equivalent exchange...

[mood | contemplative ]

when u gain smthin u lose smthin???
hmm.. dunno..  ha!

crashin NTU

[mood | irate ]

went to crash NTU today... met up wif js at adm to go dwn and bumped into ll at adm mrt statn... haa.. n concluded that our batch co guys like onli got cm go nus... (found out later fr xq stil got wz i tink..? )

ya... NTU not bad.... but i guess i too used to NUS le... cuz it's quite different so go there also not veri xi guan... the ppl there seem different... (as if like everyone got a NTU chop on them LOL.. no NUS-sy look???) yup.. bumped into quite a no. of ppl in the end.. saw Daryl and Zhenwei... then later saw gunz.. and also saw my former colleague fr Creativex (a fellow scanner~ lolx) then saw Wang qiong and tis girl also from AJ one.. but i can't remember her name... oh ya!! juz remembered! she's from cm's class one... (not ruth.. lol) ya.. then wq also takin comp engin.. lol.. but not surprisin...

so in the end xq never come find mi n ahp... so we juz continued waitin for tk n js... then headed for amk for dinner.. end up eatin at this sumo house (that mi n my mom's supposed to go n try out smday... ) ate the cheap katsu don set for 2.90 lidat... ya... then veri full le.. actualli their chicken veri little... (well u look at the price..) but stil ok la... alot of rice -_-

ya.. then went dwn fer prac... hs actualli tell us go out prac.. n we become chased from place to place.. sadness....

went home.. found out that my father's driving license is invalid n nids to be returned... but accordin to previous letters which ask him to go for eyesight test.. they onli mention class 4 and class 5 license... they never mention class 2 and 3.... idiotic rite??? now they say the whole license invalid... wth... damn pissed...

'_'

[mood indescribable ]

don't know why, today feeling so sian.... esp when it comes to mapling... mebbe becuz i din get any drops or is ossy also quite boring for me but yeah... i think it's abt time i shld stop playin le... mebbe not 100% stop but shld play much much much less.

the new semester is arriving reeeeeeeel soon. still feel abit apprehensive abt it cuz i noe nxt sem's gonna be tough.. but den again.. i suddenli got the chong1 dong2 to pia pia and pia...

gratefulness~

[mood | grateful ]

feeling very grateful now~ hahaa.. dunno why? juz suddenli felt that i'm veri hapi wif my life :S but guess i'm growing a tad too lazy fer it...

going on a diet... i reallie shld

[mood | full ]

gahz.. who won't be full?!?!! after eatin @ cafe cartel on fri... havin a buffet @ my sis's hse fer baby warming on sat.. then went fer another sinful lunch + tea + snackin @ essential brews on sun...
feels quite sick actualli.. to suddenli eat tis much... tho all of them is reallie nice n delicious food!~~ :D but... haha. i better let my tummy rest
essential brews @ holland V~ quite a nice place wif nice ambience.. food abit ex but their desserts r veri worth it fer the portion! everything there gotta do wif tea i tink... even the apple crumble's sauce is green tea.. but yey! i love apple crumble!!~~!!!~!!~!! :9~ *burP* oopz :X

20/01 class outing~

quite succesful~~~ really hafta thank audrey n cp :P

many came~ and zw reallie hav a real change in image! so hip suddenli LOL XD
the rest din change that much bah... then i found out something.. hehehe.. shan't say :X

that cafe cartel reallie quite good cuz so ulu... alot of ppl din noe it existed... but then.. it serves pretty slowly Zzz :X

after tt went esplanade slacked abit b4 going home :)

nice seeing everyone!

yeyS~!

[mood accomplished ]

finally stop procrasinating n made a webby!.. but i got no content fer it.. so it's juz the main page n the menu bars~ general layout wil stay that way..

if u wanna go take a look then go http://www.geocities.com/edo_meow
stil dun hav anythin to put inside tho :(
and shut that annoyin yahoo add then it'll look nicer... haiz if onli i got my own server (dream on man! no money)

feel free to leave comments :P

har?

[mood weird ]

had a veri weird dream last nite.... so the rest of the day kip feelin weird weird one

the routine of everyday hafta be waken up by the doorbell at 8am then mi going back to slp for another hour is startin to irk me.... wonder when i'll finally snap.. hope not :X

for once, i'm not lookin fwd to the start of a new semester... totally absolutely not lookin fwd to it...

haiz.. den dunno wat i wanna say liao... kip feelin like givin tis place another revamp... but i guess i shld go try makin a webpage.. budden no ling2 gan3.... so sianx.....

reallie the mind is willing but flesh is weak....

treat

[mood apathetic ]

hmmm~ went fer ktv wif zx, cm, ll n merv~ sang tons of songs :X tho i can't find much songs on my own... (end up ppl dian3 den i juz sing if i noe) so guess i reallie shldn't go ktv-in liao
after tt went to swensens fer dinner but we had our "appetizers" 1st~ apple crumble n banana crumble!!!!~~!! :D~ i stil prefer apple for crumbles :P
then by then already too full.. so end up when erik arrive... shared a bake rice wif ll and shared fried mushroomies wif everyone...
tok abt quite weird topics over dinner i guess... i never expect those stuff? hmmm
ya.. we treated cm to the ktv n the meal fer mafanin him so much fer the chalet bah.. (if i'm not wrong he had to move back the furnitures n so on.. :X)
after that.. ended up play pool.... cm too zai liao.. unbeatable =.=
yup.. went home after tt~

erm... sry if i never jio anyone else... tink most ppl are busy n shld juz kip it small bah~ :x sry sry

Long time no c freNS :P

[mood chipper ]

finally met up wif xi di fen, gunz & shupei today~ it's bcuz xi di fen's bdae is tml and he offered to treat us to lunch! so nice hor! (condition: to bring a gift :X)

met xi di fen @ orchard mrt today durin noon.. was abit shocked wif his dress style cuz i never saw him dress tis way (funkier?) and smmore he died his hair n styled it :P then met gunz outside tangs
originally planned to go to tis magicwok @ far east but cfmed that it closed down :X... so ended up at the indonesian restaurant @ paragon... sp onli joined us after we started eatin (infact.. halfway down to it)
gunz din change much bah.. haha but found out that he cut his own hair? quite good skill really~ cuz it's very even! (see some potential here?)
learn that sp's going for exchange nxt sem @ perth! so good.. haiya.. her results quite zai one.. so not surprising
after tt sp went back to work.. then we juz walked ard orchard chattin~ haha it's nice to get together and catch up again :)

hope to see them again soon :P

oh ya.. reallie hafta thank gunz for pei-in mi walk all o'er orchard juz to find gifts for my sisters.. so mafan to get gifts fer them~ thx thx gunz!

back from "chalet"

[mood | sleepy ]

went cm's house (one of his hse) for alumnico chalet on fri... juz realise that place is very close to amk :p quite a good location bah..
was kinda worried that i'll lose my way.. luckily i din o.o... reach liao and found out ll's the onli girl there? haha.. mebbe it's a gd thing i went on fri instead of sat... they were tokin abt tis guy that kept lurkin ard the house n wanted to make frens wif them :X i din see that guy tho.. lol
hmm... ppl there got cm, sy, bh, fk, ql, js(not jsim), ll, erik... so played mj for a while... (started 2 tables.. den ql neber play) but our table stopped becuz everyone din reallie hav luck and we liu2 ju2 like dunno for how many rounds... so went over to the other room n i found interest in the e-keyboard there :X then started playin the beat mania game on that keyboard ya.. then juz tok cok n so on.. (initially wanted to play card game.... budden becuz of the keyboard haha XD)
after tt merv came.. ya... so meddled on wif the keyboard n guitar (tt's in that room too) then played asshole while those play mj starts playin bridge.. went out to eat prata at like dunno wat time (near 3am???) after that.. everyone came back n some of us went to slp.. esp ll who's so slpy :P en i tried to slp... then merv n cm also... then the rest came later (and they hafta take the floor :X oops) well, the aircon's kinda cold.. so din reallie slp also... hear some ppl snore a while here n there haha.. then smtimes chatted abit... en got drag out of bed by ll :X
en we went back to that mj room to slack.. and play keyboard (again?) then cm woke up.. so 3 of us juz stayed there n meddle wif the keyboard... after tt i kept sayin i hungry :X so went out buy food..
after that, went back and spend almost the rest of the afternn in that room.. zl, xh n kc came.. so did je, zy n his gf... then near evenin.. mi went to play ps wif ll n ql.. then yl, rj n amelia came also.. but they all never stay for the nite bah... at nite went ktv after jsim n lj arrive.. by then gy n sw also came liao..
gy treated us to icecream~ (those veri ex one. haha so nice of him :P) ya.. den i din sing much cuz i got no voice left (all thx to ql's cold jokes on fri nite :X)
well.. then sing finish le went back play ps awhile.. then was slackin ard... n merv drag mi go watch Final Destination 2... yuckky movie.. :S n i didn't watch most of the scene of the freaky gory deaths.. sick.
din slp in the end.. watch them play uno stako, heart attack then play 2 rounds of asshole.. played game of life (by then everyone esle went to Zzz le).. then played carrom wif rj.. then dozed until 8am :S... cuz so slpy.. so din stay on.. had breakfast wif jsim n lj.. then went home n KO all the way til 6pm

arghx

[mood | tired ]

1st n foremost, congrats to lj fer passin her driving tesT~ *applauds*

today is a veri tiring day... hand pain leg pain head also pain...

dun wanna go into the details... but today's not a good day fer mi...

tink i'll juz grow to become more n more apathetic... -_-

yeys~

[mood | content ]

okies.. copied lj for tis.. tot quite nice to hav a set of mood everytime :P
yupyup~ i'm actualli now bloggin direct from photobucket.. quite gd :D

oh ya.. the set of mood theme is actualli from FMA.. came across it tot quite cute so d/led... :p
but livejournal nid to be paid account then can use.. so i use it here~ freE~ muahaha

funZ

teehee i'm just tryin this out

[mood | accomplished ]

hope it works :P

thx fer all da luck~

to all who wished mi luck fer my FTT thx!~~~!!~~!

to tk n js who lend mi the book n the tys.. veri veri thx~~!!

