on to waR!

haiz.. suddenly lost my motivation to study over the weekends... dunno why.. muz be someone stole it!

actually.. i tink it's becuz when i got the motivation, things keep happening n breaks it... well... but i can't blame those things.. only can blame my bad time management... ><~

ok.. so i'm gonna go back to war!!!!! i muZ study! yeS!!!!!

i muz persevere.. n never giv up!!!! like a shinobi!~ hehe.. oh ya.. the cursor i make myself one.. nice? :X u muz be wonderin why i stil got so much time to do tis.. haiz.. cuz i feel like it.. ok.. i'll go n catch up on the lost time on work

spoilt tap...

not at my house... but up in the sky...

it has been pouring non stop... raining for days infact... not that i really hate the rain so much, but it really makes my life even more inconvienient... i hope God will hire a plumber soon... :X

My days are like the weather now... a moment bright and shiny, another moment black and gloomy... i wanted to write an entry yesterday but i was (actually, i still am.. but not that bad now..) so pissed off with my cs1102c practical exam that i think the entry would become more like a curse on the TA and that computer.... so i abolished the thought...

Nothing much happened to me these days except the super pissed me off incident yesterday. My frens(from NUS that is) are in about the same condition as weeks ago... hope the weekends will do them some good..

As for those CO peeps... i had to say, i think i reallie kinda neglected them... luckily there's such a thing call online diary / blog... else i would hav lost track wif their daily life :X

Looking forward to the end of exams already, but that means i gotta work... sheesh.. i hope they give me shifts such that i can still afford to go out and play.. :P

oh ya, new's update about hugo.... she's getting weaker day by day.... and has not eaten anything since yesterday... she's like suffering and there's nothing we could do... my sis's gonna bring her to the vet again. not sure if she will be put to sleep... but in a sense, if there is totally no cure and she's just awaiting death.. perhaps that's a less painful way out?

p.s. about the spoilt tap.. i meant it as a joke... please dun take it seriously

may hugo rest in peace...

hugo's gone...
the vet decided that it's best that she be put to sleep...

will miss her.... afterall, she has been part of my life for 10 years... and she actually witness both my sisters getting married

hmm...
wanted to say more.. but there's really too much to say about her... sort of gotten used to her being not ard.. but the house seems extra quiet now n less smelly :X

she's a really cute and naughty puppy when she came.. all black.. and my mom fed her until she overweight =.= n her fur changed colour... till silverish... eh... a sign of aging perhaps...

1st time i met her was the most unexpected... of cuz, my sister bot the dog w/o asking my mom (expected from my mom it'll be a straight NO to pets)... reach home, open the door, and one hyper active dog came charging at me.... yikeS! n she chased me around the house a couple of rounds until i climb up the chair... :S not that i'm afraid of dogs, but i always thought the theory "dogs wun chase u if u dun run" is true.. doesn't seem to apply to her.. well.. anyway...

too much to say. hahaa... and i'm still wondering when my sis wil get to collect her ash back... dunno where she's gonna put it?

will upload a pic of hugo.. when i hav the time :X

20 Questions to a Better Relationship

eXpressive: 7/10
Practical: 5/10
Physical: 2/10
Giver: 8/10


You are a XPIG--Expressive Practical Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Catch.

You are a magazine-cover, matinee idol dreamboat. Parents love you and want to set you up with their kids. However, first dates are tough because it takes time for your qualities to come out.

You are generous and kind. You think first and act later. You are cool in a conflict, but your practical side means if your partner throws out emotional appeals ("why can't we do what I want for a change?") they will grate on your nerves, even when the conflict is resolved.

You're a romantic. You enjoy the thrill of the hunt, and you don't just fall into bed with anyone. You pay close attention to your significant other's needs, and this makes you an excellent lover and partner. The problem is that your friends and lovers may find it so easy to express things to *you* that they lose sight of whether you feel as comfortable with *them*! This doesn't necessarily make you feel under-appreciated -- you're too well-adjusted and self-aware for that -- but you may feel restless. Thus you seek adventure in your life outside the relationship to prove and actualize yourself.

