wat to do..? wat to dO???? ><

argh, all the mid term tests coming... n i'm lagging for all my mods... even jap... and veri veri lag for 2012...

reallie contemplating abt s/uing jap.. not that i tink i wun score for that.. but i'm worried that my other core modules will die... *touchwood*

how? tho i reallie dun wanna s/u.. now so many things falling on me.. projects, tests n tons of undone tutorial = lotsa catch up.. n smmore in lecture i alreadi lost the lecturers (be it they're good lecturers or not..)

the whole sem still like veri hazy now.. dunno wat to do.. shld i s/u?? shld i shld i?

*faintx*

dream dream dream

was reading my notes on the bed (bad idea!) and i fell asleep (expected.. :\)

it's a weird dream, a dream where i'm the only one talking. the person beside me (shan't name.. n i hope i din get the wrong person :S) didn't even say one word... juz keep standing beside me.. accompany me all the way.. but never muttered a word...
come to think of it now, it's kinda creepy huh....

i got a weird feeling abt that too in the dream.. but tok more or less the person doesn't seem to speak (after all my futile efforts at throwing questions..)

oh ya, then i keep spotting this particular pattern of clock.. it's counted as a new design i supposed.. quite trendy..
erm.. and that design's used on telephone (wif clocks) also -_-

well, at least i never dream of things like the whole world turning into vampires or so on :X

the BaT experimenT :X

hmmm... went back to NUS today for Eg1415 project.
progress wise still alright i guess.. though the project's reallie gonna challenge my crapping skills n english TT__TT

well, i guess the funniest thing of the day is that Sy actuallie brought up about one of the design experiments for physics for A-lvls... which i did before as a mock paper if my memory serves me well enough...
it's to do wif testing the sound of the bat or measuring the soundwave that the bat emits... smthing lidat lar.. :X

the funniest thing is the ways people would go about designing the procedure to do this experiment... all sorts of things like whacking the poor bat.. or even electrocuting it.. then whack it harder or increase the voltage across?? hee.. reallie, it's a good laff. i remember my teacher told me about the funny ways people go about this expt too.. it's reallie hilarious! XD

alrite.. now the more i think of it the more i feel like laffing... *runs off to laff*

How to "kill" blog readers [crap entry, dun read if you dun wanna get "killed"]

it is very easy to kill readers off when they read your blog as you can subject them to torture by putting in important information that will arouse their curiosity yet force them to read it in the most unreadable manner so as you're reading this i'm letting you experience how bad it can get by subjecting you through hell itself for a short while tho the first way is ofcuz not to put any punctuation as you will just send readers into a sea of agony having to figure out your sentence structure next you cannot use any paragraphing which will force your readers to digest the whole large chunk of words in one shot and ofcuz no punctuation definately makes it ten times worse three you can use an incredibly illegible font that might be so cursive beyond recognition or a font so small that requires ten times zoom to even make out a word and lastly use a super duper bright colour that blinds readers or simply blend into the background there is no need to resort to violence if you want to stop people from reading your blog

:)

happiE v-day/friendship-day/lecturer's day?!

if u're wondering why i add the lecturer's day.. cuz something interesting happened during my EE2010 lecture..
someone actualli gave flowers to my lecturer.. haa.. and the row of guys behind me started wolf whistling.. hee.. it's reallie interesting, cuz it's the 1st time i see ppl give flowers to lecturers.

the whole lecture grp was generally amused

hmmm... i almost reach the LT late today.. cuz was dloadin songs (gundam seed one.. wat else :P) and was reluctant to stop.. :X
well, to my surprise, sf n ndru was alreadi there n ndru's busy making balloon flowers. end up he cldn't conc on the lecture so that he cld finish making a flower for all the girls (he knew) in the LT. haa.. so poor thing... :X

and audrey gave me a slice of the brownie she baked! hee.. she's so good at cookies n brownies.. :P someone sure got a jing4 de2 liao3 kitchen de4 gf :X