the tys sure come in quite handy.. tho not 100% qns r from there... but stil see some familiar ones... save time

i finished checkin every question in 28 mins... n left the classroom

it's good to noe the results immediately

tink today i'm quite lucky too~ (how i noe? in maple.. i juz picked up a brown jester n another mithril pole arm!)

maple is in a sense a good indicator of luck.. well.. no panlids tho :X lol

tml is FTT!!!

ok, guess i'm all jittery whenever it comes to theory test fer driving... esp learning that it's computerised isn't gonna help much..

hope they don't change the questions... :S

have been studying (rather diligently the past couple of days..) today supposed to revise but i end up findin FMA comic scans online n kept myself busy reading them~~!!

ughs i'm so bad

computerised... geez :S

big can's 21st burfday... eh.. or issit 521st burfday?

all in all onli 5 ppl help him celebrate since he wans it small...

xq n lj came to my hse in late afternn to rot ard :X
left fer yishun via mrt (and xq initially tot we're walking.. we'll be darn late if we do.)
end up tk n js are earlier then us~ lol

went to crystal jade to eat n eat until veri full~~ the food's nice~ and so is the auntie! (not ref. to xq here...)

i barely cldn't stand up after tt.. yup.. then drag tk down for contacts :P
not bad la.. he didn't take too long before he put them in~ *applauds*

then we kip takin fotos of him as if he's some celebrity :S

went home awhile after tt~ tho to mi it suddenli seems to mi that time has reversed n we're back in j2

hahaa~

ii tenki desu ne... -_- totemo atsui...

hmmm dunno what to post here these few days... guess i'm losing my bloggin habit again :X

k.. reallie lost all my words for these entry. shall end here.

sadly sweet melody...

gahz.. i HAD to find the vocal version of the Russian song in FMA... Brat'ya (or Bratja..) anyway, it's Russian.. my blog is currently playin the non vocal one...

Probably it's becuz i learn of the meaning of the song that's why I'm so sad... this song is veri veri nice.. but so nicely sad... and it's written juz fer FMA if i'm not wrong...

so nice.. yet so sad... *weeps*

the sadness beats i guess almost all the anime's i've watch before tis...

FMA mood

hmm, finally finished watching the FMA js lend mi last sunday...
yup, so i'm totally in FMA mood now.. smmore now d/ling their OSTs... 2 and 3.. can't find the 1st one tho :\ Does anyone have it?

thou the ending's abit lame, but i'm still sad that Ed & Al are seperated by the gate...
Don't get to see anime which are so focus on brotherly love often so i guess that is what really made FMA so special... well, not to mention that it's pretty much a dark plot too.... even tho they planted jokes ard the anime... half the time reallie can't laff it out loud too... o_o


hmmm... guess my mom's kinda hinting that i'm wastin my time rotting and not doing anything productive... she nags when i watch FMA (as thou it doesn't finish.. -_-) ya.. and creative offered me another one week job lobang but it had to be on the week i hav my FTT so will clash... gahz.. so forget it... :(

i shld continue on wif my plan.... n cut down on mapling le... (getting abit sian also... actualli, there's nuttin much interestin abt the game)
uhm... yup

move forward yourself... you got legs, you can walk...

CPE bbq @ ECP~~

ya... in a weeks time and i found myself back in ECP again!~

well, went to Bedok to meet up wif them.. but everyone that i know was late.. hq's fren's there but i din tok to him..

so glad that hq came with serene (his gf) and she's actually very friendly and nice to tok to? (I never really interacted with her when i 1st met her)
ya.... then later yvonne n yng came... then followed them n serene dwn to the hawker center so they can get food

and finally after awhile the ppl we're supposd to meet there came (namely, merina, christina, annie, chui har, kiat an, hq and his 2 frens, polar bear) yup...

so bot the stuff... then went to take bus 31... and that time, fredrik n another guy (both in polar bear's clique one) also joined us...

reached there.. n a few of us chiong across the express way instead of takin underpass (which means walkin longer distance.. but i was pulled across the expressway by chris anyway :S ) ya... then went to collected some of the food we ordered n headed to the bbq finding an uncle peeling vege's there... -_-
he's... like quite determined not to leave until he finish peeling.. but he left later anyway :X

then i went to tandem wif chris.. lol really, tandem reallie nids lotsa mo qi.... XD wobbled our way quite abit when we start.. and the right brake keep screechin like nuts.. ew
and seat is waYYYYY toooo uncomfy... like chris say... sit liao pi gu kai hua....
it's fun biking wif her tho my butt is wayyy to painful.. she's crappy lar.. lol

we went back to the pit ard 710pm... the guys r startin fire.. (so sorry i din help.... but in the end i guess it's a job well done :) )
ya.. then ppl subsequently started comin in....
poor sf got lost (actualli i'll get lost too if i come at that time.... :( )
ya... so i decided to go out n fetch her... (and i tot that since &dru's also on his way.. then shun bian wait fer him)
nice nice ch accompanied me~~ and we found sf.. but found out that &dru's lost lol!
but end up we dilly dally n still waited fer him. yup
quite nice standin on the highway actualli.. but ydae quite hot...

oh ya.. lemme mention who else came.... gibson, tianyao, jeff n gf (i juz remembered! her name is xinhui!!! LOL.. had a temp memory loss last nite :X), andy, sally (came wif gibson! then merina they all are going like andy will be so sad... haha.. jokers man they all) uh..i guess that's abt it le~~

budden lotsa ppl left earli.. polar bear also :\ quite glad he went~ he's a great company on the trip there

yupyup~ well, that's abt it bah... after that the rest of juz stay on..
andy droved... so yvonne n yng took his car back~ mi n sf decided to juz take mrt
near missin the last train from pasir ris down to city.. then annie they all ditched us (namely me, sf, ch n &dru) and ran to catch bus to bedok :(
we were quite shocked cuz everyone disappeared! LOL ya.. so 3 of us took taxi down to raffles city (since i tot that we most prob miss the train at bedok alreadi... and found out later that annie they all missed it too..) then ch took bus 31 back home

luckily, we manage to catch the last train from city hall~

alumni co bbq @ ECP~~

yeys~ bbQ~~ n i can't eAT!
diaoz :X

uhm ya.. cuz my cough haven't recovered fully.. so had dinner @ home before going dwn... hmmm.. took a tad too long thinkin of which bus to take at home... so ended up reachin there late... (uhm.. tot i'll reach @ 7pm... but end up later cuz the pit's so far from macs.. :X )

help abit here n there~ saw wenzhang n even samuel!!!! yes! my batch's samuel.. goodness.. i haven't seen him since.. since... since i grad from AJ! LOL

whoever who manage to get him back is reallie zai~

ya~ bbq~ not bad.. the jnrz quite nice too! finally noe who's Chris (to my realization.. he ask mi to guess his name n i cldn't.. arghx... shi bai.... cuz i actualli knew him in maple.. but never noe how he looked like :X ) ya.. n noe jianshen (ok.. his name quite cutex.. he's a veri interestin jnr too!)

ya.. then fk's the official food tester.. he tested everything at least :X lol quite funny~

in the end i dunno wat is cm n wz doing to the chicken pieces also... playin n "bbqin" blahhz

wz's still veri him lar... din change abit... :S quite cok... and said many lame stuff which i dun wanna mention...

anywayz... after a journey to macs n back.. realised the jnrs are havin some shuan4 ming4 stuff... i muz learn~~ ok.. type a bit abt it here so i wun forget... the guy is the k of spade n the girl is the Q of hearts... then the Ace of spade is the guys' feelings while the Ace of hearts is the girl's feelings...~~
ya... then the alumni peeps hav wz tis time and started another round of discussion (supposedly informal... :X )

and suddenli after that.. everything sorta ended.. everyone wanna go home.. the jnrs went 1st... then after that... was stumped that actualli aside from js n lj.. no one else wanna stay @ ECP till mornin... :S was wonderin if i shld go hm..... but reallie dun wanna take cab esp @ midnite charges.... (save $$$!!!) haha.. diaox... so sorta ying zhe tou pi stay bahs... :S hope din cause much inconvienience to lj n js :X then 3 ppl.. can't play bridge.. so play dai dee...
went back n forth from macs too... then also kip eatin beehoon whenever hungry :x

yaa.... then when both of them KO (i'm surprising awake... din yawn even... uhmm.. guess i rested plenty @ home le LOL) ya.. so sat there n uhmm.. stoned? reallie stone bah.. looked ard see stars see ships.. see ppl.... my mind was blank.. got nuttin to tink abt... but luckily time pass pretty fast... but i guess becuz i din slp hai4 lj din slp also :S

hope she reallie din catch a cold from all the sea breeze.. pretty windy

yupperZ that's abt it.. went home in the mornin~ now i tink reallie takin bus from city area to ecp is so much faster?
hmm.. nxt week is @ ecp againX!!

moi results...