Of all the types, you would make the best parent.

You are coiffed.

Didja see "Big Fish"? 'Cause you're like Ewan MacGregor in "Big Fish."

Of the 134459 people who have taken this quiz, 9.2 % are this type.

me like veri relaXed?

hmm, that's what yvonne commented abt me today :X

mebbe...??? dunno it's juz me getting numb.. or me getting used to it...? :X

there's still many things to tink of, to trouble... everyone's so bz... sometimes i felt neglected.. but then again, i tink i'm neglectin other ppl too.. :x

anyway, now i'm tryin not to stress myself over schoolwork... i'll try to make myself enjoy it... find some way.... enjoy it as tho i'm watchin animes... guess that'll be reallie good... infact.. too ideal.. haa.. idea situations dun happen :\

think tis sem reallie pretty bad... i hope next sem will be much better... now is like i go to school, and see frens beside me all worn out in some way or another... want to sleep but can't... quite a torture reallie...argh.. dunno wat to do... *worried*

oh ya, n i'm seeing less n less ppl... in lects.. :S wat happened?!

36 days to start of exams
ahhhh~~~~ so fasT~!~!!~!~!!!~~!!! O_O~!!

saw LighT?

hmm... i realised that i always hav the tendency to be inspired by the animes i watch / mangas i read...

the most recent anime i completed was gundam seed... it struck me of cuz... but in a sense, not practical to the situation i am in now i tink.. so not much of help :X

been going on routines of whining about life.... getting upset wif myself n school... yadda yadda.. felt so sad at times that i reallie felt like cryin but u noe what...

no tears came out...

(ok... as a girl... i tink i'm a failure here... my tears dun come at the right time reallie... i watch touching stuff i can cry, people scold me i also cry... but when i'm sad i dun... *darn!* or is it that i'm not reallie that sad? watever. )

anyway... now all thanks to omy.... i'm readin naruto.. quite an impressive plot altho the characters (majority) their looks are pretty much average... n i admire naruto's never givin up spirit..

well, guess i'll make my life easier if i just like whatever i'm doing.... yup.. so stardie hard!!! n play too :P

looking back~

was tryin to study for the EE2004...

dunno why, i seem to have lost the motivation i once have... probably it's becuz i've got sooo demoralised in NUS...

i dug up one of my earlier diaries... then suddenly remembered that i used to be so systematic... everyday, i'll list down all my homework, making sure i finish them asap... now, everything last minute or i never get them done anyway...

can't seem to change back, cause somehow, i hated that kind of systematic life... perhaps i lead my life in a sense, opposite... shld have played more back then and stay as systematic as in the past only now...

but come to think of it, i think everyone will dislike me if that's the case.. i'm quite a cold person back then.. haa.. weird rite..

geez.. i better go to bed.. gettin hungry

sinking... self destructing... slowly....

why can't i juz face the truth...

why did i land myself up like this anyway..?

monday~

today's quite a good day i must say... the mood is much more light-hearted though the workload has never decreased.

was on time for EE2005 tutorial today, and i think the first time that i was earlier than my tutor. :X anyway, i stil didn't manage to do my tutorial... still pretty clueless about transistors (freak!)

lecture today is swapped with EE2008, which i think in a sense is good as the topic is still on laplace, not something totally new :) the bad thing is, there's lots of copying to do... and not to mention the lecturer (Sada, or i don't know why, Prof Ben seems to call him, tHE Sada..?) wrote much of the stuff in red... had a hard time trying to make out what he squeezed all over the notes really and hence, much time is spent on squinting, wild guessing and copying rather than listening :X

observations of the day:
- &dru: still yawning at an increasing rate as time passes and still having the tendency of walking the wrong direction. and did i mention, his lameness level hasn't went down (well, but still not my opponent for today :P)

