one more!~! jUST ONE morE!~!!!

Me: I can't believe it!

Inner me: believe it...

:x oops.. sorry, my lameness caught up with me these few days (courtesy of Signals...) and I couldn't help feeling even more lame when I saw that lame lecturer of mine. Thinking about his lame jokes I just can't help grinning XD

lame jokes aside and signals aside!

comes lunch time.. a very enjoyable lunch time really! It's been soooo long when everyone sit together and have lunch together! As our timetables become more and more different, it's really hard to have lunch together (erm, not forgetting someone who doesn't even appear for lectures :X) Mebbe jeff's right, I'm touched.

Inner me: just got a sore eye....

*ahem* ya... had a fun lunch, discussed many fun matters (occasional gory matters aside *ewww*) and cw actually asked if there's any outing! Wahahaa... i'm suprised really! Anyway, gonna have one on 5th of May! :X hope I don't fall... hee...

Inner me: ice skating... sure fall.

yup, then &dru's tokin abt setting up a chateh club? jeff's surely 100% approve of it! How come their batch they play chateh.. yet I never heard of any guys from my batch or junior batch toking about chateh before? Or issit just their batch exclusively? o.O Erm, guys? any ans?

Then jh says to set a fishing club XD he sure luvs fishes.. hee... ya, and of cuz the ideas are like soooo big.. hahaa.. and u just can't stop!

Explored lotsa holiday possibilities like going to visit cw in penang (which jh insisted that he lives on the mountain when cw says it's nearby) and yadda yadda~ hehe... guess should hav some more plans soon~!! plaY~!!~!

inner me: EE2012.... on tues

okok.. me should go bath and back to studies! one more to go!~!

bloggin dead?

haiz... ever since i move here (to blogspot)
like no one's readin my blog..

mebbe the blogging fad died down... and no one reallie stil goes ard readin blogs (esp when ey're so "far away" from opendiary huh?)

Or i juz hav a bunch of quiet audience... or simply my life is so boring that no one has anythin to comment abt it...

Zzz

anyway, bad weather... makes me feel drowsy 24 hrs.... how to study like this?

what really hurts...

tore my skin accidentally while bathing... bled again (as usual...) and of cuz.. my skin would sting under the water... feels like thousands of needles pricking or a knife jabbing in...

very pain? i'm used to it actually... (somehow.. having the soap on the skin still feels better than running it under water -_-)

well, no matter what... external pain is always more tahanable than internal pain (of all kinds)....

why...

brain weighs a kg... heart sank to my stomach... mouth is seal shut

dun feel like opening my mouth to even tok anymore...

my stomach feels weird.... my heart's not at it's usual position.. and my brain feels as if someone left weights on it...

can't wait for holz to come...

really really can't wait...
study until pek cek... *sobz*

It's such a torture to hafta coop urself up at home staring at notes every single day... think I finally agree that chang2 tong4 bu4 ru2 duan3 tong4...... i'm going nuts le... the only time now i open my mouth is when I tok to my mom (most of the time is her...) else i'm singing...

all my frens too busy to tok lidat... perhaps they're reallie reallie muggin off... which i have failed to do... have i really given up?

totemo ureshii!!!~!!!

so happY!~~! Gundam Seed Destiny OST 2 is finally out and I got it! :D *grinZ like mad*
Got all the songs I want! Really nothing to ask for liao (well for now that is.. :X)

I also found the song Ride On Time which is the theme for the jap show (quite interestin show though i have no particular interest in that Kimura ta.. (sorry forgot his name..) the male lead actor lar..

hehe~ yey~ GSD OST II!!! Stellar's image song!!! then that very nice piano piece!! :D

*jumps for joy*

Suffocated...

no one is coming after my life for sure...

dunno why... recently keep feeling veri suffocated...
mebbe it's juz stress...

juz feel like screaming my lung's out...
i guess jh said that when u sit roller coaster or such stuff muz scream, else will feel veri uncomfy... so i'll note that.. n i'll scream in future if i do take such rides

mebbe not..

not my last post before exams that is...

can't agree more with xq... it's hard not to type anything when there's loads of stuff on the mind...

so here i go again.. on my senseless grumblings *tries to shoo the fly off the screen as the screen is the only light source ard my living room now*

hate the weather recently.. a moment hot a moment cold.. i rather it keep staying cold.. hmm weird rite? i'm so afraid of coldness yet i wan it to be cold.. ya.. but that's the way i am...

lessons are finally over... i'm quite glad... cuz tis sem's been busy and i can't wait to get a break... n of cuz, being the last week of school sure got quite abit of stuff happened...