4 words to describe....

ku1 xiao4 bu4 de2...

veri veri nearly dabao the whole module... hope no nid to retake...

searchin fer these!

pls send mi tis songs if u hav them :)

can use http://www.yousendit.com/

and paste the link in the comments!! hehe

and i'm lookin fer

> Bon Jovi - it's my life
> Natalie Imbruglia - wishing i was there
> Garbage - special
> Beautiful South - Perfect 10
> Chumbawamba - tubthumping
> N'sycn - bringing da noise (lol.. ajcians shld noe tis song pretty well)
> Third eye blind - semi charmed life

thx~

cReatIve FesT~~ the lasT daYYYYY

today's quite an enjoyable day reallie... wanna thank lotsa of ppl fer makin tis whole creative fest soooooo enjoyable~~~

but before that.. lemme get on to the usual "what happened today" thingy...
1stly, was super duper glad that my fever subsided sometime durin earli mornin i tink..? ya.. but that's abt it... cldn't reallie stop my coughin n my legs r going rubbery from it.. :S

manage to get myself to creative anyway.. met wai yeung (erm.. actualli it's wei yang in chinese.. ya.. congrats to him.. he's the 4th weiyang i knew... but decide to remember him as wai yeung bah.. easier :X) but still headed to creative along since he's waitin fer fren..

so as usual.. reach there 10 mins earlier... hang ard the counter waitin fer ppl to appear.. the day juz started like almost any other...

well, the one thing to note is that today's crowd seems more consistant... and finally~~~ they didn't close my counter until much much later!!! (until ard 7+) well.. that means i worked harder today.. haha :S and again.. there was no dinner left fer me when i finally can go eat... *sadded*
thanks chun ta (dun reallie noe how to pronouce his name actuallli) fer being sympathetic. :X

hmmm, ya then sally finally came to find me today~ then took pic wif polar bear tooo~ haahaaa.. sally's pass so good.. it's like perm staff one.. got foto de... mine onli got one letter T... (ya but onli 3 days so wat u expect?)

yup yup.. after that slacked ard until debrief... then staff sale.. tis time.. nuttin i wanted to buy.... nuttin reallie that attractive also lar... tink becuz sales not so gd that's why :X

so watch ppl zoom ard buying... lend polar bear my card so he can help his fren buy too.. hahaz...

in the end i onli bot 25pc of 52x cd-r for $5!!! :D worth it lar.. hehee

yup... en went fer dinner wif polar bear n junxiong (also fr cpe~ n juz realised that he was in the same class as sf in yr1.. hahaa.. :P )

ok...~ so here's abt it~~

wanna start my thankiew list le..
1stly, wanna thank all the cashiers from the finance dept for being sooooooo nice to mi~~~!! (n helpin me kope the armbands.. hahaaz :X) oh ya.. n Rae~~~ for being sooo nice :D
2ndly, wanna thank all the scanners fer being such great company! esp serene, hsien fei, kim peng, waiyeung, qiu seng, and some others (din catch their name :X sorry~~~ :X)
3rdly, wanna thank wp n ct fer chattin wif mi when i'm bored (erm... my counter unlike others.. isn't as busy at times.. :X)
4thly, wanna thank polar bear~~~ hahaa... well.... juz nice to see someone u know ard~ oh ya.. and the adobe fotoshop :P n sally~~ fer visitin mi!!!! :D
last but not least, all others who've help me in one way or another but i juz din get to noe ur names :)

thats all~ xie xie~~ :p

creative fest... day 2 (x 0.5)

hmmm... got to stop work @ 1600... *sobz* my $$$$$...

ahhh.. but it's good too.. my cough's gettin quite bad... (frequency increasin...) even though i manage to find my voice back this morning... guess too many herbal tea.... haa.. (i brot a bottle there... and their drink fer lunch is herbal tea again.. geez... how in time... ) so i spent my day eatin dequinlizers (sp??) and strepsils n drinkin herbal tea.. :S

anyway.. today is reallie nice to me... though i dun feel like forsakin the possible 4 more hours of pay.. sob sob...

may tml be fun~~ last day~~~ oh ya.. and accordin to the peeps in creative.. tis is the last time that the fest will be held at the warehouse... told us to take more pics... i wonder shld i bring my cam (like quite stupid.. n mafan cuz i'm bringing creative pdts in... :S)

oh ya... muz go ask fer some ppls' contacts n some their names.... tok to them so many times but didn't remember their name... (me so badx :X )

Creative Fest... day 1

only found out today wp is also workin there.. haa.. mp3 agent :P
today's also vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvVVVVVVVVVVv tiring.. esp for my legs n my throat... who sayz scanners no nid to tok? n who says scanners get to sit? most of the time no... i dun remember sittin much 'cept durin lunch time... *sadded*

i lost my voice... n my leg's still sore... tml dunno how to tahan.. how i hope it's the last day le....

*diex again*

may tml be nice to me... *cough cough*

creative fest... the prelude

today is supposed to be briefing... end up i guess i can count myself as really working le...

seems like among the scan-ners... i'm the onli one who worked there before (well, actualli a one day experience of sittin @ redemption ctr wun help much...)
and i'm about to find out that tis is the worst position ever!! ( i rather they make me carry speakers n so on.... zZzz )

how i envy polar bear... selling cams... reallie so shuangx... *sobz*

today.. actualli worked till 8pm... hungry n tired.... tho i reallie feel that they quite chamz n nid help.. but was grateful when R told me i can leave....

oh ya, it's damn creepy to take that short cut... 1stly, risk fallin into the big drain (unless u're damn good at plank walkin)... 2ndly, it's pitch dark... 3rdly... it rained and there's tons of frogs amongst the grass n mud.. 4thly.. muddy... ugh.... lucky i din (dun tink i did) step on any frogs or watsoevers.....

uuuuuh how to survive tml~?~?~!! *sobz*


gonna die tml.. i can smell it..

omg~ another good news? of attachment

haa... ok... juz realised today, via moi dearest sec sch fren's (yj) blog tt she got attached!!! LOLs
and her name is so near to lj's that my mom always get confused when i mention..

so now i can tell my mom both lj n yj are attached... tho i dunno who yj's bf is...
wei.. if u're readin tis.. better tell mi worZ~

eh.. come to think of it... both their burfdays fall on the same day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! different year tho. :P omgS hahaaaz
how qiaoz~ mebbe i shld go ask all my frens born on that day if ey're attached :P nah.. juz kiddin

probably the 2nd best news tis week

yey~ i'll be working at Creative WHS! (erm... 90% cfm liao...)

and Polar bear's workin there too~~ so fun~ got someone i noe workin wif me :D 1st time worx

gahz.. but lidat tml's schedule dunno how liao :S

had a lil arguement wif my mom.. ok it isn't that little... but she kip sayin i play comp so much yadda yadda nxt time i go blind... and ended up i ended the whole thing saying.. go blind then go blind lor... -_- ok.... i definately.. dun wanna go blind... tho i tink that going blind isn't as bad as not able to hear and say anything
stilll~~ gah...

muahahahaa~ finallY~~~

took tis out cuz i tink i shld tone down wif the publicising..
but very happy fer them~ and i hope the 2 of them remain happY too~~

keke jiayouz n all the beST~ :P:P:P

not my day...

actually, i've kind of ran out of things to blog... aside from venting my anger or sharing my happiness (which is droppin i suppose...) dun reallie feel like blogging much...

perhaps it's becuz my life have been reduced to almost the same routine everyday... perhaps i'm just tired... like today... my head was heavy through out... cuz i caught a cold last nite... was sneezing non stop this morning and subsequently, hav a bad runny nose thru the whole day...

i.e. not in a very good mood also... gah.. ya...

blogging brings about self awareness bah... actually, i hate that... i sometimes wish that i'm juz a person that is very chi2 dun4 abt tis kinda stuff.. mebbe i'll be happier...

ya... then again heard ppl complaining abt me havin lotsa blogs.... well... i'm onli posting stuff here n perhaps multiply (occasionally where i think those stuff can be shared to a more general public? haf a different set of audience there i tink.. hahaaz).. yup.. so OD is out.. i'm sick of it's format.... veri sian le... at least i still can change the looks of my blog when i got sick of it...

some things went unsaid... but well, i supposed it need not be said afterall :X

anyway, nid abit of feedback, is my blog hard to read? is the font too small or smthin?

becuz of that

ok.. was complainin a whole long post here.. but fer that "thankiew"... i take back my words....

too much comp!

hmmm... mom's complaining that i'm facing the comp too much.... probably mapling too much and watching too many anime (erm.. ole ones... XD)

eh... ya... so actualli i got a veri nice deal... that i use less comp.. n my dad wil sponser me $$$ fer driving WORz! XD
ok.. i really find that deal very funny... very bo hua fer him also... cuz i noe it's a matter of time i get sick of maple... (as i alreadi am... sianz..)
and those ole anime will watch finish one mahz

amusing.. ya... so sign up for FTT but will be in late 24th june.. dottables... so late.. ya.. so i'm sure my driving lesons pte or sch, will eat into sem time... mebbe nxt sem shld take 5 mod (ya like i can.. )

driving aside.. and i'm not havin some comp sickness.. i'm pretty bored of the comp also... but there's nothing more entertainin at home than the comp.. tv's simply out of touch fer me...

erm.. ya i'm broke.. duhz... it's a matter of time of cuz... i hope those creative ppl wil call mi.. that polar bear everyday see me online will keep naggin sayin why they never call... he's makin me lose hope.. tho not that i enjoy that much workin wif them.. i cld reallie do wif some money to make ends mit for these whole holz!!!!~!!!!

anyone got ad-hoc job lobangs? brainless mindless jobs i dun mind also.. juz want some pay... some money.. hahaaz

oh ya... i stop havin exam dreams liao bah (i hope)... last nite dreamt that the new semester start!!! (ain't i progressing fast?)

Exploring...

The interesting about living things is they respond. (Eck! Who doesn't know that?)

Ok, I've found a sudden interest in trying to get different responses from my friends (though I haven't really went about doing it... hesistant as I may be pushing my luck too far) by "irritating" them. Well, since I haven't been that an irritating person all along (I suppose... :X)...

So should I give it a go? XD

bungled...

well, today's supposed to be an alumnico outing... but thanks to my Mom (not that I really wanna blame her, but still, i'm not very happy that she just made the decision without consulting...) the day didn't turn out to be that an happy one afterall...

ya... so at 1st, the schedule is to go ktv wif the alumnico peeps (klunch to be exact) from 11-2pm.. after that, no plans but it's our usual routine to probably go do smthin or walk around then mebbe hav dinner
and my mom decided that me, and her and my dad go bowling.

well, not that i hate bowling.. but i suck at it... cuz i'm always to rash and i'll land the ball up in the gutter anywayz... well, nevermind that.. but the primary reason they need me there is because they don't know how to operate the machine (of cuz, that is becuz their english isn't proficient at all) ya... so in a sense... i'm juz there to help them operate the machine... ya nm, i'm fine wif that.... aiyah.. ok.. i juz bu shuang my mom mess my schedule up..
so end up i left kbox (mind u, it's at cine) after finishin my tasty-but-fries-not-enuff-blackpepper chicken chop @ like 1330... and it seems as if i haven't even warmed my seats... haven't heard all the Eason songs i wanna hear ;_;
ya... went all the way back to Grassroot @ yck.. then realised that my nephew's taggin along cuz my sister n sister in law going shopping.. argh... i smtimes reallie dunno if it's a blessing to hav ur grandson tieing u down or not...

anywayz, almost end up can't bowl cuz at 1st the person told us that no more alleys.. then later say can play till 3... then after that that nephew kip sayin wanna play the arcade games?! erm... note.. he's onli 4...

ya.. so dily dallied... then was tryin to see if those co peeps still up to anything.. end up like no plans so i went yishun alone, tryin to look fer smthin.. can't find in the end... then saw this PapaRoti (pavaroti? :X) in cold storage... haiz... and they also selling the roti @ 1.20... and long queue smmore... i see another similar pork floss case or bubble tea case~

ya... then was too tired to reallie walk on... so even after js called mi, i dun feel like going all the way dwn to suntec le.. so suan le.. went home n rot... the weather's hot n makes it deterrin to even move another inch....

shld hav AS outing soon...

that's me...

