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juz another day spent in the lab...

saw xu wei at engin canteen today.. but din say hi since he's not lookin in my line of sight.

juz smthing i recalled

was having a conversation wif xh juz... n i recalled tis story i heard on the radio years ago...

there's this girl with guys that like her at the same time...
one always finds her when she's sad...
while the other is the one she always shares her happiness with...
in a sense she feels happier with the one who shares her happiness with...
but when the day comes for her to choose.. she chose the one that is always there for her when she's sad...
cuz 人生不如意之事十七八九...
it's hard to find someone who's willing to share ur unhappiness...
while u can share ur happiness easily wif anyone ard u...

well, since then, i always supported the girl's choice... cuz to share sadness is so much harder than to share happiness.. well, mebbe not for everyone.. but at least.. fer mi, it holds...

on depressant drip...

[ mood | depressed ]

if i were to be living in the Harry Potter world... u can simply describe me as having bumped into a couple of dementors n hav all the happiness in me sucked out...

feels as if a large rock has juz landed ontop of my heart (no.. i'm not worried...)... the feeling is suffocating... 

*cries*

(eventually, what that is meant to be an entry that's on a lighter mood turns out ot be like that....) T_T mebbe i'll write those stuff when i'm feeling less negative

juz rambling

[ mood | pensive ]

i've been so tired recently (sry if u're hearin/readin tis the 100th time)... end up always dozing off on the mrt... sometimes i reallie wish got some shoulder to lean on cuz it's reallie terrible to juz hav ur head noddin off.. then gotta keep reminding urself not to hit anyone sitting beside u =X then also got so many stuff to carry... so always wish got extra hands to help...

guess... i really need a... robot.. (if only they're afforadable stuff.. but do i nid to pay mrt fare fer them if they were to take the mrt wif mi?) LOL

boo hoo

well, not gonna put any mood theme cuz i guess it'll be probably be tired or sleepy for sometime.. ya... (actually i'm juz being plain lazy =X)

well, tis mornin was dozing off on the train while trying to read some fna notes.. haiz.. luckily on the bus met shilei.. managed to chat wif her quite abit til reach nus n feeling more awake after that. then rushed to biz ad n to realised that one of my new rubber band is lost... (dropped it somewhere)... sobx... quite xin1 teng2... cuz i juz bot it yesterday... n it's in a pair one.. so now onli left one.. smmore it's green... (one of the nicer colours).. ya.. so super sian diaox for the whole of my tutorial...

en tutorial overshot time.. end up i late for my next lect (and he had gone through the tutorial?!.. so fast =( ) en also v tired... lunch settled at olive cove again... and it's waffle again.. haiz... their salad so ex.. else i wld hav ate that.. healthier...

en was waitin for lab to open.. saw yng yng so chatted wif her wrt her 2001 proj... seems like tis sem everyone's v jialat... hope it'll be over soon...

end up i skipped TTT's useless lect n cont readin the 80188 manual in the lab. i'm so right not to bring any hardware... haaaa

uh... tink that's abt it le.. end of another sleepy n boring day... (well, though i always find it so nostalgic to see other groups testing their vehicles.. i juz hafta stop n look at them test <3 )

sleeping is a wonderful thing bom bom bom...

[ mood | sleepy ]

i still haven't caught back my lost of sleep ydae... eyes gonna close liao so juz quickly rush in an entry.. pardon spellin mistakes if any.

today is a horrible day from top to toe... mornin.. gotta force myself to wake up (when i only slept a miserable 3 hrs)... then was sleeping while standing on the mrt...terrible..

reach sch le.. was abit late for tutorial... then the lect theater was even more empty than usual (bet many like mi haven't finish report).. then wasn't listenin at all... tryin to do my report...
then i pontang my fna lect to continue wif the report in the afternn also...sian.. so thurs i gotta go chap in fer lect le...

well, then end up helpin merina n yng to print their report n hand up together.. deadline is 5pm... but the stupid internet of nus's like crawling (going at the d/l speed i hav at home!)... took freaking long... n i was all ups n downs.... anxious abt not being able to hand up.. it's not juz my report smmore... luckily made it in time... i ran all the way there.. then found out the paper stack too thick n i forgot to bring the larger stapler.... so anyhow stapler le. then hand up...

if everyday tis kinda stuff happen.. i bet i will die within half a year. buay tahan liao. i go slp le

driven to insanity + exasperation

[ mood | frustrated ]

seriously, how can anyone still remain sane doing this kind of lab reportS?!?!!! I've stared at it for 2 whole days making no progress at all. The code I got is slow like hell and it doesn't work. *bangs head against the wall* and the image dun get filtered correctly... it always look the same!!!!

