after chris n sally came.. we started playin heart attack.. (i always got it. hehe.. ) then eat some dishes zf's mom cooked... it's veri fun to see zf's parents n chris all tokin in cantonese.. and i'm pretty happy that i understand quite abit of their conversation :D
zf's parents are like veri nice.. hee.. n did i mention that zf's sec sch frens where there too? ya.. after the long dinner (consisting more of conversations) went to can1 guan1 zf's room.. he showed us the whole album of fotos he took wif his gf... (n i was tinkin he dun even nid to take jie2 hun1 fotos alreadi)
then after that they played blackjack while i watched.. :P

[fotos will be up in fotopages]

yup.. arnd 2230 we left n i headed for Erik's hse... reach there at i tink 2300+ then watched lj, erik, js n edwin(erik's bro) play mj... lia rottin at the couch.. hahaa :X the game somehow ended n we watched Shutter.. some thai ghost film... quite creepy in the sense they used it to link it up wif foto takin n so on... ~_~||| erm... ya.. but ok lar.. cuz i'm so sleepy.. the effect isn't that bad... but i still dun reallie like recallin that show.. oh ya, then there's a part where erik's light fused at a climax scene... gave everyone a shock.. timing is good.. erm... hope it's juz pure coincidence... xie2 men2... :S
after that watched a world without thieves... erm.. boring.... but the endin is kinda sad. but overall show still boring.. lia wanna watch one n she fell asleep =_=... haiz.. so we started playin bridge till mornin after the show ended n left lia "snoring" off on the couch.. haha

----------- nxt day ----------------

ya morning then we woke up lia.. en juz dragged time.. poh ard.. took some silly fotos.. haa then went to hav breakfast.. and lia had to go cuz her dad's here.. haiz..
went home after breakfast.. bathed.. slept for a couple of hrs.. then supposely hafta go bowlin wif my parents.. but they had to help my sis queue for 4D n wasted one hr.. then reach amk then i found out (or sorta remembered) that the bowling alley's gone liao.. sadded...
haiz.. so rotted ard in amk lib... then i went off to audrey's hse..
went to j8 for awhile cuz i dunno who's at her hse.. dun wanna go play gooseberry.. but found out that i haf to.. but was darn glad that zhenwei's there alreadi. :X
ya.. then see them rip music... then played mj while the rest came (sihui, mingkwan) then change ppl... then after that mary n chuanyang came.. then juz keep rotatin ppl for mj while the rest of us feast on the junk food... (argh..growin faT! :( )
ya.. then juz watched them play mj, watch tv.. then when meiyee came.. we played big2 for awhile... then stopped (i still tink bridge more interestin :X but they dunno how to play :\)
then juz watch them play mj.. mingkwan losing it all n chuanyang winnin alot... (lucky i din play wif them..)
then went home at ard 2300 while some of them stil went to watch midnite show.. onz sia.. haha

nerd test

hee got tis fr ruijie's blog

me, master super computer n andrew! go to fotopages for morE! :P 

detestable, scary, annoying or juz plain weird?

dunno which word i should use to describe myself. Mebbe all of them, since it's quite hard to describe anyone wif juz one word. :X

well, i haven't been in the best of moods lately for sure.... my inner me is buggin me wif some irritating tots and i wish i can just shut it up... perhaps i shld reallie go for some selective memory washin so that my inner me will find nuttin to bug me wif n leave me alone in peace.... well, that kinda reminds me of a show, issit called "Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind" or smthing??? dunno, din watch it... but now i feel like watching it... i wonder how it feels like to hav memory erased... :x

perhaps, i can learn to seal some memories up myself.. psychologically.. puttin them into my subconciousness... hah.. if i so zai.. i wun be sitting here tokin rubbish liao.

haiz.. i reallie missed all the times in Year 1 sem 2...where ppl stil got time to sit dwn n crap.. i smhow feel distant away from my NUS frens liao (referring to those that i hang around most of the time wif.. cuz now i'm spendin more time wif other NUS frens.. complicatin? nah...) somehow.. i wonder... has the group like unoffically disbanded or smthin???

well, always hear ppl saying that the frens we make in uni are never as close as those make in jc or sec etc... was pretty upset abt it before i entered uni... but after that i tot i cld proof that theory wrong... but is there the possibility... i'm wrong myself? :(

i always seem to prefer things either going at a constant rate... or increasing, but never decrease...(doesn't apply to schoolwork :X)

fridaY~

sleepy friday... rushing fri... slacking fri :P

haiz... the 8am make up lect is reallie too much for me.. smmore it had to be EE2012... Zzzzzz
mebbe i shld juz give it a miss.. since i'm not listening.. :X

i tried my best to be attentive... tho i tink i failed terribly in the end due to my sleepiness.. but hey.. i tried my besT! :X
haiz... must go have a long meeting wif zhou gong then can... :(
talking abt meetings... well, end up the Eg1415 tutorial we still hafta attend everyone.. juz that no nid to present every single session... :( oh well, shldn't be greedy huh.. but lidat i tink will make meeting up for project harder... cuz my timetable is juz so damn pack.. :X i wan a pair of wings..

jap tutorial went pretty well today, fumbled a lil for the kaiwa... juz not used to ending things wif de gozaimasu instead of desu
as for listening quiz.. reallie veri easy :X

after school, got an urge to chiong dwn to orchard rd kino to see if got any nice jap books to buy n read.. but come to tink of it.. i no money.. no time... n i'm not zai enuff.. so scraped the tot and went home...

slacked until now.. sad.. tink i go try n do some tutorials

active here again!

dunno why, suddenli have the blogging mood nowadays.

I feel like using the lifejournal one... mebbe shld ask everyone from opendiary to go there.. it's not bad actuallie.. and can create committees. haa nm

guess i'll stick to here.. lazy go post all o'er the place

one month pass very fast, like dunno what happen and it's already over o_o

this sem timetable pretty pack, like not much time to go think of other things.. (but i still got think of other things.. which explains why my tutorials are always half done. :X)

ok.. found out i got too many stuff to attend to... so i'll juz leave this entry as it is..

well, found out abt some rather interesting stuffs today..

bikerfei.. :X haaa :X hope can know more.. they got my curiousity..

resign to fate..

it seems like i'm always land myself up in a position where i'm waiting or wishing for something impossible to happen... is my whole life juz gonna be like tis?

when you seem to have nothing to look foward to, even death seems welcoming for a min or so

resign to fate liao... smtimes, feel so sian of making decisions n so on... i juz wanna live, be happy if not try n act happy and then die...

i'll not hold on to anything that's impossible... well at least i'll try my very best not to.... also i wun pray for anything to happen liao cuz wat's meant not to happen i die a million times also wun happen...

i'll juz get on wif life... n witness other ppls' life... n juz disappear from the face of the earth someday in future... as for what happened after that, obviously no one lived to tell... :
the world, a beautiful yet ugly place... beautiful when i'm happy, ugly when i'm sad...

back to the past & chalet!

ok.. basically, my nephew's bdae chalet was quite alrite.. tho there's quite abit of dull moments here n there cuz there's no entertainment ard that interest me n i'm worried about school work (hell yeah..!) well, but i managed to go into the jackpot room :D but... jackpot is actualli boring n waste money... dun understand the machine.. i wonder if ey're juz out to cheat :X

played bowling until my fingers nearly died..... sorta found out the best condition for me to play wif.. but.. i still suck... then also played a lil mahjong but stopped when i realised that it's boring.... cuz my sister they always juz take alot of hua1s and juz anyhow hu2... sux

left that place.. onli stayed one nite which i tink is veri much enuff.. anyway, i stayed in Aranda... sux lar.. their place altho big.. but is dirty... n it's damn ex... rather stay in a hotel lo!

anyway, at the chalet, i was reallie worried for my schwk... suddenli got that feelin of worryin for my schwk.. which i guess i've lost it ever since i entered NUS... and i started dreamin of ppl n stuff i wld in the past... is tis good or bad?

but hope i'll be more kanjiong abt schoolwork n score better tis sem... i reallie dun wan a third deg honours.. :(

jap tutorials :&

for my TA and TB class, I've tio the 2 full time tutors. Kakiyama sensei to Okada sensei.