I guess all these while... I was quite confused over my own personality. Like can't really pin point some stuff down... and it's not very stable... haa.. internal struggle?

well... so mebbe i shld write smthin abt myself.. hope i see the right light (regardless of watever personality test i took... and mebbe u guys wun find it right... i dun dare to say i understand myself the most... :P)

hmmm...
ok.. i'm definately no extrovert... or even if i am one.. i'm definately those slower to warm up kind... unless i'm workin or havin circumstances that i have to approach ppl.. i reallie dun hav the habit to...

i'm the kind that will shoot my mouth off, but since i'm aware... so no worries if u kept ur secrets wif me... juz lemme noe it's a secret.. it will be well kept (and probably forgotten by myself XD)
but i'm pretty blunt i guess... esp if i figured that the person wun get hurt by my words.. but well, who noes that i'm juz not sensitive enuff to detect how much the person can actualli take it.
i'm talkative... yet quiet.. ok.. not tryin to contradict.. but i'm more like quiet when discussin important matters and noisy when tokin abt smthin that interests me.. shld be the other way rite (as in better?) but.. cuz i dun like conflict.. so i wun go conflictin other ppl's views unless i reallie cannot accept it... but if it's juz informal stuff.. who noes.. if i feel game for an arguement.. i'll juz argue head on (smtimes.. even tho my arguement is not strong.. haa.. reckless me..)
still, most of the time i'm quite agreeable :P

well, i have a active brain and heart.. so whether i act by my feeling or by my head it all depends... but i always thought i shld use my brain more when i acted wif my feelings and i shld juz follow my feelings when i used my brain.. XD ok.. basically.. i'm always findin problems wif myself. geez

also, i'm a super lazy person... reallie lazy.... but i'm not doing anything abt it.. bad rite... got some frens... always never reallie contact them... partly is becuz i feel awkward... dunno why... then for some is got try to contact but tot that they also not veri keen to keep in contact lidat.. guess everyone is juz lazy and feeling awkward.. or juz simply too bz XD

well, i hate to say tis.. but i'm actualli quite a sensitive person... not to say i'll get paranoid... but issit reallie i paranoid or ppl keepin smthin from me but lan lan dun wanna say it's not smthin i'll noe... but i'm quite sensitive to how ppl treat me(esp)... or rather.. if there's a change in it... i'll most prob sense it bah... but most of the time... i'll juz keep quiet... if it is tahanable

not forgetting that i'm forgetful and tend to miss out details in certain matters... like calling ppl out for outing... tendency to miss someone out... mebbe assume too much also... but haiz... was wonderin.. if call then end up call everyone also become too big a matter... i dunno how to draw a line and i find it pretty tormenting (hate drawing clear lines.. ) soo.. spare me bah

oh ya... did i mentioned that i got a short fuse? erm... for things/ppl that irritates me... (like my niece n nephew n my dad n Hugo (who's no longer ard).. XD) I won't hesistate to shout... guess that's a lil bit of me that's like my eldest sis (as i hate to admit... argh..) ya... i can be veri fierce... and i'm not those kind of no violence person... but i guess most of my frens (or mebbe all) wun get to see tis side of me.... ya... so they always say i veri nice and kind yadda yadda... i am.. cuz there's no irritating elements ard.. XD

slacker's life...

hmmm.. well, basically juz slacked all day long.....
went bras basah wif lj on tues,
went out wif merina n cx juz now

both times ended up in bugis. so i guess i had enuff of bugis for a while...

well, dun reallie hav much stuff to shop for.. so the agony of having no money isn't really affecting me yet - though when i start thinking of future possible activities... i do feel abit ugh.. but.. haa.. worry later bah... n pray hard i get my creative job... even if it means that i hafta miss my CO chalet.. ok.. if i miss it.. it'll be the 1st time i miss one... definately upset over that... but there's nuttin i can do... (unless God decides to make me poor by letting me not gettin the job (sorry not blaming anyone) :X)

ya, i'm slacking... and feeling lethargic all day long... don't want to do anything.. let alone even plan outings though i really wanna go out with my frens... dunno what to do.. movie is definately out with the increase in price... OUT!
mebbe someone can inspire me wif possible outing activities...

i can't believe it la.. it's the holz yet the deadness is sticking to me... aside from tots which i believe i shldn't dwell on that comes... i onli spend time numbing myself by playing maple... yah.. boring ole maple.. damn boring.. i dunno why i'm playing it still when no one is playing it wif me... i'm juz playing... alrite.. everything sounds veri bad.... i dunno why... perhaps it's just pms or mood swings or juz suddenli emptiness... can wake up in the morning and feel like crying (even if i din hav a nightmare)... think i'm juz running away...

muz stop, wake up, face it.... and... outings ppl???? :P

skate skate time for ice skatE~

another "cpe OG" outing brought to you courtesy of weilin :X

this time, it's different! no exhibitions and plain walking around, we're sliding on the cold cold ice~

why sliding and not skating? this is because skating is a subset of sliding and falling down and literally slide is also a subset of sliding.

ok... think readers will get lost here. :X so here's my account... (and one hell-long entry which I foresee)

Ok, it all started with giving sf a morning call at 10am.... she sounded very sleepy... so i predicted that she'll possibly not be able to meet me. got it right! :X but din expect her to be That late :X

well, then I was early (again...) so went to recce the rink (to see if it's crowded)... then headed back and slacked around popular... until 1132 lidat (we supposed to meet at 1130) then i went out of popular, with my still very hot char siew pau i bot earlier and &dru appeared out nowhere... and he said something like "this seems very familiar" (refers back to the previous outing at planet games)
yup... and jh appeared not long after~ (so now you know who are the ones that are always on time) yeah.. then the guys talked about palm tops and pocket pcs.. wif me gettin lost here and there... and after what seems a very long while... cm, cw, sh&yc came... then sf came... jeff.. said he meetin us there.. so we went to the rink n jeff arrived... cm treated us some Denmark.. erm.. candies? i dunno how to classify that.. it's taste is really so unique.. I had my face scrunched up for quite a while... and it's quite big... too sticky to be bitten... so ya.. :S
was damn glad that we can go in at a rate of $8.40 (skate rentals included) and unlimited hours in groups of 3?! (exactly when is such a promotion!?) but wells.. went in... got my skate wore it.. took fotos (can't take when i go in anywayz) then the person who gave us the skates (apparently he can't seem to talk) offered to help.. but i forgot to off the timer :X so the pic screwed up ><~

ya... so stepped onto the rink.. well, then it's kinda confusin.. I'm a bad teacher.. cuz i can't reallie say things out in theory.. :S and i can't do any stunts or what... then jh simply zoomed off (cuz he noes roller bladin so somehow it helps) and has been ranked as reckless skater by me... cuz he goes fast yet he can't brake... and multiple cases of him crashin into people and falling and sliding flat on the ice has happened. but then, he's quite reliable if u need to grab someone when you fall~ erm.. if he's standing around that is.
the funniest part i guess is when he also got cramp... as for why.. see below

well, aside from him.. and me who went ice skatin 2 times before.. the rest are really new at it...
yup... so the usual routine is to hold on to the barrier of the rink and skate.. and i guess the 1st person who I saw really lettin go n skate is &dru.. so thus give him the fastest learner... though he fell many times.. but he learn really fast! can't brake well still.. but is capable of doing nice spins (by accident i guess) and is very stable when skatin... sometimes.. i tot he looks more like the one that has been to ice skatin 2 times instead of me...
he's currently at learning how to do the hockey brake.. haa.. dun tink i'm up to that even ><
ya... another stable skater that u can grab if he's standin ard.... :X but sometimes, he'll juz fall if he stones too much
(ok.. since it's lidat.. i'll do an account for everyone? :X)

ok, then i guess the next one should be sh... who hold a think a record of "totally never successfully fell before".. hehe... seen around most of the time with yc and sometimes cm n cw... seen him ran (trippin n "runnin") but never really fell.. perhaps, he's the unfallable one :X

yc... she seems very enthu about reentering the rink everytime.. hehe.. but guess she's still scared of falling... more relianted on people to hold and so on.. but still quite alright i guess??

then cm... hmmm, he's always falling on that same spot (tink it's jinxed) and fell twice, once really very painful. he has many theories when it comes to ice skatin tho.. haha :p

then... jeff.. the poor fellow who ended up gettin blisters and also having trouble braking... not that stable but still learn at quite a managable pace :) interestin to see him skate... but too bad he left earli.. with blisters :x hope his gf wun do anythin to him abt the blisters :X

sf, was scared at 1st, but I thought her progess is quite good too~ but I don't dare to really hold her hands to skate.. scared I pull her down :X anywayz, she substained blue blacks to both her knees.. and eventually had to retreat becuz one knee was swollen

cw.. and ALWays falling on his butt haha.. :X it's interestin to see him skate.. though at times worryin :p

as fer me... ha... i'm not good lar.. aside from skatin at not a veri fast pace... and knowin how to do the inverted V brake.. everythin else i can't do.. can't turn.. can't spin... fell down quite alot of times... either i'm doing something stupid... or juz fell.. for no good reason... then.. leg cramp like one after the other.. very bad~ (thanks for the concern guys... and to jh.. sorry.. din noe it's contagious :X)

we skated like 4long hours... the longest session i've ever been to.. but i really tot that figure skatin is cool (i noe i dun reallie hav a figure.. but.... ) ya, then see all the very pro kids very envy.. one of them (veri small sized) but very cute.. then the rest very pro.. they can dance and play games on the ice.. -_- *inferiority complex sets in*

oh ya, then got some ppl on the ice skatin ring.. 1stly got tis couple at the veri beginning wearin hockey skates.. erm.. though pro, the guy especially jeoperdized safty of learners... makin a fool out of themselves and AA... then later got another guy come in... well, he goes quite fast but still alrite.. and accordin to sf, he actually helped the kids and is not those dao type.. haa.. ok

the person who allocated the skates to us also joined in the skatin later... always signallin us to continue skatin, hav fun and not to be afraid of fallin etc etc.. he's very nice actually, if only he can talk... cuz hand signs are not always understandable...