my whole weekends's screwed up becus of this stupid lab that's worth 15%.... i really want to give it up... last time can give up cuz i tot the lab's only 10%... but now 15%... actually grades doesn't matter.... n since by doing this i'm prolly sacrificing other grades also.... #$%&#$^*

i hate sch life which is like that... i hate it when i hafta rush this stupid reports overnight and giving up my sleep.... yes.. studying may be fun... may be important... but i dun see why i muz sacrifise my sleep n health for tis kinda stupid thing.... wat's the point even? why do professors always think you're only taking THEIR module by giving work of this kinda workload (n totally brain n health damanging).. it's really easier to study in a more relax mood rite? screw them! screw NUS! screw the education system!

sux....

finally back

my blog that is.... it was down since last nite.. =S

!kind

[ mood cranky ]


so much so for waking up on the wrong side of the bed everyday... my mood is like s***...

dread going to sch n i dun really wanna come face to face wif anyone in

such sian mood... cuz it feels v taxing to try remain normal...


i've been passing sacarstic remarks (in my mind) at watever i'm not

happy wif also... i hate it... but i can't stop... i feel so unkind...
><~


dunno when tis unkind side of mi will disappear... hopefully soon... else i'll juz hate myself more as time passes...

zonked out saturday

tis morning cldn't reallie conc on studying... was half worried abt my uncle... en worried abt the schedule for the rest of the weekend... en wonderin if i shld back out fr the outing...

end up din study much.. can't get much into my brain... on the train also cannot... reach buona vista that time tot i feel abit sleepy... can't tink much le.. so took a bet and bot a can of coffee.. since the weather's so hot also... well, a wrong bet for sure... my brain died. o_o total shut dwn.. luckily i reach sch at ard 2.35.. so i sat there like a zombie wif notes infront n my brain blank... en felt the coffee taste + dry throat v yucks so i went to buy candy to eat... luckily my brain woke up after tt...

thruout the whole test.. i guess i juz sat there wif a dead pan look n doing the paper as tho it's juz a prac.. no it's not easy... but i dun feel any kanjiongness or worry... too tired le bah.. finished most of the questions within one hr.. then took another half n hour to tikam those that i am totally clueless n go thru everythin... then wanted to juz sit there n stone till times up... but too cold so left earli... waited for peiling to pass mi thing then left nus together... went to take 198 instead cuz too many ppl at 95 bus stop... but end up still wait v long.. -_-

oh wells, nvm tho.. cuz end up i earliest (again...) then ahp reached... (always i 1st she 2nd.. =S) then tk... (so standard... the pattern) en erik, merv, bh, qiling, wif 3 more jnrs whom i've never seen before (michelle, debra n.. i forgot liao o_o ying smthing =X) ya... en we headed to settler's cafe... took a rather long path.. dunno why.... chatted along the way.. tho i dun tink my brain's functionin much actualli.. then reach there i juz sit dwn n let the rest do the decision making.. aiyah many things.. oh, xq n jm came also after we juz settled dwn.... en finally got dwn to the food.. soup 1st. nice.... cuz it's cream of mushroom!!! my fav.. then the fish n chip not bad.. rather the fish is good but the chip not good.. en we played brain game!!!! cranium i tink... good thing is i din kill my brain in the process... then after that played tis guesstures? super fast leh the timer.. damn stressful game... ack..

ya.. so play so long end up never go drink... n poor xq's so disappointed... lol.. but i tot in the 1st place is erik initiate? nvm.. so go 7-11 wif her.. n she got 2 cans (tho is tk pay one.. haa) of red wine.. one merlot the other shiraz.. no u din read wrongly.. is CANS... one can 7.90... dunno how come red wine can be stored in cans.. dun ask mi... i din try cuz i dun wan subject my brain to deadness again... i dun quite like red wine anyway (unless ey r sweet)... yup... so went home... reach home dead.... went to bathe n regenerated myself bit... OTed till 2am.. then K.O.ed

speedy recovery pls!

[ mood | worried ]

reach home to find out that my forth uncle got involved in an car (or shld i say motorcycle) accident.. kenna knocked by a bus?!!??!

hope he can recover fast fast!!!!!!! ><

ji1 jiang4 fa3....

[ mood | working ]





it sometimes work wonders... but probably wun work all the time... =X





now sitting in school waiting for the lab to open... it has become my

camping ground liao... go there whenever i got no lessons... =S u muz

be wondering wat's happening to the rest of my modules... i'm probably

neglecting them ><





hope can get the speaker workin asap... then can wire everything up n

go do my software n many other projects... to tink now my life is lidat

when i see frens on exchange smwhere in another side of the world n

probably enjoyin themselves... *grunts* haaa





nvm... holz wil b here... (but i gotta do intern unless nus dun wanna

approve my intern... den i'll be happi that i can slack but i'll be sad

that i gotta clear more modules in year 4... =S)


but before even goin to the holz.. there's... the exams O_O gawd... *faintx*

blehhhh

[ mood | contemplative ]