Well, full time tutors supposed to be better i supposed. But very stressful wor! especially Okada sensei's class... He'll make sure u can speak it at the end.. keep asking u for demostrations infront of the class. Makes you all jittery and tongue tied.

Demo sa, Okada sensei's always smiling, dunno to say if he's kind? or like the chinese saying, the smiling tiger =_=
His expectation veri high.. tink next time dun prepare for his tutorial will die an ugly sight... :x

i wonder who my TC tutor will be? Another full time tutor? Well, i'm left wif Otsuka sensei. I doubt the lecturer got teach any class.

something... lame? :X

let's see:
your name
do you smoke?	YesNoOccasionally
do you drink?	YesNoOccasionally
stronger drugs?	YesNoOccasionally
your favourite activity
you are	Lazy
you wish you were	Nostradamus
you hope	It's not too late
people think you are	A Lazy Dog
intelligent people though, think you are	>/font>Exceptional
but, really, you're just	A good hearted thing
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out of my mind...

guess i'm going nutx.. i keep coming here, yet everytime i came here i dunno what to type... :
school started, tis sem gives me a new feeling too... definately not like last sem, and i hope it's for the better :)

alumni co's gettin active again... tho i still got that kind of go there dunno wat to do feeling.. it's nice to spend some time catchin up wif frens.. supper time's the best.. :P but am i eatin too much? :S

i hope tis sem i wun be veri bz *hear voices sayin "Dream ON!"* :\ oh well, i've gotten used to the stress free holz.. reallie find it hard to settle down... tink muz use the method of peer pressure liao. haiz

tutorials gonna start nxt week, reallie gonna get a taste of the hectic lifestyle... muz reallie jiayouZ! mebbe tis sem i can slim down abit.. haha.. not that much time to eat lunch liao.. :X

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argh... feeling downright sianz... dunno issit becuz i'm sick or what... haiz... super sianz.. my mind's in a whirl... keep thinkin of things which i told myself to stop thinkin of... tinkin abt depressing thoughts n start to doubt my existence again...

i dun even hav the mood to go practice my hiragana now... juz wish that i can drop dead immediately...

smtimes i tink i very lan4 lar... live w/o motivation lidat.. no plans for the future.. dunno what i wan.. then i tink i've become veri weak too.. mentally n physically... suddenli tink that i'm not independent enuff.. sianz

come to tink of it.. it's juz become i'm not feelin well thats why.. haiz.. hope my runny yet blocked nose will clear n my cough cum sorethroat may go off..

super sianz...

flashbacks... n a sudden feeling...

was packing the scores for the rabobank concert for alumni today.. dunno why.. suddenli remembered the ole times when i was still back in ajco, back in aj... then i realised i missed my frens alot (ok.. it's weird becuz i juz saw them recently... but.. perhaps it's the feeling back then bah...)

going back to ajco as an alumni is a totally different feeling.. i never reallie knew what the current batch of jnrs tink abt us... is like lotsa missing links btwn us.. haa.. u can call it dai4 gou1 if u wan... dunno lar.. then i dun like to entertain the thought that once i show up i gotta keep showing up (cuz i believe in consistency in attendence.. so dun go means dun go.. once u go u must keep going..) so till now, til today, i refused to go back... and besides, i bet they haven't fix the poor sheng... tis time i can't help them fix.. definately no.. ha.. sianz.. can't they take care of the instrument better? my poor sheng1... *sobz*

hmmm.. lectures gonna start soon! feel kinda excited actualli. but hav a bit of dreadful feelin cuz i haven't pack anything. everything from last sem is still there n i dun feel like touchin them abit.. :X better get down to packing soon...
i reallie wonder how next sem will be like?? i finally got my jap module!! wanna thank all those ppl who listened to me complainin abt my worries n so on.. haha thankiew! I GOT IT!!! YEYEYEYEY!!! *prance ard*
each semester gav me a different feeling.. i wonder how the nxt one will be like? it's like in nus tho every sem is in a sense rather repetitive... i tink it's more ever changing compare to studies in the past... haa.. every sem different subject... sometimes, i was wonderin if tis constant need to adapt to stuff is reallie not for me n i'd prefer a routined life? haa.. i got a weak heart mebbe.. can't take changes that well smtimes.. :S

ahhhhhh~~!!! i'm growing up!!! noooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :X

thankiEWs

there's too many things to recap for year 2004... 2004 has its good and its bad...but when i look back, i realised that my life has changed so much.... i feel like i'm stuck in the middle of nowhere?

i dunno what to anticipate in the future... but i hope everyday wld juz be as nice and i'll be much more luckier :P

:::::::: a thankiew note :::::::::

== CO ==

wanna thankiew my bestest buddz... i dunno what to thank you for... there's too many... so i can onli say a reeeel BIG thankiEW!!! u're soooo nice, a great suppoRT, and someone gd to rely on! dunch strezZ! ORD lo! :X oh ya.... pls always remember to collect money lar... i tink now i noe why all ur unknown source where ur money went to liao :X

wanna thankiew dA 500++ yrs coW spiriT... for being soooo helpful in many wayZ :D tho u always soooo lazy to travel abit more... :X it's always nice to hav u arD! i noe u veri rich now lar... so when's a treat coming? heheheheee :X

wanna thankieW dA aUnT-TEE wiF a hammIe called Xiaobai... for so givin me face n stayin over :P i'm sorry like the whole entire last sem like never paid much attention to u... too bz... i tink i neglected alot of stufF!! sorRY!~!~~!!~!~~ tho i can't seem to catch up wif the RVCO tok of urs.... hee.. it's never-the-less great to hav u arD! so now u can play mj liao hor?

wanna thankiEW dA lil' girl who's always losing slp n not eatin dinner... thankiew for all ur letters n encouragement n yadda yadda.... pls lar..... slp more n eat more...... it's no wonder ppl say the wind can blow u off ur feet le... :P muz take good care of urself!!!!!!!!

wanNa thankIew dA mAtA :P who's been a great company at times and well... givin all the insights on law eh? :X a jnr to be proud of! cuz he's so active in alumni.. muahahahaa :P jia you jia you!!