ya... was in a sense quite reluctant to leave... but was super duper hungry (din reallie eat lunch) so went to delifrance to eat~ had *beep* :X wun say.. cuz it's a prohibited food for me... :X k lar.. it's potato gratin.. end up jh, sf, cw n me all eatin the same stuff.. haha...
and our table includin &dru is all eatin kentang! :X

after eatin and long chats.. cm, sh, yc and cw left...
we headed to the arcade.. played bishi bashi... sf's reallie the champ.. can't beat her.. ok.. my reflex sux... my brain lags severely...
then &dru left for his church service... leavin the 3 of us.. so i anyhow rid myself off the extra token and went to play an hour of pool wif jh... well, i definately not as pro as him... and i most of the time is dai ko one... :X and the striped balls are jinxed... (alot of times.. our game ended prematurely with the black 8 gettin shot in.. :X )

yup~ fun fun day~~ :D let's have more outings~! muahaha... tink i can juz sit at home immobile tml.. shld get a bad muscleache.. and i substained a blue black too... :\

sucker @ fps games

fps = first person shooting

it's not a new discovery actually... but felt like writing abt it after readin sf's blog... after the last hellish paper... went to shop ard @ PS wif her...

got hungry (i didn't finish my lunch.. guess i stil dun reallie like mee siam) and tired.. so snacked @ foodcourt.. then arrived at comics connection (i wanted to go in n take a peek).. end up stuck at the xbox machine outside the shop....

played some fps game.. that is supposed to be lan type one.. u noe.. like CS or Wolfenstien (suddenli i remembered i hav tis game.. :X)

ya.. but i reallie suck at tis kinda games. 1stly i can't aim... then i can't coordinate my movements (head n body).. and worse stil.. it's xbox.. i.e. consoled...

guess the onli thing i'm proud of is i'm good at finding things to pickup ><~

well, sf always miss the stuff on the floor... but her aiming's better... (though she cast herself off the cliff or architecture tons of times but well, u can always juz respawn :X)

the onli time we came to a draw is she shot me (i ran out of ammo) and i threw (out of desperation) a grenade at her.. both of us died.. :X nice huh :P
well, the best part is.. we're supposed to be on the same team... never realised that until she killed me for the 1st time.. XD

but anywayZ... i always tot tis kinda game r quite fun.. (if i can navigate.. or they let me camp?)
oh ya, the sniper's a damn good weapon.. but i also like those plasma weapons.. kewl!

owarimashita~!~!

yey?

ydae's paper's hell.. total hell... -_-

*looks fwd to tml*

one more!~! jUST ONE morE!~!!!

Me: I can't believe it!

Inner me: believe it...

:x oops.. sorry, my lameness caught up with me these few days (courtesy of Signals...) and I couldn't help feeling even more lame when I saw that lame lecturer of mine. Thinking about his lame jokes I just can't help grinning XD

lame jokes aside and signals aside!

comes lunch time.. a very enjoyable lunch time really! It's been soooo long when everyone sit together and have lunch together! As our timetables become more and more different, it's really hard to have lunch together (erm, not forgetting someone who doesn't even appear for lectures :X) Mebbe jeff's right, I'm touched.

Inner me: just got a sore eye....

*ahem* ya... had a fun lunch, discussed many fun matters (occasional gory matters aside *ewww*) and cw actually asked if there's any outing! Wahahaa... i'm suprised really! Anyway, gonna have one on 5th of May! :X hope I don't fall... hee...

Inner me: ice skating... sure fall.

yup, then &dru's tokin abt setting up a chateh club? jeff's surely 100% approve of it! How come their batch they play chateh.. yet I never heard of any guys from my batch or junior batch toking about chateh before? Or issit just their batch exclusively? o.O Erm, guys? any ans?

Then jh says to set a fishing club XD he sure luvs fishes.. hee... ya, and of cuz the ideas are like soooo big.. hahaa.. and u just can't stop!

Explored lotsa holiday possibilities like going to visit cw in penang (which jh insisted that he lives on the mountain when cw says it's nearby) and yadda yadda~ hehe... guess should hav some more plans soon~!! plaY~!!~!

inner me: EE2012.... on tues

okok.. me should go bath and back to studies! one more to go!~!

bloggin dead?

haiz... ever since i move here (to blogspot)
like no one's readin my blog..

mebbe the blogging fad died down... and no one reallie stil goes ard readin blogs (esp when ey're so "far away" from opendiary huh?)

Or i juz hav a bunch of quiet audience... or simply my life is so boring that no one has anythin to comment abt it...

Zzz

anyway, bad weather... makes me feel drowsy 24 hrs.... how to study like this?

what really hurts...

tore my skin accidentally while bathing... bled again (as usual...) and of cuz.. my skin would sting under the water... feels like thousands of needles pricking or a knife jabbing in...

very pain? i'm used to it actually... (somehow.. having the soap on the skin still feels better than running it under water -_-)

well, no matter what... external pain is always more tahanable than internal pain (of all kinds)....

why...

brain weighs a kg... heart sank to my stomach... mouth is seal shut

dun feel like opening my mouth to even tok anymore...

my stomach feels weird.... my heart's not at it's usual position.. and my brain feels as if someone left weights on it...

can't wait for holz to come...

really really can't wait...
study until pek cek... *sobz*

It's such a torture to hafta coop urself up at home staring at notes every single day... think I finally agree that chang2 tong4 bu4 ru2 duan3 tong4...... i'm going nuts le... the only time now i open my mouth is when I tok to my mom (most of the time is her...) else i'm singing...

all my frens too busy to tok lidat... perhaps they're reallie reallie muggin off... which i have failed to do... have i really given up?

totemo ureshii!!!~!!!

so happY!~~! Gundam Seed Destiny OST 2 is finally out and I got it! :D *grinZ like mad*
Got all the songs I want! Really nothing to ask for liao (well for now that is.. :X)

I also found the song Ride On Time which is the theme for the jap show (quite interestin show though i have no particular interest in that Kimura ta.. (sorry forgot his name..) the male lead actor lar..

hehe~ yey~ GSD OST II!!! Stellar's image song!!! then that very nice piano piece!! :D

*jumps for joy*

Suffocated...

no one is coming after my life for sure...

dunno why... recently keep feeling veri suffocated...
mebbe it's juz stress...

juz feel like screaming my lung's out...
i guess jh said that when u sit roller coaster or such stuff muz scream, else will feel veri uncomfy... so i'll note that.. n i'll scream in future if i do take such rides

mebbe not..

not my last post before exams that is...

can't agree more with xq... it's hard not to type anything when there's loads of stuff on the mind...

so here i go again.. on my senseless grumblings *tries to shoo the fly off the screen as the screen is the only light source ard my living room now*

hate the weather recently.. a moment hot a moment cold.. i rather it keep staying cold.. hmm weird rite? i'm so afraid of coldness yet i wan it to be cold.. ya.. but that's the way i am...

lessons are finally over... i'm quite glad... cuz tis sem's been busy and i can't wait to get a break... n of cuz, being the last week of school sure got quite abit of stuff happened...

not gonna name them tho.. too bad Xp

the thought of exams no longer stir anything in me.. not that i'm prepared.. hell i'm totally not.. ya but.. i'm juz so numb to it... or mebbe i'm juz stressed till saturation point that my brain goes into denial mode... tink i'll be those 1st few to die once i step into society... cuz i've totally lost my fighting spirit... probably i'll be better off as a hermit somewhere...

crapz... k.. continue wif my usual 'stare at the notes n stone' routine...

oh ya, Seed destiny got new opening n ending songs... i dunno what they're tryin to hint viewers.. but i find it quite disturbin.. (mainly becuz it seems like my fav pairing, AsuCaga.. seems abit.. ok not abit... but rather shaky) and i reallie hope they dun go off killing those ppl who survived Seed (1st series) enuff has died...

and i can't wait for the 2nd seed destiny OST to be out!

possibly the last entry until exams

ya... possibly the last entry til my exams start.... the countdown is making me all stressed up n helpless <<---- i.e. i'm feeling so helpless i can't do anything.. ><

hmmm..

yesterday helped Jsim celebrated his burfday.. the celebration is belated tho... and it kinda struck me that we barely celebrated it for him on the actual day in these years... er.. rite? that's what's registered in my memory.. but my memory's kinda faulty these days.. shucks

when i was abt to write in his card... it juz struck me that i've stopped crappin for so long that i dunno what to write.. reallie clueless... ya.. so guess the whole chunk of stuff i wrote may be quite incoherent (esp at the front) cuz i'm juz writin watever that hits my mind.... (while some actuallie hit n slipped my mind immediately before i even pen it down.. :\)

as for the rest of the stuff tt happen at ding tai fung.. juz go see my fotoblog lar.. lazy to repeat :X

end up we went js's house to rot... ok lar.. i din rot.. the rest did.. haa.. well, i guess that could be the very last time i visit that house of his (cuz he'll be moving)... and i can't imagine that his new room is gonna be smaller (it's small as it is.. for 2 ppl)

hmm.. then as js is tryin to connect to dota for erik.. i was listen to auntie n lj tokin abt marriage stuff as they flip the bride magazine (smthin lydat)... tk chipped in his tot's too.. quite interestin too... but i reallie wonder, will ppl in future change their wedding style?

erm.. ok.. out of the topic.. but anyway.. reallie luv lazin ard wif frens even if there's nuttin to do...

i'm lookin forward for a fun filled holz! (but my exam's not near over at all -_-)

i wan more fotos pls! :X

hmmm, was looking at the fotos i took and realised that the no. of pics i took are declining...

i.e. i'm beginning to underuse my cam! cannoT! muz take more pictures!!