woke up fr in a fright... cuz i tot i heard my mom sayz she forgot wat time she's supposed to wake me up... n for a split sec i tot i'm gonna be late for tutorial (the thing is, my grp is presenting the tutorial ans today =S) luckily not... woke up juz nice... n met pl on the mrt by coincidence =p

tutorial is a breeze... n i guess my other 2 mysterious teammate (aside fr pl.. grp of 4..) which onli to reveal today their looks.. hahaaa... ya... i never reallie noe how they look like til now... previous discussions r all held online... sh's looks exactly like he is... serious... tho not the extend of dead serious... but u can see the word serious scrawled across his face XD... yw... hmmm quite a stark contrast fr sh... tho in person he doesn't seem like the kind that tok that way as he did on msn... haaa.. nvm... anaylsing of mysterious teammates over... one interestin to note... both of them major in chem (juz like gav..) issit alot of ppl majorin in chem? it seems like whenever i got module in biz i always bump into ppl majorin in chem..

hmmm.. then once again i fly back to engin fer comp vision lect again... den met up wif lj n xh.. n xh cut her hair!~ looks so much refreshin! ya.. then xh went back to work le o_o after comin all the way to engin.. hahaa... =X en went eat lunch at olive cove... (lj had eaten alreadi tho) n we sat there n chatted for quite some time... =p en popped dwn over to arts forum... onli to see xiao ming... in a pink shirt... n obviously fatten up quite abit (which i'm surprised that lj didn't hesistate abt pointin out the fact to him. wahahaa.. ) n he stamps his feet.... o_o ok.. case closed...

so i went to the "company" PEM.. actually it's under NUS venture... to be greated by a Ivan (younger than i imagined) n infact it's a small startup wif little ppl... then they went on abt wat they're doing n so on n so forth... hmmmm... which til the end they keep stressin that i muz be v hardworkin n willing to learn... (ya.. but when i tink of the dist to go there it's kinda sian... n it's under NUS =S) they're nice ppl i guess but i shld be going for PBM instead bah... hope no issues after that liao...

now i gonna get my hands on 3D max studio n start learning how to use.. somehow.. maya's stil not widely used... n i nid a better graphics card.... much better one... =p

acceptance?

[ mood | moody ]

felt kinda snappy today... esp towards added stress wif appearance of sudden datelines n realization of many undone work... feel like giving up... if only i can just drop everything n run away...

give up give up give up.... i dunno mention tis how many times in a week liao... tink i reallie lost the will or the strength or the spur to fight for anything liao... if anyone sayz i accept things real well, i guess it's more of becuz i've already given up hope le...
sry if it sounds v negative... but i'm currently drowned in negative aura... *changes into a hollow bit by bit*

a list of to do-s juz for that five modules of mine...

- fna financial part presentation (the whole part is i do.. on coming thurs...)
- study for fna test (on 11march)
- 4213 expt 2 (due on 13th march)
- 3208 (supposed to start programming le but my hardware isn't even done n tested)
- 4212 ca assignment (due on apr...)
- fna project (which i haven't even printed out the accounts to read)

today n yesterday~

[ mood worried ]

"one, one, one, one, one, one, one..." that's what i heard tis morning once i step into my 3208 lab... that zq... (it's funny the lab aunties at 1st tot he's chi1 qian2 haha).. can he dun do so fast?!?!!? stressing everyone out lidat... n ydae during lab he's alreadi tuning in to alien frequency le... my LED's not even done.. keypad not done also... *faintx*

hmmm... anyway, has been a rather tiring week for me... keep sleeping at 2+am then waking up at 7+am... o_o guess i'm gonna reach my limit probably... my mom said she tried waking me up at 7 tis morning n i opened my eyes? best part is... i have totally no recollection abt it.. woke up at ard 730am later.. -_-

during lunch.... was eating alone.. but suddenli tot the world went abit wobbly... would be terrible if i fell asleep while eating =S

oh ya.. yesterday met up wif xh to go aj... but.... end up i dropped off the wrong stop (as i feared...)... i'm juz nt good wif buses... hahaaa.. =X uh... then the liang2 zhu4 darn stressful. cuz the pai1 zi3 all v fast n messy... so lousy me scrambled my way thru...

reallie cmi... then the sheng also becoming cmi liao... if sheng is cheaper i'll reallie rather go invest in one...

hmmmmm went fer dinner/supper after tt~ =D

wld be nice if reallie can go for a trip together wif the AS peeps... hehee...

flying chicken?!?!