== CPE ==

wanna thankiew my study buddy (or issit arbitrary buddy?)... thanks for all the stress u giv me... :S hahaa.. and being so nice n encouraging alwayZ, toleratin all my crap n so on :X hope i haven't troubled u too much. :p and beiNG so onZ for dA outingS!!! GREAt to hav u arD! fun!!! :P

wanna thankiew polar bear!!!! u've been a reallllll great fren despite half the time not being psychically near me since u're in grp B n i'm in A... u've given me so much advice! so much help! n encouragement too!!! ahhh! if i were to weigh wat i owe u in terms of cans of tuna.. i tink i owe u alot alot! :p thankiew thankiEW!

wanna thankiEw cinDeraLLA!!! aka fake malay girl's shifu :X u've been a greaT companY during exam period studyin man... tho i tink we shld avoid to destress ourselves by startin a conversation cuz waste lotsa time.. haha.. neverthelesS! u've been a great company to study in school! thankiEW!!!

wanna thankIEw fake malay girl! ur "heLLO!" tho reallie kinda too loud and imagin that the dist away we can hear it before even spottin u... but it does add a cheery note to the daY hehe :) u've been a great company.. n well.. at least did make me think sometimes that st nix isn't tHat bad huh??? hehee.. oh ya... a great pal at games.. hahaha... thx for introin all the fun games :P

wanna thAnkiEw gorgonitZ aka well oyster? (in terms of chinese interpretation)... haha.. ur lame jokes reallie crack us up man... diaoZ!!!! n u're still soooo good at ur studies despite missin quite a no. of lectureS?! wat are u?! :X

wanna thankiEW wee-boi (oops.. dis isn't wat i shld use but neber mind.. i dun tink u read tis :X) er... thanks for not coming to the lecture? so i dun hafta save so much seatS? wat the.. haha... erm... do... wake up... n remember ur exam dates n time k? i noe u're lucky but dun risk it :P

wanna thankiew OMY!!!! u've been a great pal man!! so glad i'm in the same class wif u! thankiew thankiew for all the help n sorry for all the trouble i gav u for the projecT! all da besT nxt yr n may naruto be as excitin as evA! wahahahaA!

== all FrenS not mentioned aboVE ==

yUP! wanna thankiew you all of u who've helped me in one way or another, encouraged me anyway... joked wif me, laff wif me sing wif me etc etc done anything wif me.. THANKIEW THANKIEW!! cuz too many ppl.. so can't afford to write out one by one..and due to the limited space in my "CPU" up there.... so i onli write those that i faced more everyday or recently.. thankiew thankiEW!! to all NUS frens, all CO frens all 20/01 class maties! hav a gREATER YEAR AHEAD!!! i luv u all, u all hav been part of my life n will always bE!!! greatly appreciateD!!

new yeaR stayoVA for AS!

venue: at js's house..

well, if i'm not wrong, it a swap from last year (or rather.. last last year... 2003 that is.. where x'mas is at his house n new year at moi house)

we ate good food.. all thanks to his mom... had fun... playin all the games.. and finally mj... glad his sis karine joined in.. haa... she's quite fun to hav... tho i'm amazed that she din learn anything abt mj or even bridge from her bro... :X

wanna thx js and his parents for lettin us hav the place n being such gooooooood hosts!! tho this new year is bound wif a tad of sadness (from both the tsunami incident n the closing down of mediaworks...)
well, still hope that this new year will be much much better one.

had a meeting for the committee members after that.. found out somethings... made me quite glad.. but in a sense, there's still many worryin factors... oh well, hope can sort it out... n i hope huangshen reallie is not gonna kill us like this... or i'll not let him off!!!

oh well.. HappiE new yeaR!

AS stayover & moi resultS

yesterday... part of the AS gang (jsim, xq, erik) came to my house in the afternn... played cluedo.. mastermind.. yadda yadda...
then went to watch Meet the Fockers at GV yishun wif lj, tyngfeng n kianhock joinin us

haa.. lame show.. quite funny.. but really full of sexual humour.. :X i still think that the baby's the cutest.. haha. .assssshoooooooooole (the baby's 1st word!)

after tt, tyngfeng n kh went home... while lj joined us as we walked back to khatib.. bot some stuff at 7-11 then went back to my house.. spent most of the time tokin n tinkin of wat to tok.. tried playin the rummy game tt js bot... for some reason, i keep winnin.. but onli played 3 rnds.. then i let xq take over.... en we tried watchin naruto... well, no help.. so proceeded to find more stuff to tok abt? after tt, me n js went to qie ikaruga.. then the rest started eatin cup noodles.. had to say js reallie quite zai.. he actuallie manage to reach the 5th lvl... tho he din manage to kill the lvl 4 king.. but to do that on the 1st time.. i tink he's good?

after tt, he had his noodles n watched the latest naruto ep while the rest of us chatted.. xq dozing off every now n then.. eventuallie she fell asleep.. n js went to sleep on the floor.. (when there's bed in the room :S

well, auntie got her dad to fetch her at ard 6am? then after sendin her off.. we all went back.. n started playin bridge till mornin.. :X it's the war between the spades and the hearts... *shakes head* :X

well, left ard 8.. went for breakfast.. then jie3 san4

er... my results ar... no good? or below my expectation.. but it's not the worst bah... i tink.. still i'm back to square one... my cap dropped back to the same of the very 1st sem... haiz.. i muz work harder liao!

oh... so it's x'mas?

Christmas is actually Jesus's birthday... well, a very grand birthday that everyone celebrates. Don't know when did Santa and Rudolf started comin into the picture... but anyway, the X'mas atmosphere used to be very... erm.. in chinese we call it nong2... means thick? :X

Tis year's slightly different, it seems like there's no X'mas atmosphere around... mebbe the best u can hav is to walk ard orchard road n u mite convince urself that X'mas is here... well.. that's it.. :S As for why there is no atmosphere, it's unknown... and I thought i'm the onli one who felt tis way.. it seems like from my observation, it's not only me...

And it seems like the turnout for X'mas outing wif the AS gang isn't gettin any better either... *sighz* and i'm getting my results back on X'mas (well, the only thing i can hope for is that Jesus will bless me wif good results since it's released on His burfday :X )

oh ya, btw, i'm a free thinker, but i respect the either Gods of both sides... haa.. (fence sitter u can call me..)

well, merry x'mas! to all those who still feel it... as for those who dun... may u find the true feeling of x'mas :P

fotos r up

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i numbed my hands..

all thanks to MS... that quest... that horrible freakin jump till u die quest... arGH!!

i hope my keyboard wun spoil reallie... having problems typin tis entry.. yet dunno why, i still feel like comin here to crap abit...

holz is passin pretty fast... dunno issit to my horror or to my relief? i've juz got the slight inkling that i'll be veri sian of holz soon.. er.. playin is fun... gamin is fun.. going out is fun... but always feel like my feets' r off the ground... bu4 ta1 shi2 lidat..

hmm.. today went to sing KTV wif sf n jerry... i tink i sang almost all the songs i wldn't dare to sing if infront of a big crowd.. n i get to sing Ayumi's song! finally.. a jap song.. but that's the onli one they hav that i noe liao.. sadness.
then in late afternn, met up wif annie to giv her some "pointers" for her blog... veri glad to see her actuallie.. she juz made me feel like i'm startin to miss NUS (yeah, believe it :P )

yey! i got the fotos to planet games from cameraman &dru.. dunno when will jinghow's one be up? or i shldn't wait?

a biG thankiEW!!!

wanna thank everyone, for their lovely n totful gifts, their good wishes n the burfdae songs for all that sang.

thankiew so much!!!!!

went out wif lj today.. then jsim joined us.. had a sinful er supposed dessert but becum lunch at swensens.. thx lj for the apple crumble treat! i lurVe apple crumble :D~ :X

then after tt, played ikaruga wif jsim at the arcade.. (n died in an awful state.. cuz their speed is so much faster... n the ctrl's too sensitive :X)

headed dwn to taka.. took some fotos.. n lj went to work (i hope u're feelin alrite now!) yeah.. en i went to hunt for my x'mas card :P en we went dwn for co prac... saw more snrs today.. n jnrs too.. quite happy to see them cuz long time never see them le...

then went for supper.. or issit dinner? budden jsim din go.. but he passed me my preZziE.. which i'm reallie shocked to get it.. cuz i never expect them to find it.. reallie.. i tot it's like out of stock or wat.. haa! thankiew thankiew

yup.. and thanks to all those who sang the bdae song for me.. tho i'm quite glad no one else is ard else i so paiseh.. :S

dinner's great.. tho we din get to all sit together.. but discussed quite alot of interestin things... well, n some hard facts too..

my snrs r tokin abt their fren who changed alot after going for dunno issit SEP or juz went abroad.. but the change is reallie so great.. they can't click as well anymore....

i noe it's inevitable humans change.. but i reallie hope that wun happen bah.... i dun wan to juz hold on to memories.. they're too fragile...