omy also gav me 2 chocolate kisses after tat! nice :9~

other than that, as sf described, u suddenli see alot more chiobus ard in engin... i commented that probably come find bf one.. and she gav that kind of look.. haa! oops.. hope no engin guys readin this.. dun come find me :X

ya.. then i tink when we're going for our lab.. the school's like empty again... juz like cNY eve!! believe it or not man.. haa... reallie exaggeratin

yup... spent the rest of the days in the lab.. wif chinmay n shenghwee poppin over now and then... i donated some of my wires to shenghwee.. :P hope i got enuff left.. cuz some of my frens say cannot ask for more :(
then i borrowed his wire cutter.. cuz i din bring... :
my breadboard looks disgusting.. guess nxt time muz plan better before wiring... but tis time i tink can heck it lar.. haha

HapPie CNY!

hmmm.. tink my CNY celebration finally came to an end? (seems so for now...)
was darn busy going all o'ver the place since chu1 er2...

1st day of CNY again, my relatives came.. nothing new. Everyone aside from the kids growin up reel quick n the boys all overshootin my height.. nuttin that new either :p

2nd day, went to m'sia and i finally can offer incense to my grandma after sooo long... my mom stil haven't gotten over it.. well, it's hard i guess when u go there n u dun see the person u see always...n yup... again, sat there n watch tv.. nuttin new.. juz less my grandma.. haiz.. missed her too

3rd day, went to school in the morninG (got lecture leh.. n tutorial too) and i'm soooo shocked to see jeff.. cuz even andrew din come... :X:X and jinghow too! ahaha.. wat's the world comin to? then at evenin.. went to zhuofeng's hse wif merina, chui har, chris n sally... erm, christina got lect til 6.. so sally pei her n both of them were late.. :\ so the 3 of us sat at the couch watching kung fu hustle.. which jsim called (askin me when i'll go over to Erik's hse for stayover) and sayz i'm mad... -_- well, at least i caught back wat i missed at the theatres :P
after chris n sally came.. we started playin heart attack.. (i always got it. hehe.. ) then eat some dishes zf's mom cooked... it's veri fun to see zf's parents n chris all tokin in cantonese.. and i'm pretty happy that i understand quite abit of their conversation :D
zf's parents are like veri nice.. hee.. n did i mention that zf's sec sch frens where there too? ya.. after the long dinner (consisting more of conversations) went to can1 guan1 zf's room.. he showed us the whole album of fotos he took wif his gf... (n i was tinkin he dun even nid to take jie2 hun1 fotos alreadi)
then after that they played blackjack while i watched.. :P

[fotos will be up in fotopages]

yup.. arnd 2230 we left n i headed for Erik's hse... reach there at i tink 2300+ then watched lj, erik, js n edwin(erik's bro) play mj... lia rottin at the couch.. hahaa :X the game somehow ended n we watched Shutter.. some thai ghost film... quite creepy in the sense they used it to link it up wif foto takin n so on... ~_~||| erm... ya.. but ok lar.. cuz i'm so sleepy.. the effect isn't that bad... but i still dun reallie like recallin that show.. oh ya, then there's a part where erik's light fused at a climax scene... gave everyone a shock.. timing is good.. erm... hope it's juz pure coincidence... xie2 men2... :S
after that watched a world without thieves... erm.. boring.... but the endin is kinda sad. but overall show still boring.. lia wanna watch one n she fell asleep =_=... haiz.. so we started playin bridge till mornin after the show ended n left lia "snoring" off on the couch.. haha

