woW, the world is spinning

yup.. of cuz it's spinning XD

aiyah, was having a super duper bad runny nose today... wasn't as bad, but the coldness in LT6 made it much worse. Sneezed non stop too... hope I never pass any germs to anyone... X|

cold means block nose, block ears and headache...
so the rest of the day for me is really bad.. especially during Jap tutorial... can't even think straight.

Hmmmm... a fren (decide nt to mention who... dunno why.. dun feel like saying names... tink my brain's still not thinkin well) mentioned about possibly mite change course as that course is much more pragmatic. Of cuz, this kinda news is or often received wif a loud "huh"... esp when u're alreadi like halfway thru the current one... will definately use up even more time and so on....

as a fren i'll still support the idea... though i always still think it's better to follow one's interests... budden again, perhaps in this world.. interests dun worth a cent...

follow what you believe in, spread your wing and fly~

more organised, no?

hmmmm, my sis passed me her super duper underused Tungstun T (that I think is about to be obsolete) and I feel like i've became a whole lot more organised...

well, but still... I can't really keep to the schedule i set T_T

saddening.. it's only like 24-23 days away, and i'm still not serious enough. how?

worse still, i have tests all the way til school close... and a presentation for the project to be due...

got a bad feeling i won't get to study until the study week starts.. CHOY!

k... shld not waste time here n go study~

casualty prone..

been kinda casualty prone lately...

keep ramming my arm or elbow into hard objects as i walk... losin balance on the bus n hit the wall :S (well, in this case is the bus uncle's fault.. lousy driver.. :\)
hurting my toe... (cuz i accidentally kicked sf's sandles... veri hard wor.. issit made of diamond? o.O) and many other other stuff lar...

is it because i'm mentally exhausteD? *shrugs*

anyway, finally cannot wait for chuang yi's version of fruit basket 16 to come out.. so went to buy the taiwan one which cost abt a dollar more...

cried as i read... tears juz keep flowing like the tap never close lidat... it's definately something rare for me...
a good thing i decided to go home n read the rest of it after finishing my ice kacang (weather too hot.. so juz went to the kopitiam to eat b4 going home..)
else it wld be terrible to cry in public bah =_=

as for what happen in the chapter... eh... it's juz about the main character's parents... how her mom who used to be a gang member, met a teacher(erm.. temp teacher), how he changed her n they got married... got child... en he died.. blah blah... nothing thaT fresh to the plot... but somehow.. dunno why... :S

anyway, i definately felt much better after reading.. heh

looked back, looked front...

finally the report for EG1415 is over. Well, this doesn't mean the end of EG1415... but at least for now... it's no longer at the top priority...

think my eyes are really sick of looking at computer screen... it's threatening to close while i was feeling quite fine awhile ago... :(

everyone's working very hard.... losing their sleep and all these...

though it may be amusing to see frens falling asleep during lecture... deep down i felt pretty sad... to have to fight to keep awake during lectures is a dreadful thing... yet you can't sleep well, then you still have to find extra time to catch up... both on schoolwork n slptime

life isn't easy... even though studying can be fun... it's still quite torturing...
why muz we study till like this? study until we can't sleep peacefully, can't have proper meals... slog so hard in the end... we (at least for me...) dun gain thaT much afterall....

i can't see the worth of puttin in that kind of effort.. probably why i'm lacking motivation...

so busy... time so little.. i always find semesters in NUS short... perhaps aside from the very first sem... the rest has been very short.. n gettin shorter still... terrible reallie... though i hate slow paced life... it's kinda getting too fast for me... sooo fast until i can't even see what i'm doing... holidays is a relief perhaps... but it's different from going to school.. i like going to school, see all your frens.. but.. i guess that's all to it le..

oh ya.. another thing i wanna add... i never knew, having to eat lunch on your own is such a lonely thing to do... esp in the canteen... therefore.. i rather not eat (a proper meal that is)

haiz... everyone jiayou! it's like 29 days to exams...

big bad writers block

had to be today.. damn dreadful, to hafta write a report wif writers block... everything becomes incoherent... and i juz can't think of a full sentence ><~

got so many things to type here.. but i juz can't type anymore.. ARGH
reallie a torture.. plus i'm so sleepy now..

hope i wun get back last nite's dream... it's not a nightmare.. but stil kinda a nightmare to me... budden.... again, that's closer to the reality (minus the amt of ppl queueing for train... and even sightings of floating objects)

finally, i can breathe abit!

it's amazing how much a test with 10% weightage can stress ppl so much.. ok, 10% isn't that little.. but.. it's less than the usual 20%... :X

guess it's the cereal i had tis morning.. darn sweet... wif darn sweet soyabean milk... ya.. so even though i only sleep around 4-5 hrs last nite.. and previous nights too... i felt rather hyper. :X

well, that's good... :P i'm currently in NUS still.. waitin for mi frens to finish their lab. It was Sally's 21st burfday ydae... so she holdin bbq to celebrate today. quite alot of ppl going wor.. so i hope it'll be fun! it's been a long while since the previous bbq... but well, some peeps not going :(

oh ya.. it's at west coast... sheesh.. dunno how i'm gonna get home later ><~

hmmm.. bot her a "burberry" wallet (sorry, but i'm no rich person) wif a customised acrylic keychain.. quite nice i tink.. on top of it got a card (end up let everyone sign cuz it's kinda big... well, &dru's 'fault'.. i ask him buy one.. sharin the cost of the prez wif him...) ah, but i always think, the most cruicial thing is to get a card... i'm happier reading cards then juz gettin the prez alone... buT! that doesn't mean no prezzie will do hoR :X effort efforT!