[fotos will be up soon.. along wif the ones taken at planet games :X]

pLanEt gAmEs!!~!!! @.@

[photos will be up after i consolidated @ fotopages.com]

ahh... finally gone to Science centre for planet games wif sf, &dru n jinghow... :p
well, science centre has undergone renovation n i almost cldn't recognise.. (the entrance is totally new...)

hmmm.. overall ratin... the planet games is kinda below my expectations bah.. but nevertheless, i stil hav a great time there :P and yey~!~! i finally landed the plane at changi airport :X hehe.. u'll noe wat's that abt later :X

erm.. ok.. so 1st we explored sci centre abit... cuz so long never go then all got abit suaku liao.. so started lookin at all those visual puzzles... see until my eyes @.@ got alot... reallie alot..
then visited the chicks.. or rather.. the eggs wif a chick :P chick veri cutE!!! kawaii ne!

then after that wondered to some place (seemingly more for kids.. but hell.. who cares :X) tested the sound travellin tube wif &dru.. but i took the children slide dwn n hurt my butt :X
eh.. tested quite abit of stuff there.. quite fun actuallie. en saw mice, hamters n so on.. etc etc until &dru suggested we wandered to the wrong place? :X so we finally went to planet games and spent some time on the gameboys outside.. then finally entered

1stly, arrived at the video games part.. reallie alot of games.. but ey're sooooo ole... infact.. it's sooo ole.. i can't imagine playin them :S but each of us got 4 tokens.. and being greedy beings.. we tried to get more tokens by playin their quiz... if get 5 qns rite.. we'll get a token.. but our best try is 3 qns rite.. oops :X
so after takin a good walk ard there.. we went on...hmm.. saw all the xbox n playstation etc.. n got occupied wif the xbox game.. some ninja game.. was stuck at that area.. cldn't get out.. then got &dru to tried.. to he definately grasp more moves.. but we left that ninja hanging ard (literally in the game) after many futile attempts.. then went to watch ppl play lan... after tt watch the 3D movie.. something stupid happened... not abt to say.. :X
well, found out that the 3D show's repeatin itself.. so we went to try those holographic game.. (parachute that kind) n got a hard time figurin how to move ourselves n dodgin the "astroids"... jinghow cut himself into half by standin over 2 spots.. haha diaoz...

after we spent quite abit of time playin the 3D stimulation those NUS peeps invented that time... i'll never get tired of it man.. haha :P there's 2 parts.. the one outside has the kois! haa.. so was throwin kois into virtual ponds then smashin the ponds (so to delete them...) :X fun!

then the flight stimulator caught our attention.. the screen is round! veri cool.. and supposed to land the typhoon at Changi airport.. the ctrls reallie hard cuz the joystix's super sensitive.. i crashed my plane.. so did the rest... come to tink of it.. sf din try it issit? anywayz.. then alot of kids n parents came.. many funny stuff happened.. but i'm glad i managed to land the plane

oh ya, then there's this computer havin a game that DSTA programmed for SAF? haha.. i happily threw grenades at the enemy (blowin them up! :D budden killed in the end still :\ ) well... as &dru said.. can't prone.. so veri prone to gettin killed eh.. ?
sf n jinghow's back at the 3D stimulation of the kois n so on.. haa.. so watch them play (poke in here n there to help) then went back to spend the 4 tokens... used it in some silly driving game.. (so hard to play.. =_=) then spend 2 on a shootin game.. er... ok.. my aiming sux like nobody's biz.... not like &dru's... tink i reallie man4 alot of pai1s... ><~ give me unlimited supply of bullets also no use.. heh
then the other coin at... at... some plane fighter game.. that's laggy n caused me to die becuz of that since i'm used to immediate reaction fr ikaruga (i.e. i can fire last min at enemies).. sadness..

oh well.. then made jinghow n sf took some farnie pics :X hee.. then rested for quite awhile.. after that went back to sci centre n walked ard until sci centre close..

then went for dinner? (i din eat.. cuz got dinner awaitin me at home liao).. dinner topic: game again.. haha!
after that we parted n i went home wif sf.. tired man....

oh ya.. thanks &dru for the prezziE :) veri cuTE! :D

20/01 class ouTinG!!

finally, another outin for 20/01 of AJC :P oh well, as expected.. we waited darn long.. dunno for ppl.. or for the idea of where to hav dinner :P seems like everyone din come on a totally empty tummy.. haha :P

well, 3 cameramen there :P n guess gary's the one wif the most hi-tech camera... dunno how many pixels.. but it cost 1k+ so watcha tink? :X

took pictures as we go..
i took quite abit.. mostly candid shots (cuz no one wanna cooperate.. so successful or not u can tell from the blurness of the fotos.. :P )

wun be uploadin the fotos here.. cuz i've uploaded them up at http://eriolyuy.fotopages.com

:) it's a great outing.. thanks for all the prez :) luv them lotS :D

subarashi desu!!

finally~ i dun hafta work.... tho still kinda annoyed that DFS smhow screwed my schedule up n so on.. but i'm still glad that i dun hafta work...

dread workin.. wldn't hav work if i'm not short of cash.. but hell... i get plenty of time to work in future.. so shld play more now.. muahahahaa!~~!!!

currently my skin is in a veri bad state... me eatin steriods again to ctrl it.. n i hope tis will be the last time... dun like steriods... :(

but now i'm veri relaxed.. like nuttin to worry for.. so nice... tis kinda life.. :P guess the hectic previous semester has made me learn to treasure my holidays more...

online games, outings, anyone?

oh ya.. it seems like MS is gettin hotter.. n obviously tis means that sf's ahead of time again like GB previously.. haha.. but i'm stil wonderin if i shld d/l that.. issit that nice?

in memory of my Grandma

will miss her lots tho i dun see her often... but she's reallie nice to me.. will always buy my fav pong piah from pontian when she comes to stay over at my house..
luv listenin to her n my mom speak in hakka... then i'll sit there n guess wat ey said.. haa
and she never scold mi before.. n i still kept the noisy elephant stuff toy she gav me when i was young...

hopes she'll go to ji2 le4 shi4 jie4 and reunite wif her mother (aka my greatgrandmother... passed away a few years back...) n her husband (my grandpa.. which.. i've never seen b4)

rest in peace.

finallY... over...?

well... darn glad that the exams are over...

thought i was in holiday mood... but apparently i'm not anymore.. or perhaps i never was? i'm juz glad that the exams are over.... budden i suddenly felt veri out of place... 3mths being stuffed under piles of hmwk n suddenly u break free... all i can describe is "stunned".

supposed to have many things to do .. but now like no mood... always lidat... exam time wish i can be doing this or that.. budden when time comes that... dun feel like it anymore...