I always felt that since I have a digicam, I should bring it along with me so I can take whatever I wan whenever I can or feel like it. But, one more digicam means one more gadget to look after... -_- and i dun feel like doing that cuz now i already got one xtra stuff to take care off.. the tungstun T... k.. i noe it's old(probably no one wans it anyway)... still i dun like the idea of losing it.

still... will try to take as much fotos as i can now.. and videos too! they're fun to watch :D

actually wanted to type something else.. but when i reach here i found out that i could no longer type it out into words... haiz.. so end up i crapped abt other stuff... paiseh

food for tot: does being polite creates a barrier??? Chinese always say li3 duo1 ren2 bu4 guai4.. which is true.. but they never mention the side effects? what u guys think?

alternate dimensions

if there are alternate dimensions to our world... what do you think you'll be like in other dimensions?

Sometimes, can't help feeling that dreams seems to show you what you may be in another dimension... the world seems the same but yet it's not... the people around you are the same yet, do not behave like themselves in reality... even you is different...

how true...

a senior of mine fwded this... found it very true.. for me at least.

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"Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realising that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realising that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

What you don't recognise is that they are realising that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job, and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realising that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realise that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realise that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself, and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realise is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

april fools'! "erm... ur _____ got a hole..."

april fool day trick courtesy of my mom. :X
Well, the tricked worked well on my friends though it didn't seem to work on me.. haa.. think my mom's just bad at lying.

Victims this year(in order w.r.t time the joke is cracked):
- omy
- ndru
- sally
- audrey??? (erm, not sure if she caught the joke actually)
- yvonne (is sally who cracked the joke... but it's my.. i mean my mom's joke.. haha)

arhz lame.

oh well... forgot to mention some funny stuff that happened these few days...
yesterday: ndru's hotdog bounced out of the bun when ndru opened the box... :X ya.. wasted... the whole hotdog...
and since then... SY's saying that he's clumsy... haa (and even more so after he tried opening a bottle of badly shaked coke)

and well, I tink i can understand why KF says SY's a cok'ster (he really can crap.. and is damn funny... XD )

woW, the world is spinning

yup.. of cuz it's spinning XD

aiyah, was having a super duper bad runny nose today... wasn't as bad, but the coldness in LT6 made it much worse. Sneezed non stop too... hope I never pass any germs to anyone... X|

cold means block nose, block ears and headache...
so the rest of the day for me is really bad.. especially during Jap tutorial... can't even think straight.

Hmmmm... a fren (decide nt to mention who... dunno why.. dun feel like saying names... tink my brain's still not thinkin well) mentioned about possibly mite change course as that course is much more pragmatic. Of cuz, this kinda news is or often received wif a loud "huh"... esp when u're alreadi like halfway thru the current one... will definately use up even more time and so on....

as a fren i'll still support the idea... though i always still think it's better to follow one's interests... budden again, perhaps in this world.. interests dun worth a cent...

follow what you believe in, spread your wing and fly~

more organised, no?

hmmmm, my sis passed me her super duper underused Tungstun T (that I think is about to be obsolete) and I feel like i've became a whole lot more organised...

well, but still... I can't really keep to the schedule i set T_T

saddening.. it's only like 24-23 days away, and i'm still not serious enough. how?

worse still, i have tests all the way til school close... and a presentation for the project to be due...

got a bad feeling i won't get to study until the study week starts.. CHOY!

k... shld not waste time here n go study~

casualty prone..

been kinda casualty prone lately...

keep ramming my arm or elbow into hard objects as i walk... losin balance on the bus n hit the wall :S (well, in this case is the bus uncle's fault.. lousy driver.. :\)
hurting my toe... (cuz i accidentally kicked sf's sandles... veri hard wor.. issit made of diamond? o.O) and many other other stuff lar...

is it because i'm mentally exhausteD? *shrugs*

anyway, finally cannot wait for chuang yi's version of fruit basket 16 to come out.. so went to buy the taiwan one which cost abt a dollar more...

cried as i read... tears juz keep flowing like the tap never close lidat... it's definately something rare for me...
a good thing i decided to go home n read the rest of it after finishing my ice kacang (weather too hot.. so juz went to the kopitiam to eat b4 going home..)
else it wld be terrible to cry in public bah =_=

as for what happen in the chapter... eh... it's juz about the main character's parents... how her mom who used to be a gang member, met a teacher(erm.. temp teacher), how he changed her n they got married... got child... en he died.. blah blah... nothing thaT fresh to the plot... but somehow.. dunno why... :S

anyway, i definately felt much better after reading.. heh

looked back, looked front...

finally the report for EG1415 is over. Well, this doesn't mean the end of EG1415... but at least for now... it's no longer at the top priority...

think my eyes are really sick of looking at computer screen... it's threatening to close while i was feeling quite fine awhile ago... :(

everyone's working very hard.... losing their sleep and all these...

though it may be amusing to see frens falling asleep during lecture... deep down i felt pretty sad... to have to fight to keep awake during lectures is a dreadful thing... yet you can't sleep well, then you still have to find extra time to catch up... both on schoolwork n slptime

life isn't easy... even though studying can be fun... it's still quite torturing...
why muz we study till like this? study until we can't sleep peacefully, can't have proper meals... slog so hard in the end... we (at least for me...) dun gain thaT much afterall....

i can't see the worth of puttin in that kind of effort.. probably why i'm lacking motivation...

so busy... time so little.. i always find semesters in NUS short... perhaps aside from the very first sem... the rest has been very short.. n gettin shorter still... terrible reallie... though i hate slow paced life... it's kinda getting too fast for me... sooo fast until i can't even see what i'm doing... holidays is a relief perhaps... but it's different from going to school.. i like going to school, see all your frens.. but.. i guess that's all to it le..

oh ya.. another thing i wanna add... i never knew, having to eat lunch on your own is such a lonely thing to do... esp in the canteen... therefore.. i rather not eat (a proper meal that is)

haiz... everyone jiayou! it's like 29 days to exams...

big bad writers block

had to be today.. damn dreadful, to hafta write a report wif writers block... everything becomes incoherent... and i juz can't think of a full sentence ><~

got so many things to type here.. but i juz can't type anymore.. ARGH
reallie a torture.. plus i'm so sleepy now..

hope i wun get back last nite's dream... it's not a nightmare.. but stil kinda a nightmare to me... budden.... again, that's closer to the reality (minus the amt of ppl queueing for train... and even sightings of floating objects)

finally, i can breathe abit!

it's amazing how much a test with 10% weightage can stress ppl so much.. ok, 10% isn't that little.. but.. it's less than the usual 20%... :X

guess it's the cereal i had tis morning.. darn sweet... wif darn sweet soyabean milk... ya.. so even though i only sleep around 4-5 hrs last nite.. and previous nights too... i felt rather hyper. :X

well, that's good... :P i'm currently in NUS still.. waitin for mi frens to finish their lab. It was Sally's 21st burfday ydae... so she holdin bbq to celebrate today. quite alot of ppl going wor.. so i hope it'll be fun! it's been a long while since the previous bbq... but well, some peeps not going :(

oh ya.. it's at west coast... sheesh.. dunno how i'm gonna get home later ><~

hmmm.. bot her a "burberry" wallet (sorry, but i'm no rich person) wif a customised acrylic keychain.. quite nice i tink.. on top of it got a card (end up let everyone sign cuz it's kinda big... well, &dru's 'fault'.. i ask him buy one.. sharin the cost of the prez wif him...) ah, but i always think, the most cruicial thing is to get a card... i'm happier reading cards then juz gettin the prez alone... buT! that doesn't mean no prezzie will do hoR :X effort efforT!

oops.. erm... geez... *rots*

next week, project due! DUE!!! so this whole weekend no doubt is eg1415.. and ee2009 since i got the test comin up! siao le.. another mad week to come.. lucky presentation not yet..... @.@

talkin abt eg1415... dunno why... one of my teammates-junjie.. nowadays look more cheerful.. that time 1st time he join our grp.. he like veri glum n gloomy... like wanna scold ppl :X
well, guess he's juz tired from his other proj

haiz.... sat muz catch back loads of sleep... en muz do all the catchin up for hmwk n so on.... it'll be lidat all the way till end of april (exAmS! ><~)

die.

anyway, congrats to jsim, ORDin tml rite? :P

*needs to be cut off from the computer*

i just can't concentrate on whatever i'm doing with a computer infront of me *sobz*

the bad thing is, there's so many things to be done thru the comp..
shucks

:S

oh ya, wanted to tok abt the dream i had last nite... it's another hantu related dream o.O
and i'm stuck there wif loads of ppl... some are my frens.. then abt half of the ppl there are actuallie hantus but disguised as humans, but still got alot of ppl lar.. haa +_+
er... it's @ tis super big mansion i guess... @ first i tot it's a school... cuz i remember got library.. but... towards the end of the dream, none of it looks like a school anyway... :S but it's kinda ole.. u noe.. like hogwarts? but it's definately not like a school.. 'cept the library.. :x oh ya.. the lib kinda reminds me of aj's lib... ><

erm anyway.. i can't exactly remember what happened at the front part.. but i definately didn't knew abt existence of hantus then... saw one kid juggling veri well in the lib.... ya.. juggling... i guess andrew's juggling club matters kinda rubbed into my brain.. :X and the thought of me going to jio that kid to join juggling crossed my mind.. diaoz... yeah.. en i remember i saw yvonne in the dream... tink juz chat awhile then left liao.. dunno what i was doing also, waitin here waitin there... waiting for someone?

ya.. then dunno when then become nite time? then what i remember is i wanna make my way to the canteen or dining hall... budden the main pathways are not lighted up... then someone who tried going say the way is blocked?! things started getting weird... and the crowd of us who wanted to go there started takin weird paths.. sneak thru giant holes along the wall.. along the ceiling.. (tink even the lift isn't working...) but there's lights coming out from some room? (supposely even haunted) @@

dunno lar... then suddenli while making our way thru the corridoor of smwhere... then everyone started running.. away from what u noe.. actuallie.. those hantus mingled within us... n we hafta keep siaming them... dunno why i was holding something that seems to show their true identity when i hold it close to their faces.. haa.. so i started testin it on everyone near me.. cuz i dunno all the ppl ard me.. can't trust anyone :S erm... ya.. scrambled our way out.. wif many screams along the way... then came to one room at the end.. erm.. like no where else to run.. n somehow, cannot get out of that place also bah..

then got this old man... er, dunno who... told us to go look for the "wand" like stuff to keep the hantus in ctrl, supposely these hantus r released due to a broken seal.. so muz go destroy them or smthin lidat...

so end up i become ghost buster liao... -_-
there's some crap logic behind gettin the wands but i shant explain further.. cuz it's reallie silly.. :s

juz wanna whine n complain abit

can ignore tis post if u wan...

i'm soooooooooooooooooo tired.......
juz let me sleep forever!

damn busy... but i stil feel like writing :X

i muz be courting death lar... coming to write here at tis kinda time...
but, juz feel like writing.

hmmmm... dunno how to reallie put things.. but i did learn that weird news spreads -_- esp, after yvonne asked me that farnie question.... well... to me it's pretty an insignificant event... mebbe juz my bluntness @ work.. i'm supposed to be someone who talk w/o using my brains anyway (and i still do... not use my brains.. :X)
come to think of it, glad nuttin went wrong.. teehee

erm... ya... so much for shooting off my mouth... guess i gave a tad too much comment today... invited lotsa unwelcomed reaction towards me.. well, it's nuttin that bad.. but juz smthin i dun reallie like... hope they'll get tired n leave me in peace... not as if anything will happen.. dotx

~owari~

my mind probably works this way...