----------- nxt day ----------------

ya morning then we woke up lia.. en juz dragged time.. poh ard.. took some silly fotos.. haa then went to hav breakfast.. and lia had to go cuz her dad's here.. haiz..
went home after breakfast.. bathed.. slept for a couple of hrs.. then supposely hafta go bowlin wif my parents.. but they had to help my sis queue for 4D n wasted one hr.. then reach amk then i found out (or sorta remembered) that the bowling alley's gone liao.. sadded...
haiz.. so rotted ard in amk lib... then i went off to audrey's hse..
went to j8 for awhile cuz i dunno who's at her hse.. dun wanna go play gooseberry.. but found out that i haf to.. but was darn glad that zhenwei's there alreadi. :X
ya.. then see them rip music... then played mj while the rest came (sihui, mingkwan) then change ppl... then after that mary n chuanyang came.. then juz keep rotatin ppl for mj while the rest of us feast on the junk food... (argh..growin faT! :( )
ya.. then juz watched them play mj, watch tv.. then when meiyee came.. we played big2 for awhile... then stopped (i still tink bridge more interestin :X but they dunno how to play :\)
then juz watch them play mj.. mingkwan losing it all n chuanyang winnin alot... (lucky i din play wif them..)
then went home at ard 2300 while some of them stil went to watch midnite show.. onz sia.. haha

nerd test

hee got tis fr ruijie's blog

me, master super computer n andrew! go to fotopages for morE! :P 

detestable, scary, annoying or juz plain weird?

dunno which word i should use to describe myself. Mebbe all of them, since it's quite hard to describe anyone wif juz one word. :X

well, i haven't been in the best of moods lately for sure.... my inner me is buggin me wif some irritating tots and i wish i can just shut it up... perhaps i shld reallie go for some selective memory washin so that my inner me will find nuttin to bug me wif n leave me alone in peace.... well, that kinda reminds me of a show, issit called "Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind" or smthing??? dunno, din watch it... but now i feel like watching it... i wonder how it feels like to hav memory erased... :x

perhaps, i can learn to seal some memories up myself.. psychologically.. puttin them into my subconciousness... hah.. if i so zai.. i wun be sitting here tokin rubbish liao.

haiz.. i reallie missed all the times in Year 1 sem 2...where ppl stil got time to sit dwn n crap.. i smhow feel distant away from my NUS frens liao (referring to those that i hang around most of the time wif.. cuz now i'm spendin more time wif other NUS frens.. complicatin? nah...) somehow.. i wonder... has the group like unoffically disbanded or smthin???

well, always hear ppl saying that the frens we make in uni are never as close as those make in jc or sec etc... was pretty upset abt it before i entered uni... but after that i tot i cld proof that theory wrong... but is there the possibility... i'm wrong myself? :(

i always seem to prefer things either going at a constant rate... or increasing, but never decrease...(doesn't apply to schoolwork :X)

fridaY~

sleepy friday... rushing fri... slacking fri :P

haiz... the 8am make up lect is reallie too much for me.. smmore it had to be EE2012... Zzzzzz
mebbe i shld juz give it a miss.. since i'm not listening.. :X

i tried my best to be attentive... tho i tink i failed terribly in the end due to my sleepiness.. but hey.. i tried my besT! :X
haiz... must go have a long meeting wif zhou gong then can... :(
talking abt meetings... well, end up the Eg1415 tutorial we still hafta attend everyone.. juz that no nid to present every single session... :( oh well, shldn't be greedy huh.. but lidat i tink will make meeting up for project harder... cuz my timetable is juz so damn pack.. :X i wan a pair of wings..

jap tutorial went pretty well today, fumbled a lil for the kaiwa... juz not used to ending things wif de gozaimasu instead of desu
as for listening quiz.. reallie veri easy :X

after school, got an urge to chiong dwn to orchard rd kino to see if got any nice jap books to buy n read.. but come to tink of it.. i no money.. no time... n i'm not zai enuff.. so scraped the tot and went home...

slacked until now.. sad.. tink i go try n do some tutorials

active here again!

dunno why, suddenli have the blogging mood nowadays.