- jeff: had sorethroat... but still talking very much... bought a large pack of $1 worth of hacks candy for his sorethroat.. which really tickled me as the pack of sweets is really exaggerating (even &dru went 'O' when he saw it)... i commented that hacks is not useful against sorethroat... then jeff said why not and said that it's for coughs... and i pointed out that precisely... he's not havin a cough but a sorethroat! :X

- sf: have cough, possibly sorethroat too, and was suffering from gastric flu before that. was quite bad and she couldn't go around saying "hello" :X and visited the health and wellness centre again to see doc. she better take care of herself man.

after lunch theme:
EE2005 lab discussion>< ; chinese "kungfu" ; childhood games

my lab's tml, so listen and tried to contribute with my little understanding on transistors. the discussion is helpful though :)

chinese "kungfu"... now, how did we come to that topic? hmmm, oh ya, cause sf mentioned about her xiang2 long2 18 zhang3... then jeff mentioned that he knew a fren who ran very fast and hit people on the back really hard... so we named it "jiu3 ying1 bai2 gu3 zhang3" :X so i told them about gav's "yi4 yang2 zhi3" and sq's "yu4 nu4 jian4 fa3" :X
then sf proceeded on an attempt to "block &dru's acupuncture", and i warned her of immobolizing &dru and having to carrying him all the way to the lab.

childhood games:
-who stole the cookie from the cookie pot...
-shen4 dan4 lao3 ren2 (the "see who can freeze the longest" game)
-hide and seek (jeff being inspired by me n sf on this topic.. went to hide behind the door wif my laptop while i was in the ladies... :S thanks &dru for the hint :X)

lame joke of the day:
jeff: i really need to bring binoculars next time
me: ha... eh, what is best at seeing red ah? (i thought got some scope or something thats why i asked...)
jeff: a bull
me: ok, then we must bring bullseye next time :X

untimely urge

don't get me wrong, not the urge to go to the ladies, but the urge to do other stuff.

always felt like doing other stuff when i'm not free or not supposed to... :X

anyway, suddenly felt like i should do a bit of cooking... so bought some mushrooms n stir-fried them! yummY :D~~~ taste like what my mom always cooked.. hehe

argh.

today got test... again... tis time, cs1102c

gettin used to it le.. dunno good or bad.......

things r changing too fast.... can't predict wats gonna happen nxt le... feel so insecure...

anyway, was alone when i reach school... went to yih to eat abit... saw yanyi..chatted wif her awhile.. n thx for her gd luck.. yup.. en went to mpsh n saw audrey so joined her.. en sf came.. en the rest one by one... saw the grp b ppl finally.. haa like polar bear, zhengyang, zhengrong, annie etc... en i realised i can't see my own grp's ppl :S well, but still saw them eventuallie.. but din tok to most of them much :(

the test... i juz hope i did it correctly

after the test, dunno why tis time everyone dispersed... jeff disappeared after awhile.. cheewooi also left soon... en saw &dru n sf... en &dru left too en saw christina, sally, annie n qianyi..

merina.. left too.... the grp b ppl.. all zao liao also...

why this time everyone like disperse so fasT? :S test too easy? nuttin to discuss??

er.. anyway, went to do my ctw project after that.. went to sengkang wif omy(late.. sorry jasmine) en ask ppl to do survey for us.. door by door... ran into a rabbit that's not in it's cage n hoppin out of the box after we put it in again.. so we stuff it bak to the cage wif other rabbits in the end.. argh.. it's soooooo cute~~~!~!!~!!~!~~~~! *sobz* i missed my ole rabbit

haiz... en went to write the outline of our intro.. splitted the job up.. n went home.. did abit of housework (cuz mom went on holz wif my sistersssss)

now defragmentin my hdd.. was shocked at the amt of fragmented files.. muz be that matlab 7 :\ haiz.. now gotta wait.. tink i go fold the clothes le.

on the surface may look like a change.. but deep inside there isn't...