[ mood | exanimate ]

was in my room changing when i heard a racket caused by crows right outside my window... or was it not only just crows? oh well, who cares (i tot)

then as i was just about to step out of my house... i saw a pheasant like bird? or was it a pheasant even? sitting at the drain right infront of the door.. o_o it has a long tail... juz like pheasants... but is brown... wif some sort of pattern... i stared at it.. it stared back at mi (as it's so right of it to sit there o_O) uh... i wldn't be bothered if it's juz a normal bird.. but it freakin look like a chicken.. LOL

found out fr my mom that's the bird the crows n mynahs r fighting over (the reason for the racket) but hey! that bird's no smaller than a crow itself!!?!?! O_O i wonder how the crow manage to catch it n bring it up all the way here to the 8th storey... =S  

anyway, tink the bird/chicken finally decided that my prescence is disturbing n flew off... (banging it's left wing into the wall of my neighbours, before flying out...o_o||| ) n i was wonderin if i shld ask my mom if shld bring the bird/chicken in.. incase it's too injured to even move.. =X

but i ended up being late for lesson bcuz i fussed over the bird.. tee heee
come to tink of it.. i shld hav quickly snapped a pic of that bird/chicken... definately never seen one like that in s'pore b4...

�v���v��... can i give up?

[ mood | numb ]

(an entry wif mixed characters... got english, chinese n some jap characters =X so for encoding pls dun ask me set to wat.. i not sure myself. whahaaa)
The whole world's chasing after me for assignments n projects... *runs away and hide*

I've been hiding under "Appear Offline" mode most of the time nowadays... so I'll have less questions to ans and more time to do my stuff hopefully... Not that i don't wanna help, but i'm in dire straits myself.. �D��萨过�]�u�g难��啊

been sitting so long infront of the comp, i keep wondering if i'll ever get all the sickness due to long hours of exposure to computers? perhaps i'll juz die infront of the comp one day. �ӂӂӂӂӂ�...

i juz wish my mom n dad will stop fussing over my lost of sleep... it's not like i don't wanna sleep u noe...

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[ mood | sleepy ]

i survived today with a near 3 hours sleep last night! so so so tiring... so tired that even though i keep bumping into people today... my greetings are all half hearted... no mood, no energy...

went olive cove for lunch alone again... kinda find it nice eating alone there.. it doesn't feel weird.. unlike the canteen...but if i go there eat everytime i'll go pok faster... =s

today whole day lab lab lab... din have much progress actually cuz wire wrapping takes up too much time. haiz... then today's lab also that few usual ppl + zhiqian n polar bear... then fred like v eng also come dwn n kpo... he always seems so free.. can go ard sit in for lect.. lol

i'm laggin ar.... they all so way up ahead liao.. haiz...

left sch ard 540pm lidat.. then went dwn to SLT (sim lim towers) to find a cheap cheap multimeter (cuz that time saw zf got one for 10 bucks?!) but end up reach there all the shops gonna close le... n i ended up buying a better multimeter at 18bucks... pok gai liao... muz scrimp n save le..

oh ya... today saw many stuff that reminds me of brokeback mt.. =X erm... but i guess the most striking one will be my dinner... one of the dish is.. baked beans! =X

brokeback mt.

[ mood | indescribable ]

finally(?) got my butt into the cinema to watch a movie that's rated R21... (mind you, this is not my 1st R21 movie. :p but it's the first to be watched in a cinema, with IC checked.)

met up wif the AS peeps (less Erik, who's working :\) at PS, wif lia n tk only joining us much later (near show starting time). A last min decision to buy popcorn and candy floss (urs sincerely here, loves candy floss =p) in, got our I.C.s checkd n settled down... uh.. just a note, their candy floss tho not exactly ex.. is not reallie nice.. so doubt i'll buy nxt time.. =X Then today's popcorn not really sweet also.

The show started after a long series of advertisements (some are rather stupid) and for the first few minutes, I thought the setting is going to be all on brokeback mountain and with sheeps n horses. Awfully lots of sheeps n very nice scenery. And well, I was taken aback by the speed of progress by the two guys. (If you didn't know, this movie has a gay theme... yaoi alert! +lemon... =s) Apparently the resistance is rather little... so my jaw dropped for that moment... the scene was slightly more explicit then what i thought, though you don't really see anything. But when tk says it's in the shadows.. i guess i really thought it will be totally shadows... teh.. wrongo! As for the rest of the story... though there's like no super peaks in the plot... but as usual, some scenes are simply jaw dropping. It's not all about smut... but still rather explicit... not much hidden meanings... haa... uh... ya... an ok movie if u're not really that off with the main theme... I got nothing against gays, but i'm probably still not very acquainted to seeing two guys doing so much stuff together. In anime, this kinda uneasy-ness never comes along (probably becuz one of the guys will look rather feminine...)

Yup... that's about it? Dinner @ amk n went fer co after tt... was late... =s guess auntie's hokkien mee took abit long (muahaha shift all the blame to her hokkien mee.. =X)

oh ya, and I guess I'll give similar shows like brokeback mt a pass in future... =S

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