not gonna name them tho.. too bad Xp

the thought of exams no longer stir anything in me.. not that i'm prepared.. hell i'm totally not.. ya but.. i'm juz so numb to it... or mebbe i'm juz stressed till saturation point that my brain goes into denial mode... tink i'll be those 1st few to die once i step into society... cuz i've totally lost my fighting spirit... probably i'll be better off as a hermit somewhere...

crapz... k.. continue wif my usual 'stare at the notes n stone' routine...

oh ya, Seed destiny got new opening n ending songs... i dunno what they're tryin to hint viewers.. but i find it quite disturbin.. (mainly becuz it seems like my fav pairing, AsuCaga.. seems abit.. ok not abit... but rather shaky) and i reallie hope they dun go off killing those ppl who survived Seed (1st series) enuff has died...

and i can't wait for the 2nd seed destiny OST to be out!

possibly the last entry until exams

ya... possibly the last entry til my exams start.... the countdown is making me all stressed up n helpless <<---- i.e. i'm feeling so helpless i can't do anything.. ><

hmmm..

yesterday helped Jsim celebrated his burfday.. the celebration is belated tho... and it kinda struck me that we barely celebrated it for him on the actual day in these years... er.. rite? that's what's registered in my memory.. but my memory's kinda faulty these days.. shucks

when i was abt to write in his card... it juz struck me that i've stopped crappin for so long that i dunno what to write.. reallie clueless... ya.. so guess the whole chunk of stuff i wrote may be quite incoherent (esp at the front) cuz i'm juz writin watever that hits my mind.... (while some actuallie hit n slipped my mind immediately before i even pen it down.. :\)

as for the rest of the stuff tt happen at ding tai fung.. juz go see my fotoblog lar.. lazy to repeat :X

end up we went js's house to rot... ok lar.. i din rot.. the rest did.. haa.. well, i guess that could be the very last time i visit that house of his (cuz he'll be moving)... and i can't imagine that his new room is gonna be smaller (it's small as it is.. for 2 ppl)

hmm.. then as js is tryin to connect to dota for erik.. i was listen to auntie n lj tokin abt marriage stuff as they flip the bride magazine (smthin lydat)... tk chipped in his tot's too.. quite interestin too... but i reallie wonder, will ppl in future change their wedding style?

erm.. ok.. out of the topic.. but anyway.. reallie luv lazin ard wif frens even if there's nuttin to do...

i'm lookin forward for a fun filled holz! (but my exam's not near over at all -_-)

i wan more fotos pls! :X

hmmm, was looking at the fotos i took and realised that the no. of pics i took are declining...

i.e. i'm beginning to underuse my cam! cannoT! muz take more pictures!!

I always felt that since I have a digicam, I should bring it along with me so I can take whatever I wan whenever I can or feel like it. But, one more digicam means one more gadget to look after... -_- and i dun feel like doing that cuz now i already got one xtra stuff to take care off.. the tungstun T... k.. i noe it's old(probably no one wans it anyway)... still i dun like the idea of losing it.

still... will try to take as much fotos as i can now.. and videos too! they're fun to watch :D

actually wanted to type something else.. but when i reach here i found out that i could no longer type it out into words... haiz.. so end up i crapped abt other stuff... paiseh

food for tot: does being polite creates a barrier??? Chinese always say li3 duo1 ren2 bu4 guai4.. which is true.. but they never mention the side effects? what u guys think?

alternate dimensions

if there are alternate dimensions to our world... what do you think you'll be like in other dimensions?

Sometimes, can't help feeling that dreams seems to show you what you may be in another dimension... the world seems the same but yet it's not... the people around you are the same yet, do not behave like themselves in reality... even you is different...

how true...

a senior of mine fwded this... found it very true.. for me at least.

======================================

"Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realising that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realising that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

What you don't recognise is that they are realising that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job, and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realising that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realise that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realise that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself, and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realise is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

april fools'! "erm... ur _____ got a hole..."

april fool day trick courtesy of my mom. :X
Well, the tricked worked well on my friends though it didn't seem to work on me.. haa.. think my mom's just bad at lying.