really need time to tune my life again... and perhaps, i'll never get used to a life of simply sitting at home playing games all day long... I never like to play alone... used to play alone when i was young... and i really looked fwd to play wif my cousins back then... now, i prefer my friends' company... the bad thing about having siblings way older than you.. (ar... dun kill me sis :X)

i hope mongling call soon.. so at least i can settle my job.... get my schedule.. n start plannin outingS :P

ok.. that's the onli thing i look fwd to holz.. to see my frens again... come to tink of it... perhaps working is good huh.. at least i wun stay at home feeling lonely all over... diaoz

anyway, after that dreadful paper tis morning, took photos with my frens and went to the munching monkey? i din get the name wrong i hope... well, jinghow was being as crappy as ever.. too bad jeff din join us.. else i think it'll really be a crappy crappy meal.. haha... oh well, enjoyed my lunch and all the chatting as usual :) i had to say.. lunch time wif them is always my favourite! thinking of it already makes me smile.. hahaa yuck :X come to think of it.. like very long never have lunch wif my AS gang liao.. wah.. muz go for meal together too!!!

then after that went to go recover my ring file i left outside MPSH... while taking foto.. keep remindin myself not to forget.. and i DID... it's strange how my memory actually works.. i guess i'll never understand it myself... and thanks &dru for the company :)

well, in the end everyone ge4 zhou3 ge4 de4... jeff already went off.. to sls if i'm not wrong.. he got lotsa stuff to settle before his trip... so gonna be real bz... then after our lunch.. jh went to use the wireless in nus.. cuz he brot his lappy n he wanna use it becuz he brot it... sf went to sentosa to collect her islander card?.. cheewooi... went back to his hostel to pack of cuz.. else he will be shooed out soon.. :X
then &dru went home (i supposed, after his groceries shopping? for a moment i actually thought he's going to the supermarket :X )

yeah.. so i juz took 852 n sat all the way till yishun... bot book 15 of fruit basket.. (reallie long awaited.. they're slow man... those translators..) n bot a naruto book thats on their characters one.. but realised i'm not used to reading chinese for naruto.. can't catch the names :X

well.. that's about it... muz go hunt for games.. esp those multiplayers one.. than jio everyone to play! heheheee :)



[picture title: mo-yA-nin (means hazy ppl in jap.. hahaha! :X:X:X ) ]

a lame (or shld it be unlucky) day to start the exams wif...

hmmm... well, it seems like right after my econs exam in the morning... my luck went downhill straight.. geez.. dunno wassup...

1stly.. the sole of my right reebok shoe came out again! but i can't pull it out cuz the front was sewed to the shoe itself.. so can't walk properly.. let alone limp properly.. =_=

then... thank god i met benny on the way.. so borrowed pen knife from him n got rid of the dangling sole... n u noe wat? after walkin further more... my left sole came out too!! argh.. so i settled the right leg but the left one give me prob.. so limped or rather.. tried to drag my left foot there... tryin not to gather any attention to my shoes.. n tried to cut the strings holding the sole down to the shoe wif my keys (sadly.. i lost my small pen knife i tink during the orientation preperation at the ECE club room... so yeah.. din bother to bring another nowadays)... n the string was soooo tough... the keys dun seem to help... so wat i'm left is wif.... my lighter... so i burnt the rope (tryin not to burn my shoe n leg along wif it..) unpicked the string... n finally got rid of it..

by that time i darn sian diao liao.... den wanted to go some classroom but mostly like pretty filled.. or at least.. dun seem to hav any sockets left for me.. so as i decided that perhaps i shld go smwhere else... found out that i never bring the cheat sheet for EE2008 that i planned to finish... haiz.. ok.. so i'll juz do abit of CS1102C n go home in the evening... but...

johnson called and ask if i'm at home?! apparently he gotten the dates wrong... told me was sunday.. yikes.. ok.. but ey're gonna catch "The Incredibles" and asked if i wanna watch (i dun mind budden i guess i'll feel darn guilty if i do... fancy catching a movie on the 1st day of exams.. am i nutS?) so he said he'll get back to me later... n minutes after he put dwn.. my hp's batt died... =_=;

so i kept wonderin if i gotta wait for jeff to come also (i figured that he mite ask where i am.. but the thing is.... my hp's flat... then worried that jsim wanna contact me also.. ><~)
finally.. saw jeff so i told him that i gotta go (oops..) went to call jsim to inform him abt the dead hp... n now i'm back home... :X

good grief...

anyway... had lunch wif sf, &dru n kokfei... apparently sf still can't remember kokfei's name =_=||| i can't help tinking tt her memory is worse than jeffs.. or she shldn't try to remember askin everyones name since she can't remember.. one in the other out? haha :X yeah.. den kf's complainin that he's gotta go Queensland alone while &dru gets to go wif siong yang n yuanheng (who coincidentally got the same uni?) hmmm... mebbe somehow... i felt that i'm luckier that i dun get to go lar.. at least NUS still got some peeps that i noe.. tho mostly not as close or got their own cliques.. but at least i wun feel miserable alone out there???? will i? haa.. the mystery's not about to be solved anyway. so heck it!

geez.. juz recalled that today got creative fest.. n it seems that they got more new mp3 players on their shelf!!! aHHH~~~!!! reallie wish to get one now cuz i'm experiencing the bulkiness of my cd player.. n havin to burn a cd everytime a new song from da animes are released :X budden... i was wonderin.. perhaps gettin one also no use cuz in near future, can't download stuff from da net anymore.. :\ n anime soundtracks in singapore r too ex for my expenditure.. sux...

i felt everything in one day!

i tink today reallie experienced alot of different moods.... happiness, anger, sianess, streZz, suspense, worry... n wat else ar? alot lar.. makin my stomach feelin veri crummy now.. that feeling... dun feel well man.. ack~

haiz... tiring... veri tiring... dunno wat to do... infact, i can't do anything... aside from studyin... but the fact that knowing well that i lack behind reallie dun help... n today my conc was shorter than usual... ard late noon that time my brain self declared off n shut dwn...

stoned for the rest of the day... can say that my heart sank to the bottom of my tummy alreadi...

then i found out that zf also studyin until dunno day or nite... en ended up commentin that &dru's still sleeping veri late! (eh.. &dru, if u're readin tis Earli in dA mornin.. U betTa go sleeP woR! :X ) haiz..
anyway, tis sem is darn terrible... super duper terrible.. i dunno wat else to say.. but juz pray that future sems wun be like dat.. i'll reallie throw up one day if tis goes on... the streSs n pressure is overwhelming... n life becomes totally no life....

anyway, was pretty shock to receive a letter from lj, (if u're readin tis, thanks aloT!~!~~!~ )

haiz... now stuck at a point in my life where i dun feel like movin fwd nor backward.... dun reallie look that fwd to the holz actualli... but i dun wanna re live all this whole sem again. ok.. tink i'm not speakin sanely anymore.. gambatte everyone...

latest news... i din get in for SEP... erm... can say that it's expected.. but still i'm disappointed...

feeling veri tired now.. i tink i can almost sleep for a year!