I feel like using the lifejournal one... mebbe shld ask everyone from opendiary to go there.. it's not bad actuallie.. and can create committees. haa nm

guess i'll stick to here.. lazy go post all o'er the place

one month pass very fast, like dunno what happen and it's already over o_o

this sem timetable pretty pack, like not much time to go think of other things.. (but i still got think of other things.. which explains why my tutorials are always half done. :X)

ok.. found out i got too many stuff to attend to... so i'll juz leave this entry as it is..

well, found out abt some rather interesting stuffs today..

bikerfei.. :X haaa :X hope can know more.. they got my curiousity..

resign to fate..

it seems like i'm always land myself up in a position where i'm waiting or wishing for something impossible to happen... is my whole life juz gonna be like tis?

when you seem to have nothing to look foward to, even death seems welcoming for a min or so

resign to fate liao... smtimes, feel so sian of making decisions n so on... i juz wanna live, be happy if not try n act happy and then die...

i'll not hold on to anything that's impossible... well at least i'll try my very best not to.... also i wun pray for anything to happen liao cuz wat's meant not to happen i die a million times also wun happen...

i'll juz get on wif life... n witness other ppls' life... n juz disappear from the face of the earth someday in future... as for what happened after that, obviously no one lived to tell... :
the world, a beautiful yet ugly place... beautiful when i'm happy, ugly when i'm sad...

back to the past & chalet!

ok.. basically, my nephew's bdae chalet was quite alrite.. tho there's quite abit of dull moments here n there cuz there's no entertainment ard that interest me n i'm worried about school work (hell yeah..!) well, but i managed to go into the jackpot room :D but... jackpot is actualli boring n waste money... dun understand the machine.. i wonder if ey're juz out to cheat :X

played bowling until my fingers nearly died..... sorta found out the best condition for me to play wif.. but.. i still suck... then also played a lil mahjong but stopped when i realised that it's boring.... cuz my sister they always juz take alot of hua1s and juz anyhow hu2... sux

left that place.. onli stayed one nite which i tink is veri much enuff.. anyway, i stayed in Aranda... sux lar.. their place altho big.. but is dirty... n it's damn ex... rather stay in a hotel lo!

anyway, at the chalet, i was reallie worried for my schwk... suddenli got that feelin of worryin for my schwk.. which i guess i've lost it ever since i entered NUS... and i started dreamin of ppl n stuff i wld in the past... is tis good or bad?

but hope i'll be more kanjiong abt schoolwork n score better tis sem... i reallie dun wan a third deg honours.. :(

jap tutorials :&

for my TA and TB class, I've tio the 2 full time tutors. Kakiyama sensei to Okada sensei.

Well, full time tutors supposed to be better i supposed. But very stressful wor! especially Okada sensei's class... He'll make sure u can speak it at the end.. keep asking u for demostrations infront of the class. Makes you all jittery and tongue tied.

Demo sa, Okada sensei's always smiling, dunno to say if he's kind? or like the chinese saying, the smiling tiger =_=
His expectation veri high.. tink next time dun prepare for his tutorial will die an ugly sight... :x

i wonder who my TC tutor will be? Another full time tutor? Well, i'm left wif Otsuka sensei. I doubt the lecturer got teach any class.

something... lame? :X

let's see:
your name
do you smoke?	YesNoOccasionally
do you drink?	YesNoOccasionally
stronger drugs?	YesNoOccasionally
your favourite activity
you are	Lazy
you wish you were	Nostradamus
you hope	It's not too late
people think you are	A Lazy Dog
intelligent people though, think you are	>/font>Exceptional
but, really, you're just	A good hearted thing
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out of my mind...

guess i'm going nutx.. i keep coming here, yet everytime i came here i dunno what to type... :
school started, tis sem gives me a new feeling too... definately not like last sem, and i hope it's for the better :)

alumni co's gettin active again... tho i still got that kind of go there dunno wat to do feeling.. it's nice to spend some time catchin up wif frens.. supper time's the best.. :P but am i eatin too much? :S

i hope tis sem i wun be veri bz *hear voices sayin "Dream ON!"* :\ oh well, i've gotten used to the stress free holz.. reallie find it hard to settle down... tink muz use the method of peer pressure liao. haiz

tutorials gonna start nxt week, reallie gonna get a taste of the hectic lifestyle... muz reallie jiayouZ! mebbe tis sem i can slim down abit.. haha.. not that much time to eat lunch liao.. :X