Victims this year(in order w.r.t time the joke is cracked):
- omy
- ndru
- sally
- audrey??? (erm, not sure if she caught the joke actually)
- yvonne (is sally who cracked the joke... but it's my.. i mean my mom's joke.. haha)

arhz lame.

oh well... forgot to mention some funny stuff that happened these few days...
yesterday: ndru's hotdog bounced out of the bun when ndru opened the box... :X ya.. wasted... the whole hotdog...
and since then... SY's saying that he's clumsy... haa (and even more so after he tried opening a bottle of badly shaked coke)

and well, I tink i can understand why KF says SY's a cok'ster (he really can crap.. and is damn funny... XD )

woW, the world is spinning

yup.. of cuz it's spinning XD

aiyah, was having a super duper bad runny nose today... wasn't as bad, but the coldness in LT6 made it much worse. Sneezed non stop too... hope I never pass any germs to anyone... X|

cold means block nose, block ears and headache...
so the rest of the day for me is really bad.. especially during Jap tutorial... can't even think straight.

Hmmmm... a fren (decide nt to mention who... dunno why.. dun feel like saying names... tink my brain's still not thinkin well) mentioned about possibly mite change course as that course is much more pragmatic. Of cuz, this kinda news is or often received wif a loud "huh"... esp when u're alreadi like halfway thru the current one... will definately use up even more time and so on....

as a fren i'll still support the idea... though i always still think it's better to follow one's interests... budden again, perhaps in this world.. interests dun worth a cent...

follow what you believe in, spread your wing and fly~

more organised, no?

hmmmm, my sis passed me her super duper underused Tungstun T (that I think is about to be obsolete) and I feel like i've became a whole lot more organised...

well, but still... I can't really keep to the schedule i set T_T

saddening.. it's only like 24-23 days away, and i'm still not serious enough. how?

worse still, i have tests all the way til school close... and a presentation for the project to be due...

got a bad feeling i won't get to study until the study week starts.. CHOY!

k... shld not waste time here n go study~

casualty prone..

been kinda casualty prone lately...

keep ramming my arm or elbow into hard objects as i walk... losin balance on the bus n hit the wall :S (well, in this case is the bus uncle's fault.. lousy driver.. :\)
hurting my toe... (cuz i accidentally kicked sf's sandles... veri hard wor.. issit made of diamond? o.O) and many other other stuff lar...

is it because i'm mentally exhausteD? *shrugs*

anyway, finally cannot wait for chuang yi's version of fruit basket 16 to come out.. so went to buy the taiwan one which cost abt a dollar more...

cried as i read... tears juz keep flowing like the tap never close lidat... it's definately something rare for me...
a good thing i decided to go home n read the rest of it after finishing my ice kacang (weather too hot.. so juz went to the kopitiam to eat b4 going home..)
else it wld be terrible to cry in public bah =_=

as for what happen in the chapter... eh... it's juz about the main character's parents... how her mom who used to be a gang member, met a teacher(erm.. temp teacher), how he changed her n they got married... got child... en he died.. blah blah... nothing thaT fresh to the plot... but somehow.. dunno why... :S

anyway, i definately felt much better after reading.. heh

looked back, looked front...

finally the report for EG1415 is over. Well, this doesn't mean the end of EG1415... but at least for now... it's no longer at the top priority...

think my eyes are really sick of looking at computer screen... it's threatening to close while i was feeling quite fine awhile ago... :(

everyone's working very hard.... losing their sleep and all these...

though it may be amusing to see frens falling asleep during lecture... deep down i felt pretty sad... to have to fight to keep awake during lectures is a dreadful thing... yet you can't sleep well, then you still have to find extra time to catch up... both on schoolwork n slptime

life isn't easy... even though studying can be fun... it's still quite torturing...
why muz we study till like this? study until we can't sleep peacefully, can't have proper meals... slog so hard in the end... we (at least for me...) dun gain thaT much afterall....

i can't see the worth of puttin in that kind of effort.. probably why i'm lacking motivation...

so busy... time so little.. i always find semesters in NUS short... perhaps aside from the very first sem... the rest has been very short.. n gettin shorter still... terrible reallie... though i hate slow paced life... it's kinda getting too fast for me... sooo fast until i can't even see what i'm doing... holidays is a relief perhaps... but it's different from going to school.. i like going to school, see all your frens.. but.. i guess that's all to it le..

oh ya.. another thing i wanna add... i never knew, having to eat lunch on your own is such a lonely thing to do... esp in the canteen... therefore.. i rather not eat (a proper meal that is)

haiz... everyone jiayou! it's like 29 days to exams...

big bad writers block

had to be today.. damn dreadful, to hafta write a report wif writers block... everything becomes incoherent... and i juz can't think of a full sentence ><~

got so many things to type here.. but i juz can't type anymore.. ARGH
reallie a torture.. plus i'm so sleepy now..