>:|

i'm feeling all sort of bad feelings mixed up together... too many to describe... but i'm gonna do quite alot of complainin, lamenting, cursing.. watever u call it... if u tink u can't take this.. better dun read... i reallie need to let off steam... and it's not gonna be coherent...

ok... gd things 1st... wanna thank polar bear for offering to help buy coffee or gettin things from the canteen for me.. altho i didn't accept ur offer.. reallie thanks alot for even asking... me veri touched! :X

en wanna thank polar bear n jeff for studyin wif me... (altho for jeff's case... it's like when u put 2 crappy ppl together.. argh... ok. i tink i muz sit far away from him such that not within tokin distance...)

ok... now for the not nice things... if u wan to stop readin u still can...


i'm starting to doubt everything... perhaps in this whole world... the onli people who reallie cared abt me is my mom n dad...
i noe i'm selfish.. not abt to debate whether ppl are born selfish or not.. but i noe children r taught to be selfish.... well, in a subtle manner... -- to always think for urself 1st... learn to take good care of urself 1st... love urself 1st...

ok.... so i'm selfish... i kinda expect ppl to hold watever they said to me true.. (altho i noe it's kinda hard.. cuz i wonder if i kept to that also) then i expect ppl to reciprocate (ok.. mebbe i dun reciprocate much myself either... but.. point is i'm selfish.. n in the mood i am now.. i gonna juz have a attitude prob..)

the worse part is it always seems like one sided case... the arrow points a direction... erm like a link list.. but wat i wan is a doubly link list! aRGH

perhaps the best way to avoid all these is to not hold anyone of that great importance also... protect oneself from being more hurt by bonds... total darkness n lonliness...
but eventuallie.. wat awaits is death anyway

but tink of it more.. i can't do that.. i wun be able to bring myself to... once step out of that, i noe i'll never want to step in.. but will there be a day where i'll be forced to return?

dun give me hope, then take it away...
dun tell me things u dun mean...
dun make use of me...
i may be blunt... but i'm a veri sensitive person also...

juz kill me lar.. arGH

dA flash is wiLLinG buT the MinD is weaK!!!

onli left like 4-5 days to my exams... n i'm still capable of day dreaming... concentration span has decrease to a new low in my entire life!!!

sianz... dunno why lidat.. but i seem to hav no ctrl over it liao... somebodY help mi!! i nid to see someone mug perhaps...

jialat... dunno wat to do... wanted to go school today but somehow can't drag myself outta the house... the school tooo far... no motivation to go.. but i'll still try to go tml.... that's the onli wae le...

motivation!!! pls come back to mi! my concentration span also!!!

questionnaire

got tis off LiA's OD... wanted to do it back then budden didn't.. so shall do it now... feeling darn sianz over my ED quiz results... argh..

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says.

... to leave school and continuing with simple examples of people making choices...

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?

Headphones for computer

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

Lara Croft? Or is that few minutes of Singapore Idol on the bus counted?

4. WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is.

23:20

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?

23:11 (i'm ahead of time! :D )

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

The TV (my dad's watching), the fish tank's water pump, and the fishes suckin up pebbles n droppin them

7. When did you last step outside? what were you doing?

8am tis mornin... went to school to study :)

8. Before you came to this website, what did you look at?

my suckky results for EDM quiz

9. What are you wearing?

erm... shin min daily news' t-shirt... thin n comfy... n shorts?

10. Did you dream last night?

hell yeah.... can't remember wat, but it's not a good dream as far as i can remember. keep wakin up in the middle of the night these days.. can't sleep well.

11. When did you last laugh?

back at school a few hrs ago? was havin discussion wif &dru n jeff

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?

aR? i'm in the living room... alot of things on the wall wor... got lights, clock, calendar... erm.. some qi gong calligraphy (my dad's) and his picture of a boy n a ox? erm.. and a couple of 3M hooks... the door bell.. switches.... the power box... erm... shld be abt it i guess..

13. Seen anything weird lately?

how weiRd is wEiRd? erm.. how abt me always gettin chased out of classrooms at 6pm when it's supposed to be a time where normally no one is left?

14. What do you think of this quiz?

so-so ?

15. What is the last film you saw?

From the theaters u mean? actuallie.. i juz realised that i cldn't remember... shld be Ella Enchanted...

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?

will it happen? will i still live if that happens? :X okok.. erm...i'll buy some new gagdets i supposed? or mebbe i shld go space? ahahaa.. dunno... never reallie thought of it.. so even if the money falls down from the sky.. i also wun noe wat to do wif it

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.

what abt me that u don't know anyway?

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

well... wanted to say something great like making humans to be more selfless... budden... i tink a more practical thing wld be... for Singapore to remove that law that will come into effect at the end of the year..

19. Do you like to dance?

yeah? hmmm... i like mass dance.. think it's cool to have everyone dance together...

20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?

tough one... don't even noe wat the child's surname will be... as for english names... i reallie dunno too... i tink 'stella' is nice... tink still got somemore.. but can't remember

21. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?

also tough... Ignatius? well.. also know of some good names... like andrew and adrian... dunno wat else.. hee... as for chinese names ar... a lot is suitable.. as long as the surname is not wu... then easy liao...

22. Would you ever consider living abroad?

that i won't noe.. can't tell the future... but i dun tink i'll forsake my frens n family to go there n live.. unless everyone also move :X

too latE? or beTta thaN neVER?

i made it a point to reallie listen during lectures tis week... felt so proud of myself... tink i sorta found back the hardworkin me.. budden still not 100% yet... nowadays i'm gettin sick of sittin int he chair for too long.. budden once i leave the chair.. i dun feel like sittin dwn again... my back hurts.. my shoulders too.. then today becuz of the stupid adapter of my discman.. resulted me in sprainin / overstretchin my neck n shoulder muscles.. so now it's aching too....
dunno wat to do.. no matter how much i stretch ey wun go away...

oh ya.. my eyes also ey hurt.. n not as if i'm starin at the computer alot. or issit withdrawal symptoms?! :X

ok...i tink for the future sems.. i shld staRdie conSistentLY!! (easier to be said than done -_-...) but i muZ try... cuz if every sem were to be like this sem... i tink i wun be able to hold out for long...

to all NUS peeps (i assume that those NTU peeps that i noe of has finish their exams or are abt to..:X) esp ECE ppl, jia you!!!~!!!! ><~~~~

ants, acknowledgement n aunties

quite abit of stuff happened today... so guess i'll juz start from the biggest news...
my eldest sis is pregnant! i.e. me gonna be aunt again... can imagine my house will be very noisy years down... wif my eldest sis's kid along wif my elder sis's 2..
tink when it comes to my turn of having a child or 2.. (if that ever happens... ) it'll be a long time to come... perhaps then my sisters' children wld all be in secondary school or smthin?

anyway.. back to.. the start of the day.. i din go for the last EE2005 tutorial.. partly cuz i cldn't get myself to move fast enuff n i badly wanted to burn some songs out to the cd... partly also i tink i wun listen.. anyway, my tutor has gone thru all the tutorials at lightning speed, leaving us awe-struck.. what to do?? i cldn't bear to penalise him in the student feedback cuz he's actualli quite a hardworking tutor. as for my cs1102c tutor.... hmmm... i marked him down reallie... but.. i decided not to be that cruel... gave the evaluator the benefit of the doubt.. but.. i still hope that he dun get to teach again unless he improves..else only students will suffer..