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argh... feeling downright sianz... dunno issit becuz i'm sick or what... haiz... super sianz.. my mind's in a whirl... keep thinkin of things which i told myself to stop thinkin of... tinkin abt depressing thoughts n start to doubt my existence again...

i dun even hav the mood to go practice my hiragana now... juz wish that i can drop dead immediately...

smtimes i tink i very lan4 lar... live w/o motivation lidat.. no plans for the future.. dunno what i wan.. then i tink i've become veri weak too.. mentally n physically... suddenli tink that i'm not independent enuff.. sianz

come to tink of it.. it's juz become i'm not feelin well thats why.. haiz.. hope my runny yet blocked nose will clear n my cough cum sorethroat may go off..

super sianz...

flashbacks... n a sudden feeling...

was packing the scores for the rabobank concert for alumni today.. dunno why.. suddenli remembered the ole times when i was still back in ajco, back in aj... then i realised i missed my frens alot (ok.. it's weird becuz i juz saw them recently... but.. perhaps it's the feeling back then bah...)

going back to ajco as an alumni is a totally different feeling.. i never reallie knew what the current batch of jnrs tink abt us... is like lotsa missing links btwn us.. haa.. u can call it dai4 gou1 if u wan... dunno lar.. then i dun like to entertain the thought that once i show up i gotta keep showing up (cuz i believe in consistency in attendence.. so dun go means dun go.. once u go u must keep going..) so till now, til today, i refused to go back... and besides, i bet they haven't fix the poor sheng... tis time i can't help them fix.. definately no.. ha.. sianz.. can't they take care of the instrument better? my poor sheng1... *sobz*

hmmm.. lectures gonna start soon! feel kinda excited actualli. but hav a bit of dreadful feelin cuz i haven't pack anything. everything from last sem is still there n i dun feel like touchin them abit.. :X better get down to packing soon...
i reallie wonder how next sem will be like?? i finally got my jap module!! wanna thank all those ppl who listened to me complainin abt my worries n so on.. haha thankiew! I GOT IT!!! YEYEYEYEY!!! *prance ard*
each semester gav me a different feeling.. i wonder how the nxt one will be like? it's like in nus tho every sem is in a sense rather repetitive... i tink it's more ever changing compare to studies in the past... haa.. every sem different subject... sometimes, i was wonderin if tis constant need to adapt to stuff is reallie not for me n i'd prefer a routined life? haa.. i got a weak heart mebbe.. can't take changes that well smtimes.. :S

ahhhhhh~~!!! i'm growing up!!! noooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :X

thankiEWs

there's too many things to recap for year 2004... 2004 has its good and its bad...but when i look back, i realised that my life has changed so much.... i feel like i'm stuck in the middle of nowhere?

i dunno what to anticipate in the future... but i hope everyday wld juz be as nice and i'll be much more luckier :P

:::::::: a thankiew note :::::::::

== CO ==

wanna thankiew my bestest buddz... i dunno what to thank you for... there's too many... so i can onli say a reeeel BIG thankiEW!!! u're soooo nice, a great suppoRT, and someone gd to rely on! dunch strezZ! ORD lo! :X oh ya.... pls always remember to collect money lar... i tink now i noe why all ur unknown source where ur money went to liao :X

wanna thankiew dA 500++ yrs coW spiriT... for being soooo helpful in many wayZ :D tho u always soooo lazy to travel abit more... :X it's always nice to hav u arD! i noe u veri rich now lar... so when's a treat coming? heheheheee :X

wanna thankieW dA aUnT-TEE wiF a hammIe called Xiaobai... for so givin me face n stayin over :P i'm sorry like the whole entire last sem like never paid much attention to u... too bz... i tink i neglected alot of stufF!! sorRY!~!~~!!~!~~ tho i can't seem to catch up wif the RVCO tok of urs.... hee.. it's never-the-less great to hav u arD! so now u can play mj liao hor?

wanna thankiEW dA lil' girl who's always losing slp n not eatin dinner... thankiew for all ur letters n encouragement n yadda yadda.... pls lar..... slp more n eat more...... it's no wonder ppl say the wind can blow u off ur feet le... :P muz take good care of urself!!!!!!!!

wanNa thankIew dA mAtA :P who's been a great company at times and well... givin all the insights on law eh? :X a jnr to be proud of! cuz he's so active in alumni.. muahahahaa :P jia you jia you!!