hope i wun get back last nite's dream... it's not a nightmare.. but stil kinda a nightmare to me... budden.... again, that's closer to the reality (minus the amt of ppl queueing for train... and even sightings of floating objects)

finally, i can breathe abit!

it's amazing how much a test with 10% weightage can stress ppl so much.. ok, 10% isn't that little.. but.. it's less than the usual 20%... :X

guess it's the cereal i had tis morning.. darn sweet... wif darn sweet soyabean milk... ya.. so even though i only sleep around 4-5 hrs last nite.. and previous nights too... i felt rather hyper. :X

well, that's good... :P i'm currently in NUS still.. waitin for mi frens to finish their lab. It was Sally's 21st burfday ydae... so she holdin bbq to celebrate today. quite alot of ppl going wor.. so i hope it'll be fun! it's been a long while since the previous bbq... but well, some peeps not going :(

oh ya.. it's at west coast... sheesh.. dunno how i'm gonna get home later ><~

hmmm.. bot her a "burberry" wallet (sorry, but i'm no rich person) wif a customised acrylic keychain.. quite nice i tink.. on top of it got a card (end up let everyone sign cuz it's kinda big... well, &dru's 'fault'.. i ask him buy one.. sharin the cost of the prez wif him...) ah, but i always think, the most cruicial thing is to get a card... i'm happier reading cards then juz gettin the prez alone... buT! that doesn't mean no prezzie will do hoR :X effort efforT!

oops.. erm... geez... *rots*

next week, project due! DUE!!! so this whole weekend no doubt is eg1415.. and ee2009 since i got the test comin up! siao le.. another mad week to come.. lucky presentation not yet..... @.@

talkin abt eg1415... dunno why... one of my teammates-junjie.. nowadays look more cheerful.. that time 1st time he join our grp.. he like veri glum n gloomy... like wanna scold ppl :X
well, guess he's juz tired from his other proj

haiz.... sat muz catch back loads of sleep... en muz do all the catchin up for hmwk n so on.... it'll be lidat all the way till end of april (exAmS! ><~)

die.

anyway, congrats to jsim, ORDin tml rite? :P

*needs to be cut off from the computer*

i just can't concentrate on whatever i'm doing with a computer infront of me *sobz*

the bad thing is, there's so many things to be done thru the comp..
shucks

:S

oh ya, wanted to tok abt the dream i had last nite... it's another hantu related dream o.O
and i'm stuck there wif loads of ppl... some are my frens.. then abt half of the ppl there are actuallie hantus but disguised as humans, but still got alot of ppl lar.. haa +_+
er... it's @ tis super big mansion i guess... @ first i tot it's a school... cuz i remember got library.. but... towards the end of the dream, none of it looks like a school anyway... :S but it's kinda ole.. u noe.. like hogwarts? but it's definately not like a school.. 'cept the library.. :x oh ya.. the lib kinda reminds me of aj's lib... ><

erm anyway.. i can't exactly remember what happened at the front part.. but i definately didn't knew abt existence of hantus then... saw one kid juggling veri well in the lib.... ya.. juggling... i guess andrew's juggling club matters kinda rubbed into my brain.. :X and the thought of me going to jio that kid to join juggling crossed my mind.. diaoz... yeah.. en i remember i saw yvonne in the dream... tink juz chat awhile then left liao.. dunno what i was doing also, waitin here waitin there... waiting for someone?

ya.. then dunno when then become nite time? then what i remember is i wanna make my way to the canteen or dining hall... budden the main pathways are not lighted up... then someone who tried going say the way is blocked?! things started getting weird... and the crowd of us who wanted to go there started takin weird paths.. sneak thru giant holes along the wall.. along the ceiling.. (tink even the lift isn't working...) but there's lights coming out from some room? (supposely even haunted) @@

dunno lar... then suddenli while making our way thru the corridoor of smwhere... then everyone started running.. away from what u noe.. actuallie.. those hantus mingled within us... n we hafta keep siaming them... dunno why i was holding something that seems to show their true identity when i hold it close to their faces.. haa.. so i started testin it on everyone near me.. cuz i dunno all the ppl ard me.. can't trust anyone :S erm... ya.. scrambled our way out.. wif many screams along the way... then came to one room at the end.. erm.. like no where else to run.. n somehow, cannot get out of that place also bah..

then got this old man... er, dunno who... told us to go look for the "wand" like stuff to keep the hantus in ctrl, supposely these hantus r released due to a broken seal.. so muz go destroy them or smthin lidat...

so end up i become ghost buster liao... -_-
there's some crap logic behind gettin the wands but i shant explain further.. cuz it's reallie silly.. :s