tried to be real attentive during EE2004 last lecture.. quite please wif myself... budden end up the lect finish earli n the lecturer started introducing SNDL... erm.. for those interested in silicon nano stuff then shld go check it out? i dun feel like reiteratin.. :X

then went to arts for lunch.. sat at the bench outside LT9 cuz there's quite a big grp of us... en after yvonne they all left.. onli left jeff, &dru n me... was ponderin over some EE2004 concepts when i spotted an ant crawling out of the slit in the table (table is made up of planks joint together)... then came out 2... 3... and in a while... almost like 20 over ants are on the table, gathered at the spot where &dru left his papaya juice before that... ants drinkin papaya juice.. :X so.. the topic went on to ants for a few mins before we get back to EE2004... a couple of times i almost tot &dru's gonna squash the ants n stopped him from restin his arm on the table... n the ants proved to be more distractin than ever... "creepy crawly" described by &dru.. then jeff took out the mosquito repeller.. that emits a super high frequency sound that's supposed to chase away mosquitos.. (obviously it din work on the ants... but i still tried.. haha) but in the end, the ants moved back to their hole becuz i sorta "dropped" my econs txt on the table (not on the ants obviously) and they suddenly went scattering back... wat was left was 2 ants... dunno it's that ey're daring or they're juz pure hungry.... managed to chase one back after further knockin the table.. the other one... onli managed to chase it back when &dru prodded it wif his pencil.... ok... end of documentry report.

was on my way to CTW tutorial (last one!) and i ran into gibson... hmmm... then he smiled at me? (or at least i tot so..? dun suppose there's anyone at my back) so i smile back? hmmm... tink its like the 1st time we greeted each other officially.... and i always felt that such things r reallie strange... its like... everytime, u see someone like ur fren's fren... always in a dilema to greet that person as well or not... esp when u never tok to the person before... and i never like it when i greet someone and they juz din react? :x so everytime i'll hesistate.. n end up i'll never be the one who initiate the greeting...><~~ hmmm.... actually, gibson's not the only case this sem... the other incident was &dru's fren... i tink i reallie keep hesistatin n wonderin if he'll react if i say hi... until he said hi... :X so reacted promptly to my relieve... :X

anyway, after bumping into gibson, i went to say hi to sf again.. cuz i saw the redbull thingy.. so wondered if she's there.. haa... then after my ctw, i went to E1.. then saw jinghow n his gf.. he reallie spents losta time wif her.. haa.. dunno wat's the word to descibe him.. devoted? en stayed back to stardie... wif jeff coming in n leaving then comin back then left.. cuz he got lotsa stuff to settle.. so strictly speakin i'm studyin on my own... got 'chased' out of the room at ard 535pm.. so went to comp lab to pass jeff his bag.. then end up doin abit of revision there.. then readin comics... baby blues, garfield, dilbert?

then tokin abt baby blues... hee.. went home n found out the news abt my sis.. ha! wat a coincidence rite?

MRT Sick

yeah, not car sick, but mrt sick...
waited 7 mins for the boon lay train to come... and barely made it on the train rite before the train door closed... luckily i'm full of "squeezing" mrt experience.
hey, i'm not the kind that will push my way in... i wait for space to be created and somehow it just do... :X there'll be a small empty leg space juz enough for me to step in... erm, appreciate that guy trying to make space for me, but i'm not as thin as a bamboo.. so gotta try other doors.
yeah.. reach jurong east, changed train.. didn't manage to get a seat anyway (too many ppl, me lazy to fight wif them :X) and stood all the way... stoning all the way.. then suddenly felt like puking.. tink was at marsilling there.. then bear wif it all the way back to khatib...

:S

my 8 characters clash wif lab technology?

haiz... screwed up my ED2 lab... also becuz of technology. the excel keep giving me probs... then the 1st comp we sat at has a faulty curve tracer..... ><~ *sobZ*

in the end even tho got half an hr more... it's as good as none

smtimes... it's reallie like life making fun of u... it's juz a matter of how much u can tolerate....

feel so much at wits end now... dunno wat i can do...

wat to do wat to do?!?!?!! *sighZ*

issit that woman feels insecure more easily than man?

on to waR!

haiz.. suddenly lost my motivation to study over the weekends... dunno why.. muz be someone stole it!

actually.. i tink it's becuz when i got the motivation, things keep happening n breaks it... well... but i can't blame those things.. only can blame my bad time management... ><~

ok.. so i'm gonna go back to war!!!!! i muZ study! yeS!!!!!

i muz persevere.. n never giv up!!!! like a shinobi!~ hehe.. oh ya.. the cursor i make myself one.. nice? :X u muz be wonderin why i stil got so much time to do tis.. haiz.. cuz i feel like it.. ok.. i'll go n catch up on the lost time on work

spoilt tap...

not at my house... but up in the sky...

it has been pouring non stop... raining for days infact... not that i really hate the rain so much, but it really makes my life even more inconvienient... i hope God will hire a plumber soon... :X

My days are like the weather now... a moment bright and shiny, another moment black and gloomy... i wanted to write an entry yesterday but i was (actually, i still am.. but not that bad now..) so pissed off with my cs1102c practical exam that i think the entry would become more like a curse on the TA and that computer.... so i abolished the thought...

Nothing much happened to me these days except the super pissed me off incident yesterday. My frens(from NUS that is) are in about the same condition as weeks ago... hope the weekends will do them some good..

As for those CO peeps... i had to say, i think i reallie kinda neglected them... luckily there's such a thing call online diary / blog... else i would hav lost track wif their daily life :X

Looking forward to the end of exams already, but that means i gotta work... sheesh.. i hope they give me shifts such that i can still afford to go out and play.. :P

oh ya, new's update about hugo.... she's getting weaker day by day.... and has not eaten anything since yesterday... she's like suffering and there's nothing we could do... my sis's gonna bring her to the vet again. not sure if she will be put to sleep... but in a sense, if there is totally no cure and she's just awaiting death.. perhaps that's a less painful way out?

p.s. about the spoilt tap.. i meant it as a joke... please dun take it seriously

may hugo rest in peace...

hugo's gone...
the vet decided that it's best that she be put to sleep...

will miss her.... afterall, she has been part of my life for 10 years... and she actually witness both my sisters getting married

hmm...
wanted to say more.. but there's really too much to say about her... sort of gotten used to her being not ard.. but the house seems extra quiet now n less smelly :X

she's a really cute and naughty puppy when she came.. all black.. and my mom fed her until she overweight =.= n her fur changed colour... till silverish... eh... a sign of aging perhaps...

1st time i met her was the most unexpected... of cuz, my sister bot the dog w/o asking my mom (expected from my mom it'll be a straight NO to pets)... reach home, open the door, and one hyper active dog came charging at me.... yikeS! n she chased me around the house a couple of rounds until i climb up the chair... :S not that i'm afraid of dogs, but i always thought the theory "dogs wun chase u if u dun run" is true.. doesn't seem to apply to her.. well.. anyway...

too much to say. hahaa... and i'm still wondering when my sis wil get to collect her ash back... dunno where she's gonna put it?

will upload a pic of hugo.. when i hav the time :X

20 Questions to a Better Relationship

eXpressive: 7/10
Practical: 5/10
Physical: 2/10
Giver: 8/10


You are a XPIG--Expressive Practical Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Catch.

You are a magazine-cover, matinee idol dreamboat. Parents love you and want to set you up with their kids. However, first dates are tough because it takes time for your qualities to come out.

You are generous and kind. You think first and act later. You are cool in a conflict, but your practical side means if your partner throws out emotional appeals ("why can't we do what I want for a change?") they will grate on your nerves, even when the conflict is resolved.

You're a romantic. You enjoy the thrill of the hunt, and you don't just fall into bed with anyone. You pay close attention to your significant other's needs, and this makes you an excellent lover and partner. The problem is that your friends and lovers may find it so easy to express things to *you* that they lose sight of whether you feel as comfortable with *them*! This doesn't necessarily make you feel under-appreciated -- you're too well-adjusted and self-aware for that -- but you may feel restless. Thus you seek adventure in your life outside the relationship to prove and actualize yourself.

Of all the types, you would make the best parent.

You are coiffed.