== CPE ==

wanna thankiew my study buddy (or issit arbitrary buddy?)... thanks for all the stress u giv me... :S hahaa.. and being so nice n encouraging alwayZ, toleratin all my crap n so on :X hope i haven't troubled u too much. :p and beiNG so onZ for dA outingS!!! GREAt to hav u arD! fun!!! :P

wanna thankiew polar bear!!!! u've been a reallllll great fren despite half the time not being psychically near me since u're in grp B n i'm in A... u've given me so much advice! so much help! n encouragement too!!! ahhh! if i were to weigh wat i owe u in terms of cans of tuna.. i tink i owe u alot alot! :p thankiew thankiEW!

wanna thankiEw cinDeraLLA!!! aka fake malay girl's shifu :X u've been a greaT companY during exam period studyin man... tho i tink we shld avoid to destress ourselves by startin a conversation cuz waste lotsa time.. haha.. neverthelesS! u've been a great company to study in school! thankiEW!!!

wanna thankIEw fake malay girl! ur "heLLO!" tho reallie kinda too loud and imagin that the dist away we can hear it before even spottin u... but it does add a cheery note to the daY hehe :) u've been a great company.. n well.. at least did make me think sometimes that st nix isn't tHat bad huh??? hehee.. oh ya... a great pal at games.. hahaha... thx for introin all the fun games :P

wanna thAnkiEw gorgonitZ aka well oyster? (in terms of chinese interpretation)... haha.. ur lame jokes reallie crack us up man... diaoZ!!!! n u're still soooo good at ur studies despite missin quite a no. of lectureS?! wat are u?! :X

wanna thankiEW wee-boi (oops.. dis isn't wat i shld use but neber mind.. i dun tink u read tis :X) er... thanks for not coming to the lecture? so i dun hafta save so much seatS? wat the.. haha... erm... do... wake up... n remember ur exam dates n time k? i noe u're lucky but dun risk it :P

wanna thankiew OMY!!!! u've been a great pal man!! so glad i'm in the same class wif u! thankiew thankiew for all the help n sorry for all the trouble i gav u for the projecT! all da besT nxt yr n may naruto be as excitin as evA! wahahahaA!

== all FrenS not mentioned aboVE ==

yUP! wanna thankiew you all of u who've helped me in one way or another, encouraged me anyway... joked wif me, laff wif me sing wif me etc etc done anything wif me.. THANKIEW THANKIEW!! cuz too many ppl.. so can't afford to write out one by one..and due to the limited space in my "CPU" up there.... so i onli write those that i faced more everyday or recently.. thankiew thankiEW!! to all NUS frens, all CO frens all 20/01 class maties! hav a gREATER YEAR AHEAD!!! i luv u all, u all hav been part of my life n will always bE!!! greatly appreciateD!!

new yeaR stayoVA for AS!

venue: at js's house..

well, if i'm not wrong, it a swap from last year (or rather.. last last year... 2003 that is.. where x'mas is at his house n new year at moi house)

we ate good food.. all thanks to his mom... had fun... playin all the games.. and finally mj... glad his sis karine joined in.. haa... she's quite fun to hav... tho i'm amazed that she din learn anything abt mj or even bridge from her bro... :X

wanna thx js and his parents for lettin us hav the place n being such gooooooood hosts!! tho this new year is bound wif a tad of sadness (from both the tsunami incident n the closing down of mediaworks...)
well, still hope that this new year will be much much better one.

had a meeting for the committee members after that.. found out somethings... made me quite glad.. but in a sense, there's still many worryin factors... oh well, hope can sort it out... n i hope huangshen reallie is not gonna kill us like this... or i'll not let him off!!!

oh well.. HappiE new yeaR!