"like a mouse running in a wheel... quickly starts running over things in the mind over and over like a mouse running endlessly in the wheel"

mind over heart

hmmm... hidden entry... :P

i'm findin my actions damn contradicting... i've become rather conscious... n like hafta act here n there every now and then.... erm... not acting in the sense of being a hypocrite la.... it's not something bad.. doesn't affect any ppl except myself...

my problem: my mind wans me to act that way... but i actualli dislike it... i hate it infact... but my mind will reason somehow.. n ofcuz mind is stronger than the heart (scientifically, that's where it commands ur body!) ya.. shucks... haiz... reallie at a loss... dunno wat to do....

every action u do, will result in sorta a ripple effect back... or reflection or feedback watever way u wanna put it...
I dunno if what i'm receiving now is a feedback due to my current action or has totally no link... not that happi wif it... erm... it's not the worse... tho i think my mind has prepared for the worse but i reallie dun wan it! AHHHHHH~!
well, i juz hope if in any case, if what i'm receiving now is a feedback due to my "acting"... i hope it's juz a "pei4 he2" show... erM.... i.e. it's a understood action... aiyah.. sian

wat to do..? wat to dO???? ><

argh, all the mid term tests coming... n i'm lagging for all my mods... even jap... and veri veri lag for 2012...

reallie contemplating abt s/uing jap.. not that i tink i wun score for that.. but i'm worried that my other core modules will die... *touchwood*

how? tho i reallie dun wanna s/u.. now so many things falling on me.. projects, tests n tons of undone tutorial = lotsa catch up.. n smmore in lecture i alreadi lost the lecturers (be it they're good lecturers or not..)

the whole sem still like veri hazy now.. dunno wat to do.. shld i s/u?? shld i shld i?

*faintx*

dream dream dream

was reading my notes on the bed (bad idea!) and i fell asleep (expected.. :\)

it's a weird dream, a dream where i'm the only one talking. the person beside me (shan't name.. n i hope i din get the wrong person :S) didn't even say one word... juz keep standing beside me.. accompany me all the way.. but never muttered a word...
come to think of it now, it's kinda creepy huh....

i got a weird feeling abt that too in the dream.. but tok more or less the person doesn't seem to speak (after all my futile efforts at throwing questions..)

oh ya, then i keep spotting this particular pattern of clock.. it's counted as a new design i supposed.. quite trendy..
erm.. and that design's used on telephone (wif clocks) also -_-

well, at least i never dream of things like the whole world turning into vampires or so on :X

the BaT experimenT :X

hmmm... went back to NUS today for Eg1415 project.
progress wise still alright i guess.. though the project's reallie gonna challenge my crapping skills n english TT__TT

well, i guess the funniest thing of the day is that Sy actuallie brought up about one of the design experiments for physics for A-lvls... which i did before as a mock paper if my memory serves me well enough...
it's to do wif testing the sound of the bat or measuring the soundwave that the bat emits... smthing lidat lar.. :X

the funniest thing is the ways people would go about designing the procedure to do this experiment... all sorts of things like whacking the poor bat.. or even electrocuting it.. then whack it harder or increase the voltage across?? hee.. reallie, it's a good laff. i remember my teacher told me about the funny ways people go about this expt too.. it's reallie hilarious! XD

alrite.. now the more i think of it the more i feel like laffing... *runs off to laff*

How to "kill" blog readers [crap entry, dun read if you dun wanna get "killed"]

it is very easy to kill readers off when they read your blog as you can subject them to torture by putting in important information that will arouse their curiosity yet force them to read it in the most unreadable manner so as you're reading this i'm letting you experience how bad it can get by subjecting you through hell itself for a short while tho the first way is ofcuz not to put any punctuation as you will just send readers into a sea of agony having to figure out your sentence structure next you cannot use any paragraphing which will force your readers to digest the whole large chunk of words in one shot and ofcuz no punctuation definately makes it ten times worse three you can use an incredibly illegible font that might be so cursive beyond recognition or a font so small that requires ten times zoom to even make out a word and lastly use a super duper bright colour that blinds readers or simply blend into the background there is no need to resort to violence if you want to stop people from reading your blog

:)

happiE v-day/friendship-day/lecturer's day?!

if u're wondering why i add the lecturer's day.. cuz something interesting happened during my EE2010 lecture..
someone actualli gave flowers to my lecturer.. haa.. and the row of guys behind me started wolf whistling.. hee.. it's reallie interesting, cuz it's the 1st time i see ppl give flowers to lecturers.

the whole lecture grp was generally amused

hmmm... i almost reach the LT late today.. cuz was dloadin songs (gundam seed one.. wat else :P) and was reluctant to stop.. :X
well, to my surprise, sf n ndru was alreadi there n ndru's busy making balloon flowers. end up he cldn't conc on the lecture so that he cld finish making a flower for all the girls (he knew) in the LT. haa.. so poor thing... :X

and audrey gave me a slice of the brownie she baked! hee.. she's so good at cookies n brownies.. :P someone sure got a jing4 de2 liao3 kitchen de4 gf :X

omy also gav me 2 chocolate kisses after tat! nice :9~

other than that, as sf described, u suddenli see alot more chiobus ard in engin... i commented that probably come find bf one.. and she gav that kind of look.. haa! oops.. hope no engin guys readin this.. dun come find me :X

ya.. then i tink when we're going for our lab.. the school's like empty again... juz like cNY eve!! believe it or not man.. haa... reallie exaggeratin

yup... spent the rest of the days in the lab.. wif chinmay n shenghwee poppin over now and then... i donated some of my wires to shenghwee.. :P hope i got enuff left.. cuz some of my frens say cannot ask for more :(
then i borrowed his wire cutter.. cuz i din bring... :
my breadboard looks disgusting.. guess nxt time muz plan better before wiring... but tis time i tink can heck it lar.. haha

HapPie CNY!

hmmm.. tink my CNY celebration finally came to an end? (seems so for now...)
was darn busy going all o'ver the place since chu1 er2...

1st day of CNY again, my relatives came.. nothing new. Everyone aside from the kids growin up reel quick n the boys all overshootin my height.. nuttin that new either :p

2nd day, went to m'sia and i finally can offer incense to my grandma after sooo long... my mom stil haven't gotten over it.. well, it's hard i guess when u go there n u dun see the person u see always...n yup... again, sat there n watch tv.. nuttin new.. juz less my grandma.. haiz.. missed her too

3rd day, went to school in the morninG (got lecture leh.. n tutorial too) and i'm soooo shocked to see jeff.. cuz even andrew din come... :X:X and jinghow too! ahaha.. wat's the world comin to? then at evenin.. went to zhuofeng's hse wif merina, chui har, chris n sally... erm, christina got lect til 6.. so sally pei her n both of them were late.. :\ so the 3 of us sat at the couch watching kung fu hustle.. which jsim called (askin me when i'll go over to Erik's hse for stayover) and sayz i'm mad... -_- well, at least i caught back wat i missed at the theatres :P
after chris n sally came.. we started playin heart attack.. (i always got it. hehe.. ) then eat some dishes zf's mom cooked... it's veri fun to see zf's parents n chris all tokin in cantonese.. and i'm pretty happy that i understand quite abit of their conversation :D
zf's parents are like veri nice.. hee.. n did i mention that zf's sec sch frens where there too? ya.. after the long dinner (consisting more of conversations) went to can1 guan1 zf's room.. he showed us the whole album of fotos he took wif his gf... (n i was tinkin he dun even nid to take jie2 hun1 fotos alreadi)
then after that they played blackjack while i watched.. :P

[fotos will be up in fotopages]

yup.. arnd 2230 we left n i headed for Erik's hse... reach there at i tink 2300+ then watched lj, erik, js n edwin(erik's bro) play mj... lia rottin at the couch.. hahaa :X the game somehow ended n we watched Shutter.. some thai ghost film... quite creepy in the sense they used it to link it up wif foto takin n so on... ~_~||| erm... ya.. but ok lar.. cuz i'm so sleepy.. the effect isn't that bad... but i still dun reallie like recallin that show.. oh ya, then there's a part where erik's light fused at a climax scene... gave everyone a shock.. timing is good.. erm... hope it's juz pure coincidence... xie2 men2... :S
after that watched a world without thieves... erm.. boring.... but the endin is kinda sad. but overall show still boring.. lia wanna watch one n she fell asleep =_=... haiz.. so we started playin bridge till mornin after the show ended n left lia "snoring" off on the couch.. haha