Didja see "Big Fish"? 'Cause you're like Ewan MacGregor in "Big Fish."

Of the 134459 people who have taken this quiz, 9.2 % are this type.

me like veri relaXed?

hmm, that's what yvonne commented abt me today :X

mebbe...??? dunno it's juz me getting numb.. or me getting used to it...? :X

there's still many things to tink of, to trouble... everyone's so bz... sometimes i felt neglected.. but then again, i tink i'm neglectin other ppl too.. :x

anyway, now i'm tryin not to stress myself over schoolwork... i'll try to make myself enjoy it... find some way.... enjoy it as tho i'm watchin animes... guess that'll be reallie good... infact.. too ideal.. haa.. idea situations dun happen :\

think tis sem reallie pretty bad... i hope next sem will be much better... now is like i go to school, and see frens beside me all worn out in some way or another... want to sleep but can't... quite a torture reallie...argh.. dunno wat to do... *worried*

oh ya, n i'm seeing less n less ppl... in lects.. :S wat happened?!

36 days to start of exams
ahhhh~~~~ so fasT~!~!!~!~!!!~~!!! O_O~!!

saw LighT?

hmm... i realised that i always hav the tendency to be inspired by the animes i watch / mangas i read...

the most recent anime i completed was gundam seed... it struck me of cuz... but in a sense, not practical to the situation i am in now i tink.. so not much of help :X

been going on routines of whining about life.... getting upset wif myself n school... yadda yadda.. felt so sad at times that i reallie felt like cryin but u noe what...

no tears came out...

(ok... as a girl... i tink i'm a failure here... my tears dun come at the right time reallie... i watch touching stuff i can cry, people scold me i also cry... but when i'm sad i dun... *darn!* or is it that i'm not reallie that sad? watever. )

anyway... now all thanks to omy.... i'm readin naruto.. quite an impressive plot altho the characters (majority) their looks are pretty much average... n i admire naruto's never givin up spirit..

well, guess i'll make my life easier if i just like whatever i'm doing.... yup.. so stardie hard!!! n play too :P

looking back~

was tryin to study for the EE2004...

dunno why, i seem to have lost the motivation i once have... probably it's becuz i've got sooo demoralised in NUS...

i dug up one of my earlier diaries... then suddenly remembered that i used to be so systematic... everyday, i'll list down all my homework, making sure i finish them asap... now, everything last minute or i never get them done anyway...

can't seem to change back, cause somehow, i hated that kind of systematic life... perhaps i lead my life in a sense, opposite... shld have played more back then and stay as systematic as in the past only now...

but come to think of it, i think everyone will dislike me if that's the case.. i'm quite a cold person back then.. haa.. weird rite..

geez.. i better go to bed.. gettin hungry

sinking... self destructing... slowly....

why can't i juz face the truth...

why did i land myself up like this anyway..?

monday~

today's quite a good day i must say... the mood is much more light-hearted though the workload has never decreased.

was on time for EE2005 tutorial today, and i think the first time that i was earlier than my tutor. :X anyway, i stil didn't manage to do my tutorial... still pretty clueless about transistors (freak!)

lecture today is swapped with EE2008, which i think in a sense is good as the topic is still on laplace, not something totally new :) the bad thing is, there's lots of copying to do... and not to mention the lecturer (Sada, or i don't know why, Prof Ben seems to call him, tHE Sada..?) wrote much of the stuff in red... had a hard time trying to make out what he squeezed all over the notes really and hence, much time is spent on squinting, wild guessing and copying rather than listening :X

observations of the day:
- &dru: still yawning at an increasing rate as time passes and still having the tendency of walking the wrong direction. and did i mention, his lameness level hasn't went down (well, but still not my opponent for today :P)

- jeff: had sorethroat... but still talking very much... bought a large pack of $1 worth of hacks candy for his sorethroat.. which really tickled me as the pack of sweets is really exaggerating (even &dru went 'O' when he saw it)... i commented that hacks is not useful against sorethroat... then jeff said why not and said that it's for coughs... and i pointed out that precisely... he's not havin a cough but a sorethroat! :X

- sf: have cough, possibly sorethroat too, and was suffering from gastric flu before that. was quite bad and she couldn't go around saying "hello" :X and visited the health and wellness centre again to see doc. she better take care of herself man.

after lunch theme:
EE2005 lab discussion>< ; chinese "kungfu" ; childhood games

my lab's tml, so listen and tried to contribute with my little understanding on transistors. the discussion is helpful though :)

chinese "kungfu"... now, how did we come to that topic? hmmm, oh ya, cause sf mentioned about her xiang2 long2 18 zhang3... then jeff mentioned that he knew a fren who ran very fast and hit people on the back really hard... so we named it "jiu3 ying1 bai2 gu3 zhang3" :X so i told them about gav's "yi4 yang2 zhi3" and sq's "yu4 nu4 jian4 fa3" :X
then sf proceeded on an attempt to "block &dru's acupuncture", and i warned her of immobolizing &dru and having to carrying him all the way to the lab.

childhood games:
-who stole the cookie from the cookie pot...
-shen4 dan4 lao3 ren2 (the "see who can freeze the longest" game)
-hide and seek (jeff being inspired by me n sf on this topic.. went to hide behind the door wif my laptop while i was in the ladies... :S thanks &dru for the hint :X)

lame joke of the day:
jeff: i really need to bring binoculars next time
me: ha... eh, what is best at seeing red ah? (i thought got some scope or something thats why i asked...)
jeff: a bull
me: ok, then we must bring bullseye next time :X

untimely urge

don't get me wrong, not the urge to go to the ladies, but the urge to do other stuff.

always felt like doing other stuff when i'm not free or not supposed to... :X

anyway, suddenly felt like i should do a bit of cooking... so bought some mushrooms n stir-fried them! yummY :D~~~ taste like what my mom always cooked.. hehe

argh.

today got test... again... tis time, cs1102c

gettin used to it le.. dunno good or bad.......

things r changing too fast.... can't predict wats gonna happen nxt le... feel so insecure...

anyway, was alone when i reach school... went to yih to eat abit... saw yanyi..chatted wif her awhile.. n thx for her gd luck.. yup.. en went to mpsh n saw audrey so joined her.. en sf came.. en the rest one by one... saw the grp b ppl finally.. haa like polar bear, zhengyang, zhengrong, annie etc... en i realised i can't see my own grp's ppl :S well, but still saw them eventuallie.. but din tok to most of them much :(

the test... i juz hope i did it correctly

after the test, dunno why tis time everyone dispersed... jeff disappeared after awhile.. cheewooi also left soon... en saw &dru n sf... en &dru left too en saw christina, sally, annie n qianyi..

merina.. left too.... the grp b ppl.. all zao liao also...

why this time everyone like disperse so fasT? :S test too easy? nuttin to discuss??

er.. anyway, went to do my ctw project after that.. went to sengkang wif omy(late.. sorry jasmine) en ask ppl to do survey for us.. door by door... ran into a rabbit that's not in it's cage n hoppin out of the box after we put it in again.. so we stuff it bak to the cage wif other rabbits in the end.. argh.. it's soooooo cute~~~!~!!~!!~!~~~~! *sobz* i missed my ole rabbit

haiz... en went to write the outline of our intro.. splitted the job up.. n went home.. did abit of housework (cuz mom went on holz wif my sistersssss)

now defragmentin my hdd.. was shocked at the amt of fragmented files.. muz be that matlab 7 :\ haiz.. now gotta wait.. tink i go fold the clothes le.

on the surface may look like a change.. but deep inside there isn't...