oops.. erm... geez... *rots*

next week, project due! DUE!!! so this whole weekend no doubt is eg1415.. and ee2009 since i got the test comin up! siao le.. another mad week to come.. lucky presentation not yet..... @.@

talkin abt eg1415... dunno why... one of my teammates-junjie.. nowadays look more cheerful.. that time 1st time he join our grp.. he like veri glum n gloomy... like wanna scold ppl :X
well, guess he's juz tired from his other proj

haiz.... sat muz catch back loads of sleep... en muz do all the catchin up for hmwk n so on.... it'll be lidat all the way till end of april (exAmS! ><~)

die.

anyway, congrats to jsim, ORDin tml rite? :P

*needs to be cut off from the computer*

i just can't concentrate on whatever i'm doing with a computer infront of me *sobz*

the bad thing is, there's so many things to be done thru the comp..
shucks

:S

oh ya, wanted to tok abt the dream i had last nite... it's another hantu related dream o.O
and i'm stuck there wif loads of ppl... some are my frens.. then abt half of the ppl there are actuallie hantus but disguised as humans, but still got alot of ppl lar.. haa +_+
er... it's @ tis super big mansion i guess... @ first i tot it's a school... cuz i remember got library.. but... towards the end of the dream, none of it looks like a school anyway... :S but it's kinda ole.. u noe.. like hogwarts? but it's definately not like a school.. 'cept the library.. :x oh ya.. the lib kinda reminds me of aj's lib... ><

erm anyway.. i can't exactly remember what happened at the front part.. but i definately didn't knew abt existence of hantus then... saw one kid juggling veri well in the lib.... ya.. juggling... i guess andrew's juggling club matters kinda rubbed into my brain.. :X and the thought of me going to jio that kid to join juggling crossed my mind.. diaoz... yeah.. en i remember i saw yvonne in the dream... tink juz chat awhile then left liao.. dunno what i was doing also, waitin here waitin there... waiting for someone?

ya.. then dunno when then become nite time? then what i remember is i wanna make my way to the canteen or dining hall... budden the main pathways are not lighted up... then someone who tried going say the way is blocked?! things started getting weird... and the crowd of us who wanted to go there started takin weird paths.. sneak thru giant holes along the wall.. along the ceiling.. (tink even the lift isn't working...) but there's lights coming out from some room? (supposely even haunted) @@

dunno lar... then suddenli while making our way thru the corridoor of smwhere... then everyone started running.. away from what u noe.. actuallie.. those hantus mingled within us... n we hafta keep siaming them... dunno why i was holding something that seems to show their true identity when i hold it close to their faces.. haa.. so i started testin it on everyone near me.. cuz i dunno all the ppl ard me.. can't trust anyone :S erm... ya.. scrambled our way out.. wif many screams along the way... then came to one room at the end.. erm.. like no where else to run.. n somehow, cannot get out of that place also bah..

then got this old man... er, dunno who... told us to go look for the "wand" like stuff to keep the hantus in ctrl, supposely these hantus r released due to a broken seal.. so muz go destroy them or smthin lidat...

so end up i become ghost buster liao... -_-
there's some crap logic behind gettin the wands but i shant explain further.. cuz it's reallie silly.. :s

juz wanna whine n complain abit

can ignore tis post if u wan...

i'm soooooooooooooooooo tired.......
juz let me sleep forever!

damn busy... but i stil feel like writing :X

i muz be courting death lar... coming to write here at tis kinda time...
but, juz feel like writing.

hmmmm... dunno how to reallie put things.. but i did learn that weird news spreads -_- esp, after yvonne asked me that farnie question.... well... to me it's pretty an insignificant event... mebbe juz my bluntness @ work.. i'm supposed to be someone who talk w/o using my brains anyway (and i still do... not use my brains.. :X)
come to think of it, glad nuttin went wrong.. teehee

erm... ya... so much for shooting off my mouth... guess i gave a tad too much comment today... invited lotsa unwelcomed reaction towards me.. well, it's nuttin that bad.. but juz smthin i dun reallie like... hope they'll get tired n leave me in peace... not as if anything will happen.. dotx

~owari~

my mind probably works this way...

"like a mouse running in a wheel... quickly starts running over things in the mind over and over like a mouse running endlessly in the wheel"

mind over heart

hmmm... hidden entry... :P

i'm findin my actions damn contradicting... i've become rather conscious... n like hafta act here n there every now and then.... erm... not acting in the sense of being a hypocrite la.... it's not something bad.. doesn't affect any ppl except myself...

my problem: my mind wans me to act that way... but i actualli dislike it... i hate it infact... but my mind will reason somehow.. n ofcuz mind is stronger than the heart (scientifically, that's where it commands ur body!) ya.. shucks... haiz... reallie at a loss... dunno wat to do....

every action u do, will result in sorta a ripple effect back... or reflection or feedback watever way u wanna put it...
I dunno if what i'm receiving now is a feedback due to my current action or has totally no link... not that happi wif it... erm... it's not the worse... tho i think my mind has prepared for the worse but i reallie dun wan it! AHHHHHH~!
well, i juz hope if in any case, if what i'm receiving now is a feedback due to my "acting"... i hope it's juz a "pei4 he2" show... erM.... i.e. it's a understood action... aiyah.. sian