----------- nxt day ----------------

ya morning then we woke up lia.. en juz dragged time.. poh ard.. took some silly fotos.. haa then went to hav breakfast.. and lia had to go cuz her dad's here.. haiz..
went home after breakfast.. bathed.. slept for a couple of hrs.. then supposely hafta go bowlin wif my parents.. but they had to help my sis queue for 4D n wasted one hr.. then reach amk then i found out (or sorta remembered) that the bowling alley's gone liao.. sadded...
haiz.. so rotted ard in amk lib... then i went off to audrey's hse..
went to j8 for awhile cuz i dunno who's at her hse.. dun wanna go play gooseberry.. but found out that i haf to.. but was darn glad that zhenwei's there alreadi. :X
ya.. then see them rip music... then played mj while the rest came (sihui, mingkwan) then change ppl... then after that mary n chuanyang came.. then juz keep rotatin ppl for mj while the rest of us feast on the junk food... (argh..growin faT! :( )
ya.. then juz watched them play mj, watch tv.. then when meiyee came.. we played big2 for awhile... then stopped (i still tink bridge more interestin :X but they dunno how to play :\)
then juz watch them play mj.. mingkwan losing it all n chuanyang winnin alot... (lucky i din play wif them..)
then went home at ard 2300 while some of them stil went to watch midnite show.. onz sia.. haha

nerd test

hee got tis fr ruijie's blog

me, master super computer n andrew! go to fotopages for morE! :P 

detestable, scary, annoying or juz plain weird?

dunno which word i should use to describe myself. Mebbe all of them, since it's quite hard to describe anyone wif juz one word. :X

well, i haven't been in the best of moods lately for sure.... my inner me is buggin me wif some irritating tots and i wish i can just shut it up... perhaps i shld reallie go for some selective memory washin so that my inner me will find nuttin to bug me wif n leave me alone in peace.... well, that kinda reminds me of a show, issit called "Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind" or smthing??? dunno, din watch it... but now i feel like watching it... i wonder how it feels like to hav memory erased... :x

perhaps, i can learn to seal some memories up myself.. psychologically.. puttin them into my subconciousness... hah.. if i so zai.. i wun be sitting here tokin rubbish liao.

haiz.. i reallie missed all the times in Year 1 sem 2...where ppl stil got time to sit dwn n crap.. i smhow feel distant away from my NUS frens liao (referring to those that i hang around most of the time wif.. cuz now i'm spendin more time wif other NUS frens.. complicatin? nah...) somehow.. i wonder... has the group like unoffically disbanded or smthin???

well, always hear ppl saying that the frens we make in uni are never as close as those make in jc or sec etc... was pretty upset abt it before i entered uni... but after that i tot i cld proof that theory wrong... but is there the possibility... i'm wrong myself? :(

i always seem to prefer things either going at a constant rate... or increasing, but never decrease...(doesn't apply to schoolwork :X)

fridaY~

sleepy friday... rushing fri... slacking fri :P

haiz... the 8am make up lect is reallie too much for me.. smmore it had to be EE2012... Zzzzzz
mebbe i shld juz give it a miss.. since i'm not listening.. :X

i tried my best to be attentive... tho i tink i failed terribly in the end due to my sleepiness.. but hey.. i tried my besT! :X
haiz... must go have a long meeting wif zhou gong then can... :(
talking abt meetings... well, end up the Eg1415 tutorial we still hafta attend everyone.. juz that no nid to present every single session... :( oh well, shldn't be greedy huh.. but lidat i tink will make meeting up for project harder... cuz my timetable is juz so damn pack.. :X i wan a pair of wings..

jap tutorial went pretty well today, fumbled a lil for the kaiwa... juz not used to ending things wif de gozaimasu instead of desu
as for listening quiz.. reallie veri easy :X

after school, got an urge to chiong dwn to orchard rd kino to see if got any nice jap books to buy n read.. but come to tink of it.. i no money.. no time... n i'm not zai enuff.. so scraped the tot and went home...

slacked until now.. sad.. tink i go try n do some tutorials

active here again!

dunno why, suddenli have the blogging mood nowadays.

I feel like using the lifejournal one... mebbe shld ask everyone from opendiary to go there.. it's not bad actuallie.. and can create committees. haa nm

guess i'll stick to here.. lazy go post all o'er the place

one month pass very fast, like dunno what happen and it's already over o_o

this sem timetable pretty pack, like not much time to go think of other things.. (but i still got think of other things.. which explains why my tutorials are always half done. :X)

ok.. found out i got too many stuff to attend to... so i'll juz leave this entry as it is..

well, found out abt some rather interesting stuffs today..

bikerfei.. :X haaa :X hope can know more.. they got my curiousity..

resign to fate..

it seems like i'm always land myself up in a position where i'm waiting or wishing for something impossible to happen... is my whole life juz gonna be like tis?

when you seem to have nothing to look foward to, even death seems welcoming for a min or so

resign to fate liao... smtimes, feel so sian of making decisions n so on... i juz wanna live, be happy if not try n act happy and then die...

i'll not hold on to anything that's impossible... well at least i'll try my very best not to.... also i wun pray for anything to happen liao cuz wat's meant not to happen i die a million times also wun happen...

i'll juz get on wif life... n witness other ppls' life... n juz disappear from the face of the earth someday in future... as for what happened after that, obviously no one lived to tell... :
the world, a beautiful yet ugly place... beautiful when i'm happy, ugly when i'm sad...

back to the past & chalet!

ok.. basically, my nephew's bdae chalet was quite alrite.. tho there's quite abit of dull moments here n there cuz there's no entertainment ard that interest me n i'm worried about school work (hell yeah..!) well, but i managed to go into the jackpot room :D but... jackpot is actualli boring n waste money... dun understand the machine.. i wonder if ey're juz out to cheat :X

played bowling until my fingers nearly died..... sorta found out the best condition for me to play wif.. but.. i still suck... then also played a lil mahjong but stopped when i realised that it's boring.... cuz my sister they always juz take alot of hua1s and juz anyhow hu2... sux

left that place.. onli stayed one nite which i tink is veri much enuff.. anyway, i stayed in Aranda... sux lar.. their place altho big.. but is dirty... n it's damn ex... rather stay in a hotel lo!

anyway, at the chalet, i was reallie worried for my schwk... suddenli got that feelin of worryin for my schwk.. which i guess i've lost it ever since i entered NUS... and i started dreamin of ppl n stuff i wld in the past... is tis good or bad?

but hope i'll be more kanjiong abt schoolwork n score better tis sem... i reallie dun wan a third deg honours.. :(

jap tutorials :&

for my TA and TB class, I've tio the 2 full time tutors. Kakiyama sensei to Okada sensei.

Well, full time tutors supposed to be better i supposed. But very stressful wor! especially Okada sensei's class... He'll make sure u can speak it at the end.. keep asking u for demostrations infront of the class. Makes you all jittery and tongue tied.

Demo sa, Okada sensei's always smiling, dunno to say if he's kind? or like the chinese saying, the smiling tiger =_=
His expectation veri high.. tink next time dun prepare for his tutorial will die an ugly sight... :x

i wonder who my TC tutor will be? Another full time tutor? Well, i'm left wif Otsuka sensei. I doubt the lecturer got teach any class.

something... lame? :X

let's see:
your name
do you smoke?	YesNoOccasionally
do you drink?	YesNoOccasionally
stronger drugs?	YesNoOccasionally
your favourite activity
you are	Lazy
you wish you were	Nostradamus
you hope	It's not too late
people think you are	A Lazy Dog
intelligent people though, think you are	>/font>Exceptional
but, really, you're just	A good hearted thing
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out of my mind...

guess i'm going nutx.. i keep coming here, yet everytime i came here i dunno what to type... :
school started, tis sem gives me a new feeling too... definately not like last sem, and i hope it's for the better :)

alumni co's gettin active again... tho i still got that kind of go there dunno wat to do feeling.. it's nice to spend some time catchin up wif frens.. supper time's the best.. :P but am i eatin too much? :S

i hope tis sem i wun be veri bz *hear voices sayin "Dream ON!"* :\ oh well, i've gotten used to the stress free holz.. reallie find it hard to settle down... tink muz use the method of peer pressure liao. haiz

tutorials gonna start nxt week, reallie gonna get a taste of the hectic lifestyle... muz reallie jiayouZ! mebbe tis sem i can slim down abit.. haha.. not that much time to eat lunch liao.. :X

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argh... feeling downright sianz... dunno issit becuz i'm sick or what... haiz... super sianz.. my mind's in a whirl... keep thinkin of things which i told myself to stop thinkin of... tinkin abt depressing thoughts n start to doubt my existence again...

i dun even hav the mood to go practice my hiragana now... juz wish that i can drop dead immediately...

smtimes i tink i very lan4 lar... live w/o motivation lidat.. no plans for the future.. dunno what i wan.. then i tink i've become veri weak too.. mentally n physically... suddenli tink that i'm not independent enuff.. sianz

come to tink of it.. it's juz become i'm not feelin well thats why.. haiz.. hope my runny yet blocked nose will clear n my cough cum sorethroat may go off..

super sianz...

flashbacks... n a sudden feeling...

was packing the scores for the rabobank concert for alumni today.. dunno why.. suddenli remembered the ole times when i was still back in ajco, back in aj... then i realised i missed my frens alot (ok.. it's weird becuz i juz saw them recently... but.. perhaps it's the feeling back then bah...)

going back to ajco as an alumni is a totally different feeling.. i never reallie knew what the current batch of jnrs tink abt us... is like lotsa missing links btwn us.. haa.. u can call it dai4 gou1 if u wan... dunno lar.. then i dun like to entertain the thought that once i show up i gotta keep showing up (cuz i believe in consistency in attendence.. so dun go means dun go.. once u go u must keep going..) so till now, til today, i refused to go back... and besides, i bet they haven't fix the poor sheng... tis time i can't help them fix.. definately no.. ha.. sianz.. can't they take care of the instrument better? my poor sheng1... *sobz*

hmmm.. lectures gonna start soon! feel kinda excited actualli. but hav a bit of dreadful feelin cuz i haven't pack anything. everything from last sem is still there n i dun feel like touchin them abit.. :X better get down to packing soon...
i reallie wonder how next sem will be like?? i finally got my jap module!! wanna thank all those ppl who listened to me complainin abt my worries n so on.. haha thankiew! I GOT IT!!! YEYEYEYEY!!! *prance ard*
each semester gav me a different feeling.. i wonder how the nxt one will be like? it's like in nus tho every sem is in a sense rather repetitive... i tink it's more ever changing compare to studies in the past... haa.. every sem different subject... sometimes, i was wonderin if tis constant need to adapt to stuff is reallie not for me n i'd prefer a routined life? haa.. i got a weak heart mebbe.. can't take changes that well smtimes.. :S

ahhhhhh~~!!! i'm growing up!!